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Okay, so I was thinking about how Dazai treated/trained Atsushi vs. Akutagawa. And it got really long.

Akutagawa

The Port Mafia is based on taking. Snatching something, even people’s lives, and making it your own, no matter what the cost is. They are violent people.

Dazai was brought up in an environment like this and wasn’t taught to be warm and loving. He wasn’t trained to be so towards others, either.

When he sees Akutagawa, he knows he’ll belong in the Port Mafia perfectly because of his nature. Akutagawa lived in the slums, at the bottom of the bottom, was vicious and stopped at nothing to get what he needed for himself and those around him.

To get someone like Akutagawa to join the Port Mafia, Dazai knows violence as reparations is best. So he kills the men that murdered Akutagawa’s friends (which what kind of oddly murderous-romantic-gesture is that?) to coerce Akutagawa into being his subordinate.

In all honesty, Dazai could have forced Akutagawa, he has the power, but he doesn’t.

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On Dazai’s treatment of Akutagawa and Atsushi

Dazai’s treatment towards Akutagawa is downright manipulative. But is it necessary? Meanwhile, Dazai’s teaching methods for Atsushi, though still involving manipulation, seem much more patient and tolerant. I have some thoughts regarding why this may be the case:

1. Given the circumstances, manipulating Akutagawa was the fastest way to achieve results.

Akutagawa sprung into action the moment Dazai ordered him to during the capture of the rats. While Atsushi was still protesting, Akutagawa didn’t even need any convincing whatsoever. Given his low self-esteem and his high regard for Dazai, Akutagawa never even blamed Dazai for his suffering, or doubted Dazai’s judgment. Dazai knew this, and I imagine he must have considered how much simpler it would be to give Akutagawa an order from God, than to have a heart to heart talk with him about how he should learn to value himself more and let go of Dazai’s shadow.

2. Dazai really doesn’t know any other way to treat Akutagawa, or to help him grow.

Akutagawa’s strength in combat is beyond question. Dazai may have been manipulative, but it was because he thought allowing Akutagawa to use his strength was a good way for him to grow. This is especially true at the time that Dazai picked him up, since to become stronger was Akutagawa’s greatest chance of survival in the mafia. Now, even after four years had passed, Dazai doesn’t know any other way to teach Akutagawa. The boy has been soaked to the bones with violence, and Dazai himself has had too much blood on his hands to think of another, healthier way, even if he does truly care for Akutagawa. And I believe he does, because after all they have gone through, Akutagawa doesn’t seem the least afraid of Dazai. He yearns for his acknowledgement, and he wants it for himself, not out of fear but out of his own self-gratification. I believe Dazai does not wish to torture Akutagawa for fun, and Akutagawa does not think of Dazai’s actions as evil or unnecessarily cruel. He is strong enough now to stand up for himself, if only he wishes to. He is no longer afraid of Dazai’s punishment, nor is he afraid to beat Dazai to a pulp. In a way, he willingly holds on to that longing because it gives him a desire to live and to fight.

Akutagawa doesn’t know any other way to live, and Dazai doesn’t know how to help him. Which makes Atsushi’s contribution extremely important.

3. Dazai’s teaching adapts itself to the audience in question.

While both of them have frighteningly low expectations of themselves, Atsushi’s exposure to violence taught him to value kindness, while Akutagawa learnt to value strength above everything else.

This may be the key reason why Dazai’s attitude towards these boys are so fundamentally different. Dazai adapted his teaching methods to produce the greatest results possible with his prodigies. With Atsushi, he knew violence would just bring him to hate himself even more, which would not allow him to come to terms with his ability and therefore not produce desired results. Kindness would be a much more effective method, which would help Atsushi come to terms with himself and allow himself to be in harmony with his ability. With Akutagawa, the issue with his ability was not how to control and reconcile with it, but how to use its full potential. Dazai knew Akutagawa had tremendous potential, but not the maturity to fully use it. That’s why he chose the fastest method: a fucking survival camp.

The result of Dazai’s teaching in these two boys is made painfully clear to us: while Atsushi sees Dazai as an empowering figure, a source of guidance to help him believe in himself, Akutagawa relies on Dazai’s existence to verify his own, and never once questions him.

“Those who tried to understand Dazai-san all hit a dead end. He decided this combination would produce the best result, there is no need to question it.”

“In this kind of situation, what would Dazai-san do?”

4. Dazai doesn’t think of himself as a good mentor, but he believes he has to train Akutagawa and Atsushi out of necessity. Hence the manipulative methods towards both.

With Atsushi, there is indication that Dazai is actually willing to go the extra mile to help him escape his own self-pity pit. When Dazai offers his heart felt advice, he stops being just a trainer, and becomes Atsushi’s genuine pillar for guidance and support. (It is my secret hope that Dazai’s trying to become for Atsushi what Oda was for him.)

