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reblogging a post that says “do it scared” vs actually doing it scared

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i really do fucking love the train. i sit it goes we arrive etc

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And don't forget to stay up til 3 am every night doing nothing productive for no reason every day for a month

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never "look inside" yourself btw i just tried it and there was already someone in there looking back it was so awkward

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Daeron *covered in paint that the twins put on him*: Do you think different paints have different tastes? Aegon *Absentmindedly*: They do. Aemond *horrified*: ...Why did you say that with such certainty?

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How it feels working a 9 to 5 and having too many WIPs of varying forms and genres alongside unrealistic expectations for myself as a writer yayyy xox

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CHAPTER 4 IS NOW AVAILABLE

457K + 166K —> ✮ 623,016K WORDS ✮

Fan Tier Release: July 4th

Public Release: July 18th

It's here! (Do you like the new cover??) After nine months, the chapter has finally come. This one took me a long time. I outlined and re-outlined and outline some more. There's something Sisyphean about writing an IF and there were long stretches where it felt like the end was never coming. This was definitely a set-up chapter aka it sets up a lot for chapter 5 and beyond when it comes to the routes and upcoming dramaaaa so I'm excited to see everyone's theories and thoughts on all of the breadcrumbs I drop in this one. I'm really thankful that I worked on Chapter 5 alongside of Chapter 4 because that means Chapter 5 won't take so long to come out! I'm excited for that yippeee! One thing to note: I usually leave the lyric options to the end but I couldn't come up with them this chapter. At all. Like for over a month I just couldn't. I am cashing in my "this is a wip" card and forcing a type-in. (It'll be fixed in chapter 5).

A change to note: Attached/Detached are no longer change options but they are now variables and in the stat page. As well as being negative/positive. It didn't make much sense to have the second one because jaded/ambitious does that job and I wanted the attached/detached markers to fluctuate for future story reasons.

There are new stats:

Castmate/Competitor ✮

Approachable/Aloof ✮

Leader/Member ✮

Camaraderie ✮

Born Star ✮

I wanted to focus on the celebrity/famous/botb/band part of it because those stats feel meaningful and important compared to generic personality stats. Some have been taken out but not completely. They are still being measured in the background for flavor text. Stats like Loved and Born Star don't change as often as they are dependent on the changes of invisible stats. They will make more sense in the future chapters !

PLAY HERE

If there are any errors (especially with the jumping to chapter page because its my first time doing that and there are a lot of choices) please let me know!

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Sansa my brave girl 🐺

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Everyone shut up and look at this carving of a whale from the 1200-600 CE Chumash culture

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no one:

rhaenyra and alicent at council meetings:

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"Gods, you're a sight for sore eyes"

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– I loved a maid throughout the years, now left with nothing, but despair

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"y'all's" is the best regional solution to the english second person plural possessive problem but "your guyses" is my favorite because it sucks

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The thing about a really good ship is I need it to be equal parts sweet and fucked up. It's like a lemonade. you want it half sour and half sweet because the two flavors are complementary. The love needs to be there so it can wreck their lives or they need to be wrecks so they can fall in love

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and it's just that sometimes it feels so alien to be aroace. Because online spaces fixate on romance in fandoms, to the point of infighting and angry rants and name calling and theory videos and threats to the creators if Their Favorite Ship isn't canonized. And you just hope the characters stay friends and hug and hold each other, and feel a little alone when the inevitable romance happens and you hope to find yourself in a new form of media. And then you step onto the grass and your friends are dating and your family is asking if they can pay for an online dating app for you and they try not to pretend that they're desperate for you to have a family, because there's only one way a family happens--between two people who kiss and make love and have children and you just can't tell them that you don't want it. That you want a family, not made of lovers but of friends, and you get sympathetic, pitying smiles that say, "You'll get it when you're older" but you're nearing 30 and you Know, you Know, you Yearn for a parter who is a friend and nothing more, even though it is More to you to be a Friend rather than a Lover and you want to cry because they just Don't Get It. You want romance to continue to exist, but away from you, where the pressure and expectation of it is not looming over your head. But there are times where you hope it'll finally come to you, so you can feel normal and date and not feel a numb, churning anxiety as you sit across from them in the restaurant and hope, beg, that they'll never want to kiss but instead talk about plants and maybe watch the stars together and bask in each other's warmth with no further expectation that you love them, pinkie entwined in theirs, and that this is the strongest expression of your love, and that you're not missing something inside of you because you don't want to kiss.

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"What are you reading right now?" My own wip because apparently I forgot my own writing style