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Where r ur threads

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I have no threads here since i’ve moved to forums. This is now for my resources and w/e. Feel free to unfollow. :)

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  mark moved back to the couch, running his hands through his hair. if the test told him that they would become parents, what was he going to do? should he have them move back in with his parents? or did he need to find a better job? he didn’t have the means and resources to do this on his own. he had grown up on his parents’ money, and he wasn’t one hundred percent certain if they would embrace the child or tell him that he screwed up.

he thought that she would reappear next to him, but she didn’t come back after she had disappeared into the bathroom. he would have thought that she would wait with him, but no, she hid there. his heart pounded loudly in his chest. time seemed to slow down to a crawl and he had no idea what to do about it. he thought he heard something sound from the bathroom, but he couldn’t quite make out what had been said. 

he ran to the bathroom, opening the door carefully as he saw her sitting against the wall. “ren,” he exclaimed as he looked over at the test. his heart stopped. at least, he could have sworn that it did. “fuck,” the word slipped past his mouth before he could stop it. he crouched down next to her, picking her up and setting her down in his lap as he held her close. “hey, it’s okay. we’ll … figure it out,” he noted with a nod. “should we get married?” he asked, tilting his head, unsure of just what she wanted.

ren looked up at him, her eyes filled with tears as she felt like everything was gone. her life, her hopes her dreams. it all came crashing around her and she honestly didn’t know what else to do. there was a thing inside of her, she couldn’t just get it out. it was there and soon it’d be here to ruin everything. she burst out in tears reaching for him. her arms wrapping around him tightly, as if she was holding onto him and the past. she could barely hear his own words of the noise of her sobbing.  “i’m sorry, i ruined everything.” ren cried her small hands grabbing his shirt as her head dropped letting her hair cascaded around her hiding her from his eyes as he face found his chest. muffling the sound of her crying. she stayed like this, for more time than she would like to admit. eventually she started to pull up her swollen eyes looking at him as she sniffled. “no.” she said easily looking down. “i don’t want to get married because of this...i want to marry you because you love me. because you want to spend forever with me not because you feel obligated.” 

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mark looked at his girlfriend, almost choking on his spit. “are you sure it’s not because you’re jealous?” he teased, though the other girl was definitely not even at the same standards as ren was. “i kid, you’re a goddess and she’s just human basically,” he pointed out, pulling her close. “i love you too, renny,” he murmured, laying a kiss on the top of her head. 

he thought about her words as she said them and nodded his head. at the end of the day, he wanted to be with her, and baby or not, that was not going to change. “we’re good,” he nodded his head. “now, please go pee on that stick before i go pee on it for you,” he exclaimed, giving her a small push towards the bathroom.

the girl smiled softly, feeling happy about the fact that things wouldn’t change. although, she knew it was a promise that he couldn’t exactly keep. things happened, life happened but she was hopeful. to ren, convincing herself that she was just stressed would have been a dream. but in reality ren, already knew. she didn’t have to pee on a stick. the girl had been stressed more than this before. maybe she wanted to give mark some hope. maybe she wanted to see how he would react. 

“okay.” she replied simply as she walked into the bathroom. she closed the door behind her. she locked the door behind her as well. not sure exactly what was going to happen but this was literally going to change everything either way. if she wasn’t they’d have to start protecting themselves more. not to mention if she was, this would put her on a different path completely.  after opening the package and following all the directions to the best of her ability. it wasn’t that hard to pee on a stick lets be real. she set it gently on the counter and washed her hands. turning she wanted to unlock the door and go to him. she could spend the ten or so minutes with him instead she decided to spend it in the room waiting herself. by the time the clock had ran out. she  was able to verify her suspicions. two lines looking right at her. the girl leaned against the wall biting down on her bottom lip. “i’m so sorry.” she called out. not sure how she was suppose to leave the bathroom.

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there was a part of mark that felt a surge of pride seeing his girlfriend stand up for him like that. however, the last thing he wanted was to start some rumor going on in the neighborhood, so it was better to just let it go. the girl wasn’t worth it to deal with anyway. plus, she was bad in bed, but he wasn’t going to tell ren that.

“forget her. she’s a bitch anyway,” he pointed out. he took his hand in hers and walked beside her, staring at the road in front of them. “you better like me,” he exclaimed, turning to look at her. “we’d be in a very bad position if you didn’t like me,” he pointed out with a small laugh. “come on. let’s hurry up so we can get this done with. hopefully, we can drink a glass of wine to celebrate.” hopefully.

ren smiled grabbing his hand, she felt happy to be his girlfriend, the one girl he actually seemed to be spiteful and possibly a little jealous. she walked back towards their apartment with him, hopeful that everything would be okay. if it was she didn’t know, she’d be happy and maybe she’d cry or something. as much as she’d want to roll into bed with him, it didn’t seem like a great idea.  “i’m really worried about your previous taste in women. I mean, i’m obviously stunning but she was just ugly.” she sighed leaning over kissing his cheek. “i don’t just like you, i love you okay...” she said looking at him with a gentle glow. once they were back to their apartment she grabbed the back and pulled out the box opening it up. she grabbed his cheeks leaning in kissing him softly. “no matter what, we are good right?” she said wanting to make sure, they’d be okay. “were good and together, and nothing would change that right?” 

