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Hello, my name is Mae and I fucking suuuuuuck at posting lately. But I'm here to tell you why!

My official last day of college was June 25th. I decided to take some time off writing because most of the prior 18 months of my life were spent writing. I was kind of burnt out on it. I needed a break.

Then I went on vacation in July. Then, in August, my mom threw me a huge graduation party because I am the second person ever in my family to graduate from college.

"But Mae, now it's September! What the hell have you been doing?!"

I'm glad you asked, imaginary person, I'm excited to tell you.

For the last 5 years, it has been a dream of mine to teach English as a second language in Korea. There a lot of reasons why, but one of those reasons boils down to the fact that I really feel like I am meant to be somewhere else. I've felt this way for a long time. Well, it's finally time, y'all. I have a Skype call tomorrow with the person that is going to be placing me! Of course, I have a lot of freedom to choose, but we are going to be having an extensive conversation about when, where, why and how.

I'm soooooooo fucking excited, I can't stand it. Big things and big changes happening over here in this household! Writing was just put on hold for the time being, but I'm excited to tell you all my big plans! I won't be shutting down this blog and I won't stop writing for you guys, but I felt like you needed an explanation as to why I have been so absent lately.

I adore you all and can't thank you enough for all the love and attention you have shown me and my writing. I'm excited to start this new chapter with you all!

[maerinhearts]

Suna Rintarou picking a drunk Y/N up from the bar after a night out with their friends orrrrrrr Iwaizumi Hajime saving his girlfriend (Y/N) from a creep at a college house party????

Orrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... both? 🤔

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Joo Jaekyung got a CRUSH on Physical Therapist Kim Dan. A CRUSH. This latest episode... first, Dan SMACKED Jaekyung's hand away. He wouldn't have gotten away with that 20 chapters ago. AND he told Jaekyung that he needed a day of rest and he barely argued with Dan. They played board games and Jaekyung is just a big baby. And the FLIRTING. I can't. Also, he's so unintentionally funny. I was giggling the whole time. I enjoyed this episode. I need Jaekyung to stay on this upward slope. I'm starting to enjoy his character.

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Guess who finished their college degree?! ME. I'm officially done with school! Maybe not for good because I've been thinking about getting my masters, BUT my undergrad is done!

I'm taking this week to just chill and I'll be back next week with new content!

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All The BL I Have Read

If you're not interested in BL, scroll away. If you are... well...

Welcome. Hello. My name is Mae. I read a lot of BL in my free time because it's incredibly entertaining and I have a lot of fun. None of my friends read BL and the only one I share this information with is my best friend. Because I have a touch of the 'tism, I have compiled a list of every single BL I have ever read and I would like to share it with you.

ETA: This posted very oddly, and I've tried to fix it several times to no avail. I'm sorry.

Please keep in mind that these are in no particular order.

Let's start with the finished works:

Insecret: 102 Chapters

Again: 60 Chapters

Aporia: 108 Chapters

Dear Door: 163 Chapters

BJ Alex: 96 Chapters

Mad Dog: 51 Chapters

No Love Zone: 70 Chapters

Checkmate: 103 Chapters

Love or Hate: 106 Chapters

The New Recruit: 45 Chapters

Hold Me Safe: 49 Chapters

Love So Pure: 113 Chapters

Fake Romance: 37 Chapters

The Unquenchable Mr. Kim: 65 Chapters

Vanilla Soda Sky: 49 Chapters

The Big Apple: 65 Chapters

Darling For Dessert: 72 Chapters

In My Closet: 116 Chapters

A Life Without You: 65 Chapters

The Words In Your Snare: 82 Chapters

Snake Bite: 30 Chapters

Fuck this story.

A Man of Virtue: 131 Chapters

How To Snag An Alpha (Omegaverse): 106 Chapters

My Way With You: 4 very long chapters

Do you like pain? Same. I sobbed while reading this.

Tell Me You Love Me: 15 Chapters

Don't Build My Hopes Up: 50 Chapters

Love Shuttle (Omegaverse): 98 Chapters

Cherry Blossoms After Winter: 151 Chapters

Easy To Read: 50 Chapters

Solar Eclipse: 86 Chapters

Love In Kitsch: 52 Chapters

Broken Boy: 75 Chapters

Seriously… do you like pain? Because same.

