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I hope disabled and intersex people with "embarassing" and "scary" and very misunderstood and dismissed symptoms and characteristics have a good day today. I hope today is free of ridicule, shame, and humiliation. I hope today is a day free of pain.

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Toby Fox was insane for making the Mike fight thematically relevant

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There is rice in the kitchen but there is no video so I won't eat it. Is this a pathology of some sort.

YouTube blackout making me realize I can't eat without a Video on

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I lay in bed and think "huh I'm hungry let me pick a video" then I remember "wait video is illegal now guess not" and get distracted with something else. Rinse and repeat. I've been stuck here for hours.

YouTube blackout making me realize I can't eat without a Video on

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YouTube blackout making me realize I can't eat without a Video on

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For the last time, there is not a goverment conspiracy to turn people transgender. That's just me and my independently developed hormone beam

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How could I forget Scott Cawthon got involved

You think you know fandom cringe but you do not speak Spanish. The name "Edd00chan" means nothing to you. You don't know what BxB is, for you, cyan and purple are just colors. Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by Set It Off is, to you, about Sans Undertale.

But not me. I have seen things you anglo fucks couldn't even dream of. Drama of a caliber to put the homestucks to shame. Queerbaiting, transphobia, racism. Plagiarism and other such cases of copyright infringement. Outrageosly expensive merchandise. A nonsensical storyline. A series so poisonous every single person who touched it has been either cancelled or has faded into obscurity.

If you were a Spanish speaker between the ages of 10 and 17 in 2016 you know exactly what I'm talking about. There is a good chance you were a part of it. Maybe it even changed your life.

And if you were not part of this demographic, you will remain in blissful ignorance as we, the aging fanbase, hold onto the few redeemable qualities of that radioactive pile of bullshit, drawing, writing, praying for a better future, and we whisper among ourselves, "huh, that shit was cursed, wasn't it."

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You think you know fandom cringe but you do not speak Spanish. The name "Edd00chan" means nothing to you. You don't know what BxB is, for you, cyan and purple are just colors. Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by Set It Off is, to you, about Sans Undertale.

But not me. I have seen things you anglo fucks couldn't even dream of. Drama of a caliber to put the homestucks to shame. Queerbaiting, transphobia, racism. Plagiarism and other such cases of copyright infringement. Outrageosly expensive merchandise. A nonsensical storyline. A series so poisonous every single person who touched it has been either cancelled or has faded into obscurity.

If you were a Spanish speaker between the ages of 10 and 17 in 2016 you know exactly what I'm talking about. There is a good chance you were a part of it. Maybe it even changed your life.

And if you were not part of this demographic, you will remain in blissful ignorance as we, the aging fanbase, hold onto the few redeemable qualities of that radioactive pile of bullshit, drawing, writing, praying for a better future, and we whisper among ourselves, "huh, that shit was cursed, wasn't it."

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I don't like vivziepop either but come on get for fucking real

I'm sorry but seeing homestuck fans call hazbin hotel fans cringe is. Really something

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I'm sorry but seeing homestuck fans call hazbin hotel fans cringe is. Really something

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kibby,,.... kitty kittay....

ksksksksks-

Oooooo a treat!!! *licks your hand clean* Yummmm

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waiiit omg at forst i was thinking dead ralsei theory was real bc susie was like SOOOO DEFENSIVE all of a sudden and i didnt even think abt how we dont actually know 😭😭 now i wanna know what u think but no pressure or anything 💗

I AM SO OBSESSED WITH DEAD RALSEI THEORY

I feel like Deltarune is about defying the narratives that are forced upon us and building our own, so it makes sense for Ralsei's fate according to The Prophecy (that is, western narrative convention) would be to die. I'm actually writing an essay about it, here's a little excerpt of my WIP:

This point is further exemplified by Rasei, whose whole character arc is about discovering his own identity beyond making lightners happy, asserting his own sense of purpose even though he isn't ‘real.’ At the start he is presented to us as nothing but a guide: he introduces us to the prophecy and to the mechanics of the world he inhabits. He is aware not only of his status as a darkner, as an inanimate thing, but as a character with a specific narrative role, a role which he tries his best not to deviate from: the guide. He hides it well, but this is devastating for him. For Ralsei, there is no escape from the hero's journey, the rigid structure proposed by Joseph Campbell, in which the hero must heed the call of adventure, enter the world of the fantastical and have the events he experiences there help them grow, and finally come back to the normal world a changed person. The kind of story in which Ralsei lives is one where the mentor figure is always meant to die, so the (often male) protagonist can flourish on their own. 

I don't know if this will actually come to pass in the actual game, but this is what I think the prophecy is supposed to be predicting. It makes sense, at least thematically, for this to be the case. I'm not really a theory crafter so I have no evidence of this besides the fact that it'd make sense considering the way the characters react and what the story is trying to tell.

Sorry for showing my true colors (pretentious literature nerd) this way.

Edit: If you are curious the essay is now about 4000 words long. And it is not finished.

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Sure we have banished Depression to the nether realm. Now you have to deal with its cousin: Anxiety

The thing they don't tell you about recovering from suicidality is that now that you have started looking forward to living you become suddenly afraid of death in a way you weren't able to even conceive before

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The thing they don't tell you about recovering from suicidality is that now that you have started looking forward to living you become suddenly afraid of death in a way you weren't able to even conceive before

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Wait... You meant the movie? 4/10 I guess the sets were nice

6/10 would've rather have cake

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6/10 would've rather have cake

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Personally I feel like non-white, racialized, black and brown, and other such terms are way better than "people of color". I never liked that term even as a kid. I don't know why. It just feels wrong.