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i used to love you

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Nolawi and Narinder's references for my What Is A Shepherd Without A Flock? au because amidst my Inez craze ive also been thinking about their dynamic against Nolawi and Calvert (my other Lamb)'s personalities.

Ranting about Nolawi + their Narinder below!

Nolawi was conceptualized as a Lamb who tries to sacrifice their life for Narinder SO INTENSELY that the mystic seller fucking GIVES UP and lets them have him... But, they have to give up something in return. An eye for an eye, their entire cult for their god.

This is obviously a very devastating and character-breaking moment for them in which they choose their own selfish wants over the good of their flock, but I think they're an interesting character and this reading is surface deep (i say, talking about my own oc).

Nolawi is the oldest of my lambs, they died at 38 and they were a teacher and leader amongst their population. They had a wife and a young daughter who was killed in the slaughter. They lost their entire herd to forces outside of their control, and now they will lose their flock due to their own selfish decisions. And the worst part of it is that they realize that they don't actually care that much. That's what destroys them-- They don't feel for their herd anymore.

They've fallen into the mindset of... 'well, they're just fodder for the future', without even realizing it. The same mindset that led their past sheep herd to being slaughtered. And so, they've made their choice, they have this horrible realization that they're a terrible terrible person, they now have a formerly chained-- pissy (and in immeasurable pain) god by their side, they are ALSO a god now, and oh yeah, they're both going to DIE if they don't raise another cult soon.

So: Fuck. Fuck. They are so, so fucked. Emotionally they're in ruin, and Narinder is physically in ruin. He's trying to help but he's also been in chains in a void for the past thousand years so god knows he's shoving through a world he hasnt walked in ages and he's trying to navigate an incredibly emotionally charged situation with Nolawi. It's such a mess. And again they're on the verge of death and both getting weaker the less devotion they have, Narinder starts with no devotion either so he's on the chopping block first. Nolawi has to move fast while also trying to not let Narinder die and trying to not give into horrible depression. They suck I love them.

Oh to be two middle aged people trying to survive issues far beyond your control while having an incredibly emotionally messy relationship.

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everything i've been drawing recently has been dog water so please take my lazy narilamb doodles. also listen to this song i've had it on loop for the past day or so it's LITERALLY my narilamb interpretation's theme song

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Sickness of the Heart and of the Mind Inez's chaos form and Casimir's peace form, I've gotta workshop them both a bit because I really want to lean into the pure vs impure theming (and how they both subvert that lol) but it's going to take some time. Side note, I think they'd be very gay. Aghh I need to do more character building if you get another dump of Inez art on your feed its because of that. so sorry

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Sickness of the Heart and of the Mind Inez's chaos form and Casimir's peace form, I've gotta workshop them both a bit because I really want to lean into the pure vs impure theming (and how they both subvert that lol) but it's going to take some time. Side note, I think they'd be very gay. Aghh I need to do more character building if you get another dump of Inez art on your feed its because of that. so sorry

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CASIMIR! The goat to Inez's lamb <3

A more casual drawing of them.

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Updated lamb reference, they like feeling fancy and Narinder indulges them. Some more headcanons/facts about my lamb!

wool was shorn after their capture by the bishops

they were originally pulled, horns started growing after resurrection

teeth became sharp as well

they take their “appearance” as a god very seriously. Even while their bad period Narinder does still keep making their clothing/keeps that in mind

has been gradually growing taller since ascending, will eventually be Big

they do have a name, no one know it them.

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i liked this sketch too much to hold back even though shamura is in it but like the concept of them i guess- he so angry and just like AHHHHH. whatever the fuck is going on between them as siblings gives me so many complicated feelings

they're so messy lololol, hi from queue. he looks so gremlin in this it brings me so much joy. tbc this song is read platonically with shamura as a weird stand in parent/sibling who's terrible at being emotionally availble

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What happened to the green crown in Inez’s universe? Do they have a Goat counterpart?

Crowns, at least in my universe, are conduits to power rather then the source of power themselves. So Inez can have the Heart of Chaos and bear the Red Crown without them necessarily conflicting. Thus, the Green Crown never 'merges' with the Red Crown. However, without an owner with the Heart of a Divine, the Crowns cannot function. They have no power on their own, not since Chemach abandoned her responsibility of... essentially 'crown upkeep'. Without an active power supply, the Crowns go into a dormant state. So, that's what happened to the Green Crown. Reduced to a pretty thing on a pedestal.

...Even if Inez wanted to revive the Green Crown, the Red Crown would stop them. It's territorial!

As for a Goat counterpart-- Yes!! They exist! Their name is Casimir to contrast Inez meaning 'Pure', while Casimir can mean 'Destroyer of Peace'. In their universe, they are the vessel of Khaim (Opposite Narinder-- The God of Life.), they have not Leshy's heart but instead Shamura's-- Who in their universe is Concordia.

I drew out their early vessel form for fun, although I don't think I'll talk too much about them unless they're asked about. Not for now at least! I still have to flesh out Inez's side of the story before I can get into Casimir more. They are interesting in concept though, as their story is about embracing their new form rather then rejecting it.

Thank you for asking I really appreciate it :) gave me good stuff to chew on!!!!