On or Off: 91 Chapters

Assorted Wildness: 65 Chapters

The Sweetest Man: 115 Chapters

Surge Towards You (Omegaverse): 61 Chapters

Sign: 115 Chapters

Do you like angst? Same.

Mayday Mayday Mayday!: 50 Chapters

Do you like red flags? Same.

Anti P.T.: 63 Chapters

Top to Bottom: 56 Chapters

Lucky Paradise: 90 Chapters

DO YOU REALLY LIKE BEING IN PAIN? DO YOU ENJOY SUFFERING? FUCKING SUFFER. THE ENTIRE TIME YOU READ THIS. SUFFER.

Secret Therapy: 39 Chapters

Blind Play: 80 Chapters

My Bias Is Showing?!: 48 Chapters

Lying In A Dream: 66 Chapters

Love Me, Doctor!: 55 Chapters

BL Motel: 155 Chapters

Turn Off The Camera: 99 Chapters

Viewfinder: 89 Chapters

Undercover Partners: 174 Chapters

Siren's Song: 72 Chapters

Lover Boy: 81 Chapters

I know you love pain by now…

Unromantic Romance (Omegaverse): 64 Chapters

The Ordinary Lifestyle of a Universal Guide: 63 Chapters

Shame Application: 60 Chapters

Red Candy: 92 Chapters

Paid: 55 Chapters

If you read this, be nice to my baby Heejae… He a lil dumb… for a good reason, too.

Love For Sale: 93 Chapters

Kiss Me Liar (Omegaverse): 32 Chapters

Fuck everything about this one.

Heat and Run (Omegaverse): 107 Chapters

Gold Gray (Omegaverse): 126 Chapters

At this point, all you know is pain. This one is fucking SAD.

One Roof, Two Strangers: 56 Chapters

Crash Into Me: 48 Chapters

So you really love pain…

This handles some very difficult topics, please tread carefully.

Love Percentage (Omegaverse): 69 Chapters

Melting Into You (Omegaverse): 60 Chapters

My Master, My Jooin (Omegaverse): 64 Chapters

Blood Link (Omega...verse...ish...?): 135 Chapters

Uhmmmmm….???????????? Top is a vampire??? Bottom is a female lycan???? Uhm? He bites the bottom???? And like??? What???

Okay... Now onto stuff that I am currently reading and is still releasing. There will be an asterisk (*) next to works that are currently on hiatus:

Painter of the Night

Low Tide in Twilight (Omegaverse)

Limited Run*

Speak of the Devil

The Pawn's Revenge*

The Pizza Delivery Man and the Gold Palace

Legs That Won't Walk*

I don’t know what’s happening.

Idk why I’m here anymore.

Jinx

Pearl Boy

TREAD. CAREFULLY. I cannot stress this enough.

Opposites Attract

Anemone Theater

The Ghost's Nocturne*

Tread carefully with this one too. The top is a literal demon from the underworld.

Vanilla Taste

Stranger Than Friends

Odd Love (Side stories ongoing)

The Dangerous Convenience Store (Side stories ongoing)

Semantic Error

Liveta*

Steel Under Silk

Love Jinx

Payback

Under The Green Light*

Stay With Me

Honey Trouble (Omegaverse)

Hold Me Tight (Side stories ongoing)

The Hunting Game

Yakuza In Love

I kinda dropped this one, but also kinda didn’t. I need to pick it back up.

It's Just A Dream... Right?!

Trapped In The Dark* (Considering dropping)

Miscreants and Mayhem

Punch Drunk Love

Missing Love: A Married Man

Prepare… to fucking cry your eyes out…This one is so fucking sad. I’ve never cried so much in my life. You can’t even enjoy the smut. Tread so carefully with this. It is not for the weak-hearted.

You Get Me Going

Kill The Lights (Side stories ongoing)

December (Omegaverse)

Love Is An Illusion (Omegaverse) (Side stories ongoing)

Bongchon Bride

XXX Buddy/Perfect Buddy

Hard-Boiled Love

Hard-core BDSM. Tread carefully.