With Akutagawa, that sort of advice would not have the same effect. At the same time, Dazai wasn’t in any shape to give anyone emotional support when Akutagawa needed it the most, so he resorted to action instead. Dazai may also have realized that he is not the best person to help pull Akutagawa out of that deep darkness, so he might have teamed Atsushi up with him to fill in that space. Dazai is trying to do for Atsushi what he thinks Oda might have done, but he couldn’t do that for Akutagawa. There is no undoing what he did, but he hopes Atsushi can teach Akutagawa what he couldn’t.

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In your opinion, what do you think Atsushi and Akutagawa meant to Dazai?

In the official Dead Apple guidebook it says:

Dazai thinks of Atsushi and Akutagawa first and foremost as the ability users he is training to be able to work together to defeat Fyodor. That has to come before anything else because if it doesn’t then everyone could die. But at the same time, Dazai isn’t driven solely by logic and he does feel things for people.

In Akutagawa’s case I think that Dazai resents the fact that Akutagawa puts him on a pedestal. Dazai views himself as flawed and a bad person (I’m partially basing that assumption on his self destructive tendencies in the anime and the works and life of the real Dazai). In Dazai’s mind he is not worthy of being Akutagawa’s hero and someone to look up to. I think that is part of why Dazai never let himself get close to Akutagawa. That and his crazy spartan training and working within the values and rules of the Mafia made it so Dazai, who didn’t want to get close to anyone anyway (he took a big risk with Oda and Ango and that didn’t turn out so well for the most part), definitely didn’t want to get close to his underling Akutagawa. However, Dazai does see the potential in him. I also think that now Dazai knows that at this point he’s not the right person to change Akutagawa and make him happier. I guess you could say that he can’t do for Akutagawa what Oda did for him. Atsushi actually has a better chance of getting through to Akutagawa as a peer and helping him realize what he needs to change in order to become a good person, gain what he lacks, and ultimately become what Dazai intended for him to become.

I think that the reason Dazai treats Atsushi differently is because he met Atsushi after leaving the Mafia. He has a very different perspective. He feels a sense of responsibility for Atsushi and rather than doing everything he can to toughen Atsushi up and prepare him for the injustices and terrors the world will throw at him (like he did for Akutagawa) he needs to give Atsushi the confidence and emotional strength to handle them. Maybe it’s an attempt to do for Atsushi what he didn’t know how to for Akutagawa?

I also think that part of the reason Dazai relates to Atsushi so well and they have a special relationship is because Atsushi reminds Dazai of Oda. They both value life and have a way of seeing through Dazai in a way no one else can. Of course Oda was more experienced and could understand better what Dazai had been through and what he was searching for, but Atsushi in his own way understands Dazai as well. I’ve said before how wonderful it is that Atsushi is saving Dazai while Dazai is saving Atsushi. They help each other in so many ways. I think Dazai is aware of that and that is why he responds so much more positively toward Atsushi than he does Akutagawa.

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Lovely.

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we’re in a bad place, and it's so stupid and so annoying. But I know there’s hope. Maybe not this year, maybe not in four years, but things will get better because we know what the alternative is.

the most telling thing about the political climate this year is that usually my dash is filled with 4th of July posts by now but there’s been absolutely nothing… like nobody can even find the strength to post ironic eagle memes are you guys alright over there

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It has to be said

Tony, I love ya, man, I do, but unlike the fans who adore you and write you so well in fanfic, your MCU canon incarnation has NOT LEARNED ONE GODDAMN THING SINCE ULTRON. FFS. YOUR LIFE. YOUR CHOICES. AUGH!!!!

LISTEN TO PEPPER GDI!!!

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EMY IF 300 PEOPLE LIKE/REQUEST PROMDYN WILL YOU DO IT? I KNOW ITS A GARBAGE SHIP BUT PLEASE I AM GARBAGE WE NEED LOVE TOO

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OK PEOPLE. WHY NOW THIS? The garbage man with the sunshine? JFC why.

But I guess we can play.

If this thing will reach not 300 but at least 500 DIFFERENT PERSONS [NO SPAM GUYS] 500 reblogs ONLY THAT COUNTS, I may do SOMETHING. 

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this is a really good story waiting to happen!

Prince Prompto.

I imagine with Luna also being a captive of the Empire they occasionally meet and are fast friends. Prom is a lot in love with Pryna.

The one day Regis and co arrive for talks in Niflheim

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Perfection!

Let Me Hear Your Battlecry by @Tsume-Yuki Comic Complete

The glorious fan fiction

Here’s the whole thing, enjoy! Thanks for reading:)

It’s done!!! This pirate king’s scepter will be a meat club. And Vivi is a Strawhat, so she can’t be missing out, she’d love a nice pirate adventure, she can take out the pacifista like Hancock? I’ve always thought that if Luffy ever settled with a girl, it would be her, because my Alabasta feelings are strong, one of my absolute fav arcs.

