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thinking more and more about coming back here but doing a soft reboot and sticking to the unaffliated status i originally went with for this blog.

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thinking about bucky......

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icymi im currently over on @padawanfell as i don’t have a ton of muse for bucky rn! <3

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i wanna shine on in the hearts of man, i want a meaning from the back of my broken hand!   ©

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Best friends since childhood, Bucky Barnes and Steven Rogers were inseparable on both schoolyard and battlefield.

BUCKY BARNES & STEVE ROGERS in the MARVEL CINEMATIC UNIVERSE

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hyperfixation cycle has come back around to star wars (much to my chagrin) so for the time being, i’m sticking this blog on a semi-hiatus!! i’m always around on discord and happy to plot whenever so feel free to add me :)

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strong stoic man with sad past: *adopts child*

me every single time:

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thinking about how my type is traumatised people who are kind towards children only because they see the potential they never got for themselves in these kids

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what are everyone’s fave muses to write that have a very small or non existent rpc 👁

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MUSE SURVEY: BATTLE EDITION

BOLD what consistently applies, italicize situational, not always. ( ʀᴇᴘᴏsᴛ, ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʀᴇʙʟᴏɢ! )

fight honorably  /  fight dirty  /  prefer close-quarters  /  prefer range  /  chat during  /  go silent  /  low pain tolerance  /  high pain tolerance  /  attack in bursts  /  attack steadily  /  go for the kill  /  aim to disarm  /  fight defensively  /  strike first  /  provoked easily  /  provoke their opponent  /  tease  /  get visibly frustrated  /  shout while attacking  /  use strategy  /  focus on their battle  /  experience conflicting thoughts during battle  /  rush in recklessly  /  try to read their opponent before fighting  /  fight wildly  /  fight calmly and,  or apathetically  /  fight with anger  /  fight with excitement  /  fight because they have to  /  fight because they want to  /  fight without regard to wounds  /  run away when wounded  /  hide wounds  /  take a blow to protect another  /  prefer a blade  /  prefer a gun  /  prefer to use their ability  /  prefer a bow  /  prefer a shield /  prefer a pole arm  /  prefer a personalized weapon  /  prefer magic or spells  /  prefer brawling  /  their greatest weakness is physical  /  their greatest weakness is mental  /  their greatest weakness is emotional  /  transform for battle  /  fight as they appear  /  rely on strength  /  rely on speed  /  use everything they have  /  hide their full potential  / exhaust quickly  /  high stamina  /  doubt their strength  /  proceed with caution  /  behave arrogantly  /  brag after landing a hit  /  belittle their abilities  /  use psychological tactics  /  use brute strength  / avoid civilians  /  strike down civilians  /  damage surroundings  /  avoid damaging surroundings  / signature fighting style  /  making it up as they go  /  mastered skillset  /  learning their skillset  /  fancy footwork  /  sloppy footwork  /  messy fighter / elegant fighter  /  accept defeat  /  refuse defeat  /  beg for mercy  /  compliment their opponent  /  insult their opponent  / use unnecessary movements  ( flips,  twirls )  /  move efficiently  /  barely move  /  prefer to dodge  /  prefer to block  /  defend their blindside  /  has no blindside  /  use all available advantages  ( ex :  use a gun but also throw punches,  kick out while blades clash,  etc. )  /  strictly use one main method  /  play around  /  hold back  /  fight ruthlessly  /  show mercy  / wait for opponent to be ready  /  strike when opponent isn’t ready  /  fear death  /  fear pain  / fear killing  /  has ptsd  /  avoid fighting  /  has lost a fight  /  has won a fight  /  has killed  / refuses to kill  /  want to die standing  /  would succumb slowly

tagged by: @intohero mwah! tagging: @asynjja​ @dominaelumine​ @vsself​ and anyone who wants to do this!!

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send ❥ for senders muse to jump into receiver’s arms after a dangerous moment/being apart for a long time

send ❣ for receiver’s muse to jump into sender’s after a dangerous moment/being apart for a long time

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@dominaelumine​ said:   “ you’re not nearly as quiet as you believe yourself to be. ”   /   some very old meme.

   chest rising and falling in rapid motions,  attention solely focused on the dagger of light held to his throat.   it was a simple combat exercise he had set up,  more commonly known as hide and seek.   she had practically appeared out of thin air,  an impressive feat considering very little slipped by him.   perhaps he was softening in the time since being freed from hydra’s grasp.   only once tandy pulls away does his breathing slow,  giving her a sharp nod.   ❝   good work. do you think you can do it again?   ❞   he doesn’t doubt it was a fluke,  but bucky wouldn’t go easy on her after this initial win.

