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WHY DO YOU HURT?:

this isn't enough for you

the words creep into your head in the dead of night one night and you cannot get rid of them. 'this isn't enough for me anymore'. you thought this was enough for you at some point, or maybe you hoped that it would be, but it isn't, and it hurts. you need to change something, or die trying. this - life like this - does not make life worth living. there is a lump in your throat that demands attention every waking moment of the day. there is pain in your body like a cavernous maw you cannot keep balance over. this is not what you wanted. you need to change. you can't stay here. it is not a character flaw you want more.

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Once in a blue moon

you meet a love

that comes blazing

into your soul

under the calm of night

and even though

you’ve seen the moon before

somehow you know this

one is different.

—M.R.

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Thank you for everything.

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Fate

I’m built for a love that’s destined to take me down that unending swell, love, with passion that burns the ground I crave the Armageddon that comes amidst the fire in her kiss the anticipation and silence through the planets and all her distance Tell me, have you ever desired so feverish your bones shake to ash have you watched the sky rip apart dreaming of her hips in your grasp I’m starving and destroyed emaciated but how long will it last till I catch her flame and snuff it beneath my glass

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We may find ourselves crying now

for all the times

we never allowed ourselves to.

The fight has slowed....

The show is over

And everyone is going home.

You're finally alone.

So cry it out.

Scream at the demons and angels

In your head responsible

For the conflicts

That left you next to dead

And the times you trusted and loved

Then were left without.

Let it burn away your pain

With all of the fury of the sun

With the tears

Filled with the years

Of self abuse

Unhealthy use

And all of the words

That you deserved to hear

Throughout the years

But remain Unsaid

And every promise made to you

That stays undone.

Cry for the times he left bruises

Or she left you confused

For times that you were afraid,

Felt yourself unworthy

or unable to be saved

Or didn't respect yourself

enough to leave

When you found out

you were being used.

Cry for times mismanaged

For the times you allowed

Yourself to become damaged

For humanities lack of understanding

And compassion

Cry when the tears come.

Even if it seems inopportune...

Cry when you need to...

Let the floodgates open

And let your liberation

And all the weight of all the mistakes

You and everyone else ever made

And finally your freedom

from its weight bleed through

Cry for everyone you let down

that needed you

Then....

Get yourself up and move

improve.

Breathe

Believe in you.

- Devine Theory

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We Were Just Kids // Emmure

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when i entered the car

i noticed that your back seat was full of roses

all different colors, different sizes, but very potent

you told me that i deserved it

and that if i was looking for something to

hold on to, then i should stop searching

because i had you

and if that sentiment wasn’t enough proof

he had what looked like a million roses

that stacked up to his car roof

kira malibu

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I used to build dreams about you.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via quotemadness)

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Poems & Words

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when you accidentally open the chat thing with someone and it says mutuals for 6 years

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Her words, a sweet melody to my heart,

Piecing back the once shattered fragments,

Encompassing me within her silent laments.

- DG

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from holding you down with me here

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lost through selfish measures

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dr͟é̕͟á̛m̴ ̴ch̴̀ase̸͘͞r days are numbered

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I love that word. Forever. I love that forever doesn’t exist, but we have a word for it anyway, and use it all the time. It’s beautiful and doomed.

Viv Albertine (via quotemadness)

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“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” - Winnie the Pooh

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i went digging a while ago and found this vocal version of endrance’s theme from the now deactivated asktsukasa blog but found via this post from @elysianstars…

there was some romaji as well, but it wasn’t all correct, so i took a crack at translating it and wanted to put it in a different post because i figure more people will see it this way :’3

there were no written lyrics on the internet so my boss helped me transcribe it, but if anyone hears anything different and wants to make corrections pls… hit me with it

that said, here you are:

I can hear your voice Only in my heart Forever with you An everlasting promise

Although you have lost your form I will wait for you, who has become roses

If I could see you once more I could be released from my despair And go with you to the abyss Such is my wish

Your diminishing color It feels like I can still take your hand I am bound within the frozen chains of An everlasting love

Although you have lost your words I will wait for you, who has become the wind

If it’s a false mirror then I will cover it with rose petals and be satisfied With your fragrance I am truly myself

If I could see you once more I could be released from my despair And go with you to the abyss Such is my wish

If it’s a false mirror then I will cover it with rose petals and be satisfied With your fragrance I am truly myself