Origin of the Species* (Omegaverse)

Heal, Heal, Heal!

My Suha (Side stories ongoing)

Work Love Balance (On or Off Sequel)

Shutline

Double Trap

Cold Blooded Beast

DROPPED:

No Reason

Even If You Don't Love Me/Love Me Not

And now for my list of must reads (my faves) in no particular order:

Love For Sale

Man of Virtue

Hold Me Tight

Love Or Hate

Missing Love (this one is incredibly hard to read, but so good)

On or Off

The Dangerous Convenience Store

The Pizza Delivery Man and the Gold Palace

The Pawn's Revenge

Sign

In My Closet

Aporia

I want to put Blind Play on that list so bad, but it's so fucked up it's not even funny. I loved it, but the top is a literal murderer. So please keep that in mind before reading.

And so there it is. A list of everything I have read so far. If you ever want to message me and talk about BL, I'm down. If you want the link to any of these, message me and I will send it.

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Fuck it. I'm bored and I'm not posting any new writings yet, so I'm going to post the entire list of all the BL Manhwa's I have read with a smut rating, chapter list, and status. Stay tuned.

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This post is brought to you by episode 25 of Jinx because what the fuck.

Sooooooo... are we just not going to talk about the fact that had Dan wanted to spar 12 chapters ago, Jaekyung would have told him to fuck off? I was so surprised: "I'm happy to show you myself." I'm sorry, WHAT?! You're what?! Happy?! HAPPY?! To show Dan?! And his lil grin?!

We are now officially about 0.02% into his character development. Alright, this is good, I think?

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I saw a TikTok yesterday that pointed out Jaekyung's slight character development. SLIGHT. VERY SLIGHT. In the latest chapter (24). Someone in the comments also said he was blushing at Dan in this chapter. So I immediately went back and read it because... uhm, what? Blushing? Character development? Joo Jaekyung? Yeah, okay.

....

....

Uhhhhh, yeah. They were right. It's very slight. Even the first time I read the chapter, I was very surprised that he kissed Dan. It also seemed like he was playfully flirting with him? Not to mention, Dan was uncomfortable with Potato still there and Jaekyung sent him away. If you remember in a previous chapter, he literally still forced himself on Dan in the gym's showers when some of his teammates walked in despite Dan being highly uncomfortable with it. He teased Dan before he sent Potato away, saying something along the lines of "I thought you liked an audience", but sent Potato away when he saw Dan getting more anxious.

I'm patiently awaiting this mother fucker's back story. Because I can already see he likes Dan, he just lacks the fucking emotional maturity to show it.

Exhibit A:

"Sir, thank you for paying my grandmother's hospital bills. Why are you being so nice to me?"

"It wasn't for you, it was for granny! Hmph! 😤😠"

Anyway, he was also blushing.

As always, if you want to read this, please tread carefully as this comic does have noncon and dubcon themes, despite Dan's consent in these latest chapters. Though, that's still dubcon to me.

[maerinhearts]

Hello, I swear I'm still here and alive and writing! I finish college in 22 short days and added an extra class to my schedule to finish up my degree. I have put all of my focus on that and used my free time to read some BL because it brings me joy! I will get back to your regularly scheduled programs on June 26th!

I love you all and thank you for your patience. ❤️

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TW: suicide

Today, I found out that Moonbin from ASTRO has committed suicide. If you follow ASTRO or are a fan of K-Pop in general and this is how you found out, I'm truly sorry.

I never followed ASTRO religiously, but I always knew who Moonbin, Eunwoo and Rocky were. More recently, I came to know more of the members. I'm not a hard-core fan, but I listened to ASTRO casually.

This news deeply saddens me. I think it's a harsh reality check about not only the K-Pop industry, but about how the people we admire or look up to suffer in silence. I've been crying for a while now about this news. I am genuinely so sad to hear about his passing and it upsets me that no one could help him. It upsets me that he had to resort to this.