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@moonsymbols​ said:  we don’t get what we deserve, right? we just get what we get.   /   mabel,  accepting.

   it feels like an attempt at levity that doesn’t quite sink in.   hollowed eyes stare at the small fire built between them,  unwavering whenever there’s a shift within the flames.   even if fate makes its own plans,  this feels like a particularly unfavorable hand that’s been played.   he’s never been the praying type,  save for a few times when steve was looking real close to slipping away and that rosary was the only thing to bring any comfort.   perhaps god’s just now catching up with the amount of rot that’s eaten into his soul and dealing out the punishment.

   either way,  he only responds to her with a grunt.   the fire pops loudly as a stack of wood collapses,  and he squeezes his eyes tightly shut.   it’s too early to sleep and he knows that he won’t be well rested regardless.

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i can separate my muses into physical expression or emotional expression and bucky is absolutely the former

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𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐨​ ​  ;  steve rogers.

❛   i’m  not  asking  you  to  be  that  man.   ❜   he  continues,  careful,  words  like  a  battle  plan.   ❛   but  you’re  someone.  you’re  gonna  want,  and  love,  and  hate,  and  all  the  other  bullshit  that  comes  with  being  a  person.  you  get  to  experience  all  of  it.  i  just  —   ❜  he  stops,  here.  cuts  himself  off  swift,  because  there’s  desperation  dripping  into  tone  and  steve  won’t  let  it.  none  of  this  is  about  him.  he’s  been  told  before  in  varying  levels  of  kindness,  that  being  around  him  isn’t  always  easy.  it  means  pressure.  it  means  unreachable  expectations.   his  mouth  only  opens  when  he  knows  what  comes  out  will  be  level.

❛   i’m  sorry  i  keep  tryin’  to  tell  you  who  you  are.  i’ll  work  on  it.   ❜    he’s  terrible  at  letting  go.  always  has  been,  but  he  knows  how  to  adjust.  if  he  can  get  his  footing  in  a  whole  new  century  he  can  sure  as  hell  do  it  again  for  his  best  friend.    ❛   i’m  not  gonna  pretend  i  don’t  remember  the  bucky  barnes  i  grew  up  with,  or  that  those  memories  don’t  mean  somethin’  to  me,  but  i  don’t  need  you  to  be  him.   ❜   he’d  loved  him  back  then,  smaller  and  fragile.  loved  him  when  steve  was  doing  high  kicks  across  a  stage.  loved  him  when  he  thought  it  might  be  the  last  thing  he  did,  glass  shattering  under  his  feet  and  slamming  into  concrete  water.  it’s  one  of  very  few  certainties  in  steve’s  life,  but  there  are  things  he  just  doesn’t  think  bucky’s  ready  to  hear.   ❛   i’d  just  like  the  chance  to  get  to  know  this  you.   ❜

   as steve talks,  there’s a clench unclench of his metal hand,  soft creaking with fluctating tension.   he can’t bring himself to meet his gaze again,  not when the words sink inside him like lead.   pressing on his chest,  numbness seeping through like lying in two feet on snow,  pain steadily overwhelming every nerve.   he has always existed on the precipice of life and death,  light and dark,  a balancing act between then and now.   it is easy to slink away back into the dark  —  as much as he may vocally loathe it,  he was shaped by it.   now he stands before the light,  his second chance offered out,  and finds himself feeling something from another life:  he is scared.

     ❝   ... fuck.   ❞   he finally exhales,  a small hitch in his tone that almost betrays his true feelings.   quickly,  he scrubs at his eyes,  lips twisting into a half smile.   bucky stops himself,  shakes his head,  before finally speaking,   ❝   i’d... i’d like having you around.   ❞   it’s the closest to a yes that steve will get at this stage.   uncertain breaths morph into a small chuckle,  just to himself.   ❝   ‘was gonna scare you off, woulda done so by now.   ❞   both of them have been running towards the future,  towards each other (the long way round).   it’s only now that he’s allowing himself to stop.

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isabelandbartosz via instagram 

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the ghost said to me:  you are a dead thing made by a dead power in the shape of the dead.  all you will do is kill.           (  the winter soldier, debriefed by pidge.  )