Anyways, I copied from Oda’s illustrations and such, hope Luffy looks regal enough:)))

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iemitsu is like WTF, the 9th like ‘that was pretty cool’ and Reborn is like ‘ this kid’

Reborn knows exactly how many tries it took for Tsuna to get that shit right. (Based on this)

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More ffxv

Words of Wisdom

Rating: G Word Count: 71,018 Warnings: N/A

A request for @luxclio!

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On the days where the pain in his leg was nothing more than a dull throb and he had a few moments of peace, Regis liked to stroll through the royal garden. It was the one place he could go without being presented with updates on the war, where he could take a few precious minutes to clear his head.

Typically, when he ventured through the garden, he was alone―the groundskeepers that tended to the garden typically did their work in the early hours, allowing them to spend most of the day keeping the outside of the citadel in pristine condition. Tonight, however, Regis had some company.

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Found this dog outside, does he belong to anyone? Found in San Antonio. Hoping he can find his way home.

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This is gold.

Chirp

Wing AU

Prompto Week Day 7 (10/25): Free choice

Unfortunately, I won’t be around tomorrow, and didn’t get a chance to write what I wanted for Prompto’s birthday. So, instead you can have a work in progress Wing AU. Unedited so far I’m afraid. But I didn’t want to miss the last day. I hope you enjoy none the less! 

Chirp.

The moment the noise left him, Prompto slapped both hands over his mouth. His eyes widened and he spun on heel to dash out of the citadel. The woman that had caused the chirp snapped her head toward him and her own eyes widened. He dropped his hands from his mouth and started sprinting for the door. The woman gave a surprised cry and he could hear the beginning of footsteps somewhere behind him. He was lucky they were so far away.

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oh my god!!!!!!! I love this!

@luxclio requested: 7. “You did what?!” 93. “It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.”

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Prompto is pale enough his freckles seem to have darkened and multiplied. His eyes are slightly unfocused, and there’s a purple bruise on his cheekbone. He looks exhausted. He looks devastated.

“You did what?” Noctis says again, and Prompto’s expression crumples even more. Noctis reaches out and squeezes his hand, even as he directs his disbelieving gaze up at the grim faces on the other side of the infirmary bed.

“I blew up the safe house,” Prompto says. His eyes squeeze shut, and his voice is wobbly and slurred. The painkillers are working, at least. “I thought they—my team—was out so I—I thought if I just—destroyed the… the whole thing…”

“What happened to his team?” Noctis demands.

Cor coughs from where he stands behind Regis. “They abandoned him. They meant to trap him in there, only they—along with the rest of us, it seems—underestimated Argentum’s ability to use his resources.”

“Prompto’s really good with his hands,” Noctis says, “Our tech ed teacher wanted to make recommendations for him for some special school but—What do you mean about his team?”

“It appears,” Ignis says from beside Noctis, “that Prompto’s rapid progress in the Crownsguard program isn’t as well-accepted amongst his fellow Crownsguard trainees.”

“So you just let him—you just watched his team stab him in the back?”

Cor sighs through his nose. “Argentum moved before we could step in. We didn’t expect him to be able to rewire explosives or to dive back in and save his team members.”

“Of course he would. He’s Prompto.”

The king finally shifts from his seat next to Prompto’s prone form. The poor kid’s passed out somewhere in the middle of the tense conversation, brows still furrowed and mouth tugged downwards. Regis lifts his gaze and smiles slightly at his son. “It’s a shame nobody asked for your opinion beforehand,” he says.

Noctis scowls. He tightens his grip on Prompto’s hand.

“Argentum disrupted the final Crownsguard exam,” says Cor, and he presses on before Noctis can open his mouth to protest. “However, it was partly our fault for not noticing and putting an end to the internal conflict between the trainees. His Crownsguard standing is still effective while he’s recovering. In the meantime, I will see that the other parties involved receive proper penalties.”

“You better,” Noctis says, even as Ignis sighs at his rudeness.

Cor bows stiffly, and, casting one last look at the pale boy on the bed, steps out. Regis stays a moment longer. 

“I’ll have to admit, Noctis,” he says, and Noctis glances at him wearily. “I did not think much of him when you recommended him. But I see now that Prompto is more than capable.”

“He is. He’s Prompto.”

“Yes.” Regis stands, leaning heavily on his cane. “I wish him a speedy recovery. We’ll discuss the Crownsguard matter after he’s back on his feet.”

Noctis hums. He barely acknowledges Ignis helping Regis out the door, eyes back on Prompto’s face. He reaches out to brush aside messy blond bangs. Prompto will be okay. He knows. Prompto will be okay, because Noctis believes in him.

