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What is with Instagram and trying to grow caladiums indoors

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But seriously, when we got our property, it was all just…grass. A sterile grass moonscape, like a billion other yards. With two big old maple trees. Just grass and maples, that was it. 

But then I got my grubby little paws on it, and I immediately stopped fertilizing, spraying, and bagging up grass clippings and leaves. I ripped up sod and put in flowers and vegetables. I put down nice thick blankets of mulch around the flowers and vegetables. 

When I first was sweating my way through stripping sod, I saw a grand total of 1 worm and 0 ladybugs. The ground was compacted into something that would bend shovel blades. 

Now, six years later, I can’t dig a planting hole without turning up fourteen earthworms, and there are so many ladybugs here. Not the invasive asian lady beetles; native ladybugs. They winter over in the mulch and in the brush pile. I see thousands of them. 

The soil is soft and rich. There are birds that come to eat, and bees of many sorts.

Like this is something that you, yourself, can absolutely change. This is something that you, personally, can make a difference in.

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Viridescent 🌿💚✨🌵

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Houseplant enthusiasts are either like “here’s my *latin name*, I keep it at a precise temperature and humidity in a ceramic pot on my desk” or “this is my plant with fun leaves, I keep it in a yogurt container on the refrigerator because it seems to like it.”

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The bastard himself

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Why do I fall into such a funk when I come home. As if my passions, interests, and ambitions stay at the welcome mat. My drive and motivation is a vampire who has yet to be invited in. A mind full of ideas and pieces to create, yet once home I cannot draw up the energy to pursue what drives my soul. My lack of output to the world further depresses me, I serve no purpose, I am surface level, I am full of hobbies but don’t pursue any enough to be any good. I have no specialty no niche I’m not known for anything I leave no mark. I want to be intriguing, mysterious, sought after. I want him to think of me and be put into disbelief that I’m his, I want to make him feel like the luckiest man on earth but I don’t know who I am or what I want or what I’m good at. I’m just in a funk right now I’m sure I’ll figure myself out, anyways thanks for listening

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I need to restart

How do I skip all of this growing and just end up happy, healthy and with the one who loves me. How do I skip to being financially stable, career in place and relationships set in stone. How do I skip to my greenhouse, my animals, my quaint cottage home surrounded by flowers.

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Wanting to go to bed early because you’re depressed but not wanting to wake up early because then there’ll be more hours to feel sad during the day. Just wanna sleep for 72 hours I’m tired guys

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not to be nsfw but the thought of someone smiling against my lips as we kiss? really makes a bitch’s heart flutter

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Paint’n studies I did on my Wii U gamepad earlier in the year.

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Guys moans make me go 💕💗💗❤️🌟🌟🌸🌸💓🌟💕💕💘💘💓💝💝💝💫💫💫🌸💗💗💫🌟💓💓💝