If you are a fan of ASTRO, or even if you suffer from depression, please seek out the help you deserve. Please do not wait. My blog is always a safe space to talk about ANYTHING. And I mean anything. I've lived with suicidal ideations for as long as I can remember. I finally sought out a therapist in 2019 and have never been better. If you don't feel like you can talk to someone you know personally, at least pleaseeee reach out to me. I am not only here to provide you with content and entertainment, but I'm also here to talk and provide you all with whatever you might need in the moment. If you talk to me once about what is going on in your life and then never talk to me again, I'm fine with that. If you want to continue talking forever, I'm fine with that, too.

The bottom line is that I am here for you all no matter what. I wanted to create a safe, welcoming blog that my followers can come to as an escape or when they need a friend.

Always remember that you are loved, appreciated, cared for, and accepted here on Mae's page. ❤️

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I'm working on new content, I sweeeaaaarrrrrrr. It's just that I've hit writer's block and I had assignments to do. 😭

Plus, I came to the realization recently that I think I've been depressed since October, lmao. When I'm depressed, I hyperfixate on things and what is the subject of my current hyperfixation? BL............

I really think I might post the list of what I've read on here. Honestly, lmao. I'm up to 80. It's ridiculous.

Anyway, I wanted to come on here to say I am working on stuff, but please be patient! I think I hit a writer's block because I was focusing all my energy on the screenplay script I had to write for my class. Who knows. I certainly don't.

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It's like... Joo Jaekyung takes 2 steps forward and 8 steps back 🙄

Is he going to piss me off today? The answer is yes: ROYALLY. Listen, I knew he would pull the shit he pulled. Like, my brain knew it. But my heart was all "No, think about what he did for Dan in the last chapter! Things will be different now!" Shut up, heart. This mother fucker...

A part of me thinks that he did what he did because he really does like Dan, but doesn't realize it yet. But then the other part of me is like no... Joo Jaekyung is just an asshole. We been knew.

Mingwa............... idk how much more of this I can take, my friend 😭 I've read BJ Alex, I know you like to drag it out 50 chapters, but can you shorten it to 25 instead this time 😭😭 I just want Dan to be happy 😭

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I really feel like my Osamu drabble is flopping and it's making me so sad. The time and energy I put into the words on that one 😭 I tried so hard to bring out emotion in it 😭

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Lygophobia

A blizzard hits town during game night with your childhood best friend. Your fear of the dark has you scrambling to light candles, only the lighter stops working on the last candle. As anxiety seeps into your bones, your best friend comes to comfort you.

Warnings: unprotected sex, flufffffffff, fem!bodied reader, mentions of lygophobia (fear of the dark), mentions of anxiety, best friends to lovers trope (lol).

All characters are 18+.

Minors DNI, please and thank you.

A/N: This was a hard one. It's pretty emotional (in my opinion) and trying to incorporate Osamu's accent was rough. For me, I think his accent would come out more during dirty talk as his brain loses control. I feel like he would change his accent to talk to his customers and it would eventually overtake his daily life. But it would totally come out during sex. Also, this started out with Oikawa, but I changed it to Osamu halfway through, lmao.

The snow just seems to keep piling up outside. The meteorologist warned you about this earlier in the day, about this blizzard. But you and your best friend decided to stick with your original plans to have your usual game night that consisted of Uno, go fish, Monopoly, and Candyland (to name a few). The snow had started shortly after he got to your apartment with his overnight bag slung over his shoulder. You gave his bag a pointed look before raising your eyebrow at him. It wasn't ever unusual for him to stay the night, but you never agreed to it this time.

"What, you just expect me to go back home in a blizzard?" he had asked as he dropped his bag to the floor and kicked his shoes off. "You're cruel."

Of course you didn't expect that. But things had just felt... different... with him lately. You couldn't quite put your finger on the reason why, but something was just off. You found yourself avoiding eye contact more often as well as blood rushing to your face at anything nice he said to you. If he noticed this, he never mentioned it to you, but he had started to act differently.

You think you might have noticed the biggest shift when, a couple weeks ago, you met up to grab coffee and go for a walk on your lunch break. The wind had blown your hair into your face. Before you could react and push it back into place, his hand darted out first instead, gently pushing the strands behind your ear. You turned away so quickly and buried your face into your scarf, too afraid to let him see the blush staining your cheeks.