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11. with Chocobros and if possible either Cor or Regis (if not just the Chocobros). Christmas is coming up and Prompto buys everyone some Christmas presents. All of which were incredibly thoughtful and well-thought-out.

WRITING PROMPTS

WRITING PROMPTS FOR DAYS Feel free to request any of these for any character.

1. “Do you want me to leave?” 2. “I swear it won’t happen again.” 3. “I’m not jealous.” 4. “You can’t keep doing this.” 5. “I’m going to take care of you, okay?” 6. “You can’t die. Please don’t die.” 7. “You did what?!” 8. “Were you ever going to tell me?” 9. “Don’t ask me that.” 10. “I might have had a few shots.” 11. “What’s with the box?” 12. “Say it!” 13. “I could kiss you right now!” 14. “Are you done with that?” 15. “Are you still awake…?” 16. “Excuse you?” 17. “This is all your fault!” 18. “I shouldn’t be in love with you.” 19. “I could kill you right now!” 20. “Just admit I’m right.” 21. “That doesn’t even make sense.” 22. “That’s irrational.” 23. “Just pretend to be my date.” 24. “Are you really going to leave without asking me the question you’ve been dying to ask me?” 25. “When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Especially then!” 26. “I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again.” 27. “I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore.” 28. “That’s almost exactly the opposite of what I meant.” 29. “It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.” 30. “Can I sit here? The other tables are full.” 31. “You weren’t supposed to laugh!” 32. “This is, by far, the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.” 33. “I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.” 34. “These stars are nothing compared to the ones I’ve seen in your eyes.” 35. “Before I do this, I need you to know that I have always loved you.” 36. “Did I say that out loud?” 37. “Do you think they could have loved me?” 38. “Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.” 39. “How long have you been standing there?” 40. “Have I ever lied to you?” 41. “Have you lost your fucking mind?” 42. “His ego is so visible; I can almost watch it grow.” 43. “I am not losing you again!” 44. “I don’t know why I’m crying.” 45. “I had a nightmare about you and I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.” 46. “I just need to be alone right now.” 47. “When I picture myself happy… It’s with you.” 48. “I made a mistake.” 49. “I may be an idiot, but I’m your idiot.” 50. “I need you to forgive me.” 51. “I see the way you look at me when you think I’m not looking.” 52. “I think I’m in love with you and that scares me half to death.” 53. “I’m flirting with you.” 54. “I’m not good enough for you.” 55. “I fell in love with my best friend.” 56. “I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.” 57. “I’m up to the challenge.” 58. “I’ve been in love with you my entire life. Ever since the day I first met you.” 59. “I’m yours.” 60. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me.” 61. “If you go anywhere near them, you’ll have to deal with me!” 62. “It’s okay to cry…” 63. “What do you mean? It’s exciting!” 64. “Talk to me.” 65. “Look at me—just breathe, okay?” 66. “Look, I don’t have much time, but I wanted to say I love you.” 67. “Oh my god! You’re in love with them!” 68. “Well, this is where I live.” 69. “We finish it the same way we started—together.” 70. “What are you afraid of?” 71. “You are the single best thing that has ever happened to me.” 72. “You deserve so much better.” 73. “You don’t have to stay.” 74. “You don’t know you the way I do.” 75. “You fainted, straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention, you didn’t have to go to such extremes.” 76. “You need to wake up because I can’t do this without you.” 77. “You shouldn’t have even been there!” 78. “You weren’t supposed to hear that.” 79. “You’re safe now. I’ve got you.” 80. “Teach me?” 81. “We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you want to stop and feel the rain?” 82. “Looks like we’ll be stuck here for a while.” 83. “Just once.” 84. “I can’t believe you talked me into this.” 85. “It’s not what it looks like.” 86. “I got you a present.” 87. “Hey! I was gonna eat that!” 88. “See, now, what that so bad?”.” 89. “You’re the best part of me.” 90. “I don’t want to think about what I’d be like without you.” 91. “Can I hold your hand?” 92. “Let’s move in together.” 93. “It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.” 94. “What time is it?” 95. “Just wait a second.” 96. “Here, let me.” 97. “You’re so cute when you pout like that.” 98. “Hold me back!’ 99. “I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!” 100. “I adore you.”

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I now want to read a fanfiction about how Puma Tiger Scorpion is mortally afraid of Yuuri and plays dead whenever he’s in the room/touches him and no one can figure out why.

(I headcanon its because Yuuri has bamf martial arts skills or something and the animals know....)

KUBO’S FAN REQUEST DRAWINGS ARE GIVING ME LIFE: FROM YUURI WEARING VICTOR’S BLACK PANTIES TO VICTOR PROUDLY SHOWING OFF HIS RING 😍 (x, x, x, x)