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To the Memories, I've Labeled As Bad

To the Memories, I’ve Labeled As Bad

My mind wanders to you from time to time. And I used to let that make me so mad. I’d close my eyes so tight, to suppress looking into the face of memories I’ve labeled as bad. Memories I’ve removed myself from, so why do they still linger within me? Looming fear over the thought of us as a sign of weakness, or just a reflection of who I used to be. Yet ironically am nothing without. That if I…

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Social infection

We haven’t truly spoke in weeks And I don’t see you unless you post a story to your feed. Yet I notice & allow the things you want me to see, take up space inside me. As we paint pictures of what we want others to believe, somehow convincing ourselves of a connection within a virtual world. So much that our motivation for real experiences is fueled by what you wish others to perceive. How…

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Rape

Even though I don’t talk about somewhere beneath this thick layer, I am still coated in it, wearing it everyday. & for so long I allowed this pseudo of happiness To wear my smile Let you take my laugh & portray it as screams that nobody could hear. Thinking maybe if I faked it, I’d make it. I mean isn’t that what everyone around here is doing anyway?

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Divine

How divine to be one of a kind. To know that your lips could trace my whole self. Shimmy all the way down my spine, taking in each curve and every chill as you prompt them to arise. Even taste my skin in all the places you desire, as you tune into each moan like an artist stroking a captivating scene. & be very thorough maybe do me over twice just know, you will never find a…

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"Love" is unidentified

“Love” is unidentified

I’ve been in ‘love’ before, kissed the face of the devil and laid next to him before. Watched as he lose his mind and slowly infect mine as he searches for another casualty. I’ve been in ‘love’ before even picked myself up off the floor and left ‘love’ at the door, before. So when you ask if love is worth fighting for I’d have to say No love is worth the wage if it preys upon your…

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All the Past Love of Mine

All the Past Love of Mine

In my mind, you’ll miss me. Maybe to the point of wondering if most the things you wanted we’re simply right in front of your face. But maybe, it’s just better if I think this way. Because when my thoughts lead to you, there is no safe place.

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Daddy is Home

I’d slip into the most alluring thing I own, to strut around the house until you make it home. What power this provides me, to seduce your entirety, as your hungry eyes devour each move, that’s what excites me. Its the way it leaves you breathless and down on your knees. That power, of just one look, & you’re the one begging to eat me.

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Growing out of you, into me

Growing out of you, into me

& I think you should know I never meant to leave you behind But it’s just what happens when you enter into a new state of mind, and we no longer align. It’s the part of growing I’ve learned to accept Because if I don’t reach for the best version of me Then I would be the one left aside.

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if you could see through my eyes

if you could see through my eyes

if you could see through my eyes would you still invite this kinda of pain and even sew it back in place just to break every other day. would you convince yourself that happiness will appear and that if you mend him, he will somehow save you along the way would you still think loneliness is cured by connection, so connecting with every soul, even if every soul doesnt connect with you. if…

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shadows of you

if my love was present in every dimension, laying patiently with each universe, then I would set it all free shattering it at your toes in every forrest so that it can reach up for the trees and wait for you to dance in it’s breeze

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finished product

your obsessed with this being that doesnt exist, and its painting images in your mind, saying things like “you can fix me”. but crafting is such a tricky thing when your dipping your hands into dirty waters. and your hoping that maybe, i’ll take notice of all these strokes filling my canvas but all i see is a true masterpiece that already exists inside of me such a raw design you…

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Feed the corruption

could you imagine living in a world where we all spoke our minds freely and how many would choose to speak vulgarly to accept the self destruction that helps feed the corruption of the same entities that steal from you daily

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Visitors only

my pain knows me by name and I visit it in my own little way. Grasping onto it laying with it even kissing it as it teaches me to grow in new ways I visit it from time to time so that it knows it doesn’t have to visit me

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unity

& right before he feasts on my brain

we find a mutual gaze

and he mumbles between his quivering cavity

“The world is a scary place my lady,

I’m only saving you for myself”

As he gulps the shadows of my existence

To now orbit around his globe

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Secret Portal

There are parts of you

that not all get to reach.

Hidden worlds

deep inside

that coat you in iridescent sheen,

a masterpiece.

You’ve opened up

allowed me to see

& given me a piece to keep.

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kisses from the past

kisses from the past

My pain knows me by name

& I visit it in my own little way

Grasping onto it

laying next to it

letting it move through me

even kissing it

as it teaches me to grow in a new way

I visit it

from time to time

so that it knows it does not have to visit me

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My sweet misery

I never meant to hurt you

You were perfect

In every way

Letting me sing as loud as I want

You’d applaud even on my worst days.

Always kissing my open spaces

Giving them colorful names

Saying they’re you’re favorite places

Visiting everyday

And it’s not your fault I went astray

You see when things get serious

I always run away

A fear of feelings

So I go ahead and inflict pain

Getting out before…