You avoided him after that, and he noticed. He actually suggested game night and vowed to air out whatever was going on. He packed his bag without thinking much about it and only used the blizzard as an excuse when he caught wind of the weather. And just as he opened his mouth to ask you why you've been so weird lately, your power kicked off, bathing the two of you in darkness and silence.

You scurried around to find candles, setting them out and lighting them quickly before the anxiety settled into your bones. He helped without being asked, his body moved on its own. On the last candle you were attempting to light, the flame just wouldn't catch. Your hand was beginning to shake, anxiety radiating off of you in waves.

It's too dark. It's too quiet. Where's Osamu? He was just here a second ago. You shake the lighter vigorously, hoping to get fluid into the nozzle. You hit the spark wheel again with your thumb. Sparks fly but once again, nothing catches. You curse the lighter underneath your breath, shaking it again. The darkness seemed to start swallowing you, heart pounding in your ears. You hold the lighter in two hands now, hoping to stabilize it, thinking that maybe it was your hands shaking that was keeping it from lighting.

He approaches you gently, as if he might scare you away if he makes his presence known. His footsteps are light, his heartbeat steady as he softly presses his chest into your back, one hand snaking around your waist and pressing you back against him. His other hand covers yours on the lighter. He says nothing as he holds your hand in his, thumb moving to hit the spark wheel once, twice, three times before it lights. He guides your hand to the candle, and you light the wick together. As the flame catches, he watches as it illuminates your face in a soft glow, light caressing your face the same way the sun touches the earth at sunrise.

He presses his forehead against the back of your head, holding you tight enough against his front that you can feel his heartbeat against your back. It's steady in its rhythm.

"Breathe," he whispers into the silence of the living room, the word wrapping itself so sweetly around your body, as if that's all you needed to hear in that moment.

You feel the tension leave your muscles as you focus on the feeling of his heart against you, body nearly sagging in his arms as you calm down. He just holds you tighter, presses his face into the nook between your neck and shoulder. You focus on matching your heartbeat with his, turning in his arms to press your ear against his chest.

His index finger finds its way under your chin, directing your face up to look at him. When your eyes adjust, you notice how close his face is to yours. If you stood on your tippy toes, you could kiss him. At that thought, your eyes glance down at his lips as his tongue darts out to wet them.

"Are you okay?" he asks softly.

It was second nature for him to check on you and take care of you. He's known about your fear of the dark since you were kids. At first, he made fun of you for it, even through your teenage years and early college years together. If you had to guess, he became more understanding and caring within the last five years. He was the first to drape his jacket around your shoulders and wrap you in his warmth. The first to bend down to eye level, looking in your eyes for any signs of anxiety and panic. The first to create light with anything he could find.

If Osamu has to guess when these thoughts started changing, it was probably your last year of college together. When he saw you with that asshat ex-boyfriend of yours. Atsumu highly disagrees with this, but this is the most he could get out of his twin brother when it came to you. Atsumu always knew his brother was in love with you. It just took him seeing you with another man to realize that for himself.

So, when you turn your face up at him, eyes glossy with unshed tears, silence holding the two of you so tenderly in the living room of your apartment, he doesn't move away. He stays in place even when you hesitantly press your lips against his in the softest kiss he's ever received. When you pull away, he waits a beat, watching as embarrassment clouds your face as the reality of what you just did settles into the crevices of your mind.

He’s patient.

Hell, he’d have to be to wait 20 whole years for you.

He watches your face carefully. Watches as your eyes dart away. Watches as your eyebrows pull together in embarrassment. Watches as you squeeze your eyes shut in an attempt to squeeze what just happened out of your brain. He’s silent as he watches you, thoughts turning over in his mind at how he should handle this. What should he do next? Would kissing you again scare you away? There’s only one way for him to find out, he thinks, as the devil on his left shoulder shrugs and yells at Osamu to take the dive.

He palm caresses your cheek, gently turning your face back to him, eyes finding your plush mouth as his thumb glides across your bottom lip. All thoughts leave his brain as his thumb pulls your lip down in an attempt to open your mouth to him as he leans in to capture you in a searing kiss.

His mouth is hot on yours, tongue diving in to taste you as your hands fist into the front of his shirt. He tastes like red wine and it wraps around your tongue so deliciously, leaving you feeling heady as he pulls back to look at you. Your breathing is the only thing that can be heard in the room now.