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Lots of people depict ascension to godhood in cult of the lamb as a horrifyingly dehumanizing thing. There are some cases where the lamb completely loses themselves or even becomes something more akin to a force of nature rather than a person. This is often foiled very well with Narinder learning how to be a person and enjoy the world around him. It results in the potential for a very interesting plot where the lamb is doomed by the narrative while Narinder can be saved by it. It does beg the question however:

What if they say no? What if they decide the story doesn't get to end that way? What if they break divinity over their knee and pull their still-beating happy ending from the open chest of the narrative? What if they never stop fighting for that life they never got to have, even if it is against the very thing that saved and enabled it? A narrative that seeks to doom them against a lamb too willful and stubborn to let that happen.

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i have homework due in 1hr but instead of doing that i doodled narinder in a wedding dress again so all i can say is that i will get what i deserve when the time comes

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Chaos incarnate

Sorry i got brain bugs Inez is haunting me,,,

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Genuine question for y'all, deep analysis of something I find funny

Main thing; Thoughts about Narilamb, small tw for mention of abuser and manipulation

Does someone of you like, have an AU where your Lamb is evil just because they want?

Like, no "Oh the bishops are my servants I shall torture them for their damage, so I'm evil for torturing them for a trauma", or even, "Oh the bishops are my followers I will take revenge, so I'm evil for taking my revenge", like, literally "I had acknowledge that they are evil and they had harmed me before, but it's not for that I'm acting evil towards them, I just do it because I want, I can, and I will always."

Like, Lamb is meant to be the representation of human choices, thus givingus the fandom to not depict him as a babygirl who can come at anytime give you a hug and make things better with it, but to actually give him serious, horrible traits that the humans find cuestionable such as being manipulative, abusive or even having an unalligned moral.

Or even so, a Narinder that is genuinely good, and feels remorse, giving him actual feelings and life?

Yet again, like, not "I'm searching redemption for The Lamb's command", not "I'm searching redemption for a bigger purpose someone had given for me", an actual "I'm redeeming myself for the actions I've commited are wrong, so I'm doing it for myself, acknowlegding that this will make me better."

I feel that the fandom gives always Narilamb an focus of "Lamb will be something like yandere they/them or she/her bastard who comes to have a crush on a tsundere idiot who actually feels the same"

But, there are many more things to do, after all, likewise said before and even by the same developers, The Lamb's name is just "The Lamb", they have no name. And, aswell, Lamb has a zero personality, during the game, you craft their identity, their love stories, their problems and even headcannons

Even so, quoting some of my moots examples, give Narinder an actual new life with new roles and nothing to be with Lamb (@saiwasneverhere), focus the opportunity to develop "what is it to be the only god?" or Narinder a whole new identity post-Purgatory (@rosmerie-starr/@rosmerie-sleeps), giving Narinder new marks and stories to tell with their Lamb too (@really-burnt-toast), etcetera etcetera.

This is what makes the lambsonas thing a concept I love a lot: I've seen from Lambs that speak japanese (Sai I'm seeing you) to Lambs that have a pentagram for eye (@bialejaja) and many other things that makes them unique.

Hope this gives y'all nightmares 👹 /jk

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thinking shamura's reaction of inez being either anger and grief (the usual) or confusion thinking that leshy's fighting them for no reason and when theyre close to death they ask "I thought I was a good sibling to you, Leshy. Im sorry for the pain ive possibly caused..."

YES!!!! YOU GET IT!!!!! YOU GET IT!!!!!!! THANK YOU ANON!!!! Having the Heart of a Divine is a VERY powerful thing and while it takes a while for Inez to reach their fully grown state, it's still really easily for other gods to essentially 'mistake' them as Leshy. The Heart of a God essentially produces a distinct signature that other gods can recognize, so Inez has the signature the other Bishops associate with Leshy. It's incredibly weird for them and it confusing Shamura makes sense!!!!!!! its so . AGHHH. You get it anon you get it....

Fun horrible fact to go along with this, because the Heart of a Divine is so intertwined with who that God is as a being (unlike a crown which is a conduit for power rather then the source), it literally changes the way Inez thinks and acts over time. They not only change physically but mentally and emotionally too, becoming a lot like Leshy in those ways. It's incredibly tragic for them. They've not only lost their culture, their people, etc-- but also they've become a completely separate person to who their parents once adored, and physically they hardly resemble a sheep. It sucks!!!!

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Misc Inez doodles!!!! I made these while listening to songs that I thought fit them, specifically "I am your leader" by Tikkle me. They're uh, an interesting creature!!!

I definitely fleshed out their bishop/divine form more here. I like how it looks!!! :) They begin transforming soon into their vesselhood, but they look normal in some of these photos with Narinder in them because I was lazyyyy

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I decided to take a look at where the scars on my Narinder are.

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INEZ!!! naked because i needed to scope out their design more and clothes obscure that. I have a lot of thoughts about them and i really need to draw them So Much More. This is not the first Inez doodle page you will see,, especially because I need to figure out their design as they get more chaos-ish and become a truly weird divine beast of a lamb.

They suck . so much. but they're really fun to think about so im ok with it