He assesses the situation, searching your face for any signs of regret or disgust. A sound of surprise leaves his lips as you throw your arms around his neck and throw yourself into his body, lips connecting once again. The kiss is aggressive. It has Osamu backing up to find purchase on the couch, hands on your waist as you straddle his lap and lean in to kiss him once again.

Your hands rush to pull his clothes off, his hoodie landing god knows where in your apartment. Osamu takes this as a sign to begin undressing you, all of his fears flying out the window as you lean down to press open mouthed kisses against his neck and chest. He’s a mess beneath you, brain reduced to mush as you kiss your way down his sculpted body, stopping to make eye contact with him as you fall to your knees on the floor in front of him, pulling his cock from his sweats.

He feels panic bubbling up in his chest. “Wait,” he calls out softly, hand moving to grab your chin. “Are you sure you want to do this?” His eyes search your face once again. They were constantly searching. He was always on edge around you, fearful of saying or doing the wrong thing; fearful of you being hurt in any way.

You don’t respond, instead you drag your tongue up the underside of his half-hard shaft, eyes remaining trained on his as you watch his eyebrows furrow in pleasure. He hardens more in your hands as he reaches out in an attempt to push you away again, afraid of the consequences of what you were currently doing. You block his attempt, grabbing both wrists and placing his hands on the back of your head instead as you take him into your mouth. His fingers knot into your hair as the tip of his cock hits the back of your throat. He throws his head back in pleasure, holding you to him.

You dip deeper, taking him all the way in until your nose hits his abdomen. You gag around him and Osamu locks his hands together behind your head, keeping you from moving your head away from him as his body slumps forward over you.

“Fuck, just like that,” he whispers to you, groaning as you gag around him again in an attempt to swallow.

The edges of your vision start to go black as you raise your hand and weakly smack his chest. He pulls up to gaze down at you, pupils blown wide with lust. He nearly comes on the spot when he looks at you, his dick in your mouth, tears falling down your cheeks, brows furrowed in pain from not being able to breathe.

As if he was dunked in cold water, he comes back to reality, hands unclasping from behind your head and pulling you off of him. You cough as you get air back into your lungs, wiping the spit off your face with your sleeve.

“Are you okay?” he asks, panic evident in his voice. His hands cup your head.

You opt to respond with a kiss, letting him know that you are okay, and you’d like to continue. He pulls your body up onto the couch with him, laying you down on the cushions and moving to cover your neck in open mouthed kisses as he pulls your clothes off your body. You’re bound to be annoyed about where you find your clothes in the morning, but you don’t care right now. The feeling of his calloused hands on your body has you writhing beneath him, arching your back up into his touch.

He watches you with wonder and curiosity, dick twitching as your body responds to his every touch. His mouth finds your nipples easily, taking them into his mouth and sucking each one before moving further down your body to suck hickey’s into the skin on your ribcage and waist, a reminder to you that he had been there.

His mouth doesn’t hesitate to move over your clit either. He moves with ease, like he had done this a hundred times. If your mind wasn’t so clouded over with lust, you’d be irritated with how good he was at this. But his tongue massages into you and you moan, hands holding his face against you as your hips gently rock up into him. His hands find your inner thighs, pushing them apart and opening you further. His tongue dances deliciously across your pussy, dipping down to push into your aching hole. You gasp at the feeling, head falling back as you moan out. He fucks you with his tongue, his own hips grinding against the couch cushions as he listens to your sweet moans fill the room.

When he can’t take it anymore, he moves back up your body, gripping the base of his cock in his hand and rubbing the tip right against your entrance. He glances up at you for permission. Just as his eyes meet yours, you’re pulling him down for a kiss. Your tongue moves against his, lapping up the taste of your essence in his mouth, the flavor mixing with the red wine from earlier.

He pushes into you for the first time, sucking in a breath through his teeth at the feeling of your walls encasing him. His face is buried in the crook of your neck, concentrating on the feeling of you wrapped around him. Your arms circle his waist, fingernails digging into the skin of his back as he bottoms out inside of you.

“Fuck, s’tight,” he slurs, accent coming through slightly as his brain focuses on the way his body feels.

He’s motionless against you, trying to give your body a chance to relax.

“Move,” you whisper to him. “Please… ‘Samu.”

He moans into your hair as he pulls his hips back and slowly pushes back into you. You gasp out as he sets the slowest pace known the mankind, focused on dragging this out so he can feel every inch of you hugging him.

“Faster,” you tell him, becoming frustrated with his slow pace.

He sits back on his knees, eyes falling to where the two of you are connected as his hands hold your hips. Your pussy clenches under his gaze and his head falls back at the feeling. When he looks back down at you, it’s like a fire has been lit behind his eyes. He pulls you down, fitting your ass flush against his thighs before he fits his hands under your knees and pushes them to your chest.

You let out a small shriek in surprise and he pushes deeper into you, watching your face contort in pleasure as he hits a new depth inside of you. With that, he begins rocking his hips into you, setting a steady pace. But it’s not enough.

“Harder,” you moan out. If he just fucked you a little bit harder, he could hit that spot so nicely.

His hips stutter for a second before he gets his bearings back and begins fucking into you harder, the sound of his skin hitting yours echoing in the room.

“So sexy,” he whispers, and you almost miss it. He’s holding back the praises with an unbelievable amount of control. He doesn’t know what you like, but he’d like to find out.

“Fuck,” he groans out as he watches the way his dick enters you over and over. “Look at ya.”

Your hands fist into the fabric of your couch cushions as your orgasm approaches. “’Samu,” you call out. You hold your arms out to him, wanting to be close to him. He covers your body with his, your arms locking around his neck as his hands lock on the crown of your head. He continues fucking you like this, with your legs wrapped so tightly around his hips, his cock burying so deliciously into you over and over.

“I could fuck ya all day,” he whispers into your hair, accent really coming through as he loses all sense of control.

You moan below him, warning him of your approaching orgasm just as it crashes through your body in waves. He continues fucking you through it, pulling out to spill his own orgasm right onto your navel with a soft moan of your name.

The air is still around you both as you come down, breathing haggard. You don’t say anything as you come back down to reality, embarrassment making its way through your bones. You shield your face from him with your hands. Osamu doesn’t speak and doesn’t try to move your hands. Instead, he hoists you up bridal style and carries you into your bathroom.

You keep your face covered even as he washes your body in the shower, the light from a single candle illuminating the room just enough that he can see his work. You don’t uncover your face until he tries to dry you off.

“I can do it,” you tell him softly, eyes darting away from his gaze when he tries to find it.

It’s not until you’re dressed and in bed, when he crawls in next to you and pulls you against him, that you open your mouth to talk about the events that had just transpired in your apartment.

“Osamu,” you start, but he’s quick to interrupt you.

“I like you,” he mumbles, face pressed in between your shoulder blades, arms tightening around your waist. “I don’t know how, or when, but I like you, Y/N.”

You’re frozen, unsure how to respond to his confession.

“Be with me.”

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Can I just say that I LOVE seeing the tags when people reblog my stuff?! It brings me an indescribable amount of joy. I love reading the tags on reblogs. 🥰

[maerinhearts]

Family feuds fucking suuuuuck. I've been in a big argument with my younger sister since Sunday (it's now Thursday) and we are currently not speaking.

We're arguing because she has her first serious boyfriend (she's 18) and thought it was acceptable to let him text me and tell me off after I told our aunt about a shitty thing he did.

I went OFF on her for letting him do that and she defended him. They've been dating for like 4 months. He is supposed to go on family vacation with us next month and started threatening to not go if I'm going.

So, I'm not going on family vacation instead 🙂

[maerinhearts]

It's that time again....

Is Joo Jaekyung going to piss me off today?

This episode... episode 17... last time I thought: "This could go 1 of 2 ways." Right?

It went neither of those ways. Which not only surprised me, but had me screaming. So no, he did not piss me off today. Is this the start of a trend?! He really did the unexpected and I'm here for it.

I know this BL is controversial, but I am really enjoying it. You can support the author on Lezhin. Again, this BL contains noncon and dubcon themes. Also, Joo Jaekyung is a mother fucker. If you don't think you can handle these things, I'd steer clear!