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mark refused to make eye contact with anyone, and he was freaking out that he might run into his mother or someone else he knew. oh god, an ex-girlfriend. he hoped not. he waited around as ren grabbed one, and he thought he was safe from someone they knew when he realized that that was one of his ex-girlfriends who was checking people out. however, it was too late. she had already seen them and he couldn’t tell ren to put it back that they could go somewhere else.

he cleared his throat as he took the wallet from ren’s hands, handing his credit card to the cashier. she smirked at him. “always thought you would be one of those guys to knock a girl up,” she teased, causing an eye roll from him. “it’s for her sister,” the lie slipped off his lips easily. “it was nice seeing you,” he bowed his head, taking ren’s hand in his own with the bag and dragging her out the door. a great start, he thought to himself.

ren stood their almost dumb founded that someone would talk to him that way. she clicked her tongue on to top of her mouth and shook his head. “excuse you?” she said as mark was taking the bag from  the cashier and she dropped his arm and stepped up to the counter. “I don’t know who the fuck you thi–” She was stopped as mark started to pull her away.  she grumbled when she was outside tugging his arm away. “YAH! why are you going to let some piece of trash talk to you that way.”  she huffed as she looked away from a moment. she reached forward grabbing his arm as she started to walk. “dumb asshole.” clearly ren was mature right now, this is exactly why she couldn’t be a mother. she was still to young and dumb. half of ren wished she had some kind of ring on her finger so she could have shoved it in the girls face, that or reached across the counter. “i hate people.” she huffed looking at him. “you, you i like.” 

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mark looked down and carefully took her hand in his. part of him wished that they could just rewind time. whatever triggered this possible pregnancy just erased from their memories. he was in such a daze that when she finally spoke, it caught him off-guard. “hmm? yeah ..” he mumbled before realizing what she said. “wait, what? why?” he pouted, frowning at her. 

“you wouldn’t last,” he pointed out. more like he wouldn’t last, but still. it took two to tango. he hoped that that kept the mood light but he could still feel this ominous black cloud looming over them. he pulled open the door to the pharmacy, holding it open for her as he led her over to a section he never thought he would go to this year.

ren let go of his hand for a moment, just to grab onto his arm. her arm linking with his as she held on walking with him. there was no way, neither of them would last, it was a nice thought but it was probably physically impossible. at first their sex was hot, fun and exciting. while it was still all those things ren didn’t see it was just sex, she saw it as making love and with mark it was nice.  she walked inside with him and cleared her throat a little keeping her head down as she walked. she wasn’t sure what to get, they all seemed different yet they were all the same. “umm.” she rubbed the back of her neck looking at the options before she just reached out grabbing one that talked about accuracy. “o-okay, lets go.” ren smiled. ren tugged him towards the registrar and she set it down biting her bottom lip. she reached back grabbing his wallet out of his pocket before handing it to him.

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his hand wrapped around hers when she grabbed onto his shirt. he looked over at the girl. he really was in love with her, and even though he hadn’t thought that babies would be in his future so soon, he was happy that if it were anyone who would’ve gotten knocked up, it was her. the one girl he actually loved amongst all his conquests.

his arms naturally found their way around her, her petite body easily molding against his. “yes. that is the plan,” he nodded his head, following her into the living room to grab the apartment keys. there was a pharmacy just a few doors down so there would be no need to drive there for any reason.

ren smiled a little as he held onto her. it was nice to be held onto especially right now, since she was so scared. her mind swirling in circles trying to convince herself, and maybe him that this wasn’t happening. they were to young, and they weren’t even together for that long. I mean they have been together for some time but, still this was soon. Funny, how they were talking about marriage before, and how easily she’d agree to that. and she’d much rather be purposed to right now than the idea of having a baby.  once he grabbed the keys she slipped her shoes on. it felt like some out of body experience she could see the both of them just scared, unsure of what to do. the fact that she’d never even bought a pregnancy test before was also scary. would the clerk look at her and wonder? ren wasn’t sure. ren grabbed onto his hand and she walked out of the apartment with him. “were not having sex for like a year now, if this comes back negative.” she said seriously. 

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it wasn’t like mark was going to ask for proof of her taking her medicine every day. plus, wasn’t there always that 0.0001% chance or whatever the percentage was that it could happen even if you were on the pill? “okay,” he whispered back, stroking her hair. “let’s just take the test and have it tell us that, hm?” he smiled up at her, laying a kiss on her lips. “do you want me to go buy it? or do you want to go with me?” he asked, holding her hand and giving it a light squeeze.

he didn’t know why but the fact that she was having to convince him made him nervous. it was as if she was trying to reason it out. that it couldn’t be possible. “if you sit like that around me, you’re going to end up pregnant,” he teased before laying a kiss on her lips. “i love you too. now come on. we have to go figure this out. otherwise, you’re going to see a doctor because i worry about you.”

ren leaned into his touch gently, her hand reaching out as she grabbed onto his shirt. holding onto him made her feel a bit easy right now. like that no matter what happened, they’d be okay and be able to work through it. “Okay, um...I can go.” She said smiling a bit as she leaned in to kiss him back.  ren started to get back up again, and she grabbed his hand tugging him up. once he was up she wrapped her arms around his waist and she stepped forward. her arms held onto him sighing. “o-okay, were going to just go to the market grab the test and come back.” she said smiling slightly, and she let go of him and started to walk into their living room to grab her jacket. 

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mark could feel his body shaking slightly. if she were pregnant, then he were going to be a father. as much as he loved kids, he had no idea if he were capable of being a father. he was childish and selfish. everything a father shouldn’t be. and yet, he knew that he could never leave ren or just abandon a child. could they give the baby up for adoption? he didn’t like the thought of something that was his being given away either.

“it could be,” he murmured, still in a state of shock. he didn’t think it was though. they had been less than careful a few times, and he knew that there was a risk they took that they hadn’t thought through the consequences of. he had only been feeling the goodness of the here and now. “we should confirm,” he nodded his head resolutely. “plus, if you’re actually sick, we should figure out why.” yes, that was his real reason why. he was scared that she might be coming down with something else.

the girl leaned against the counter for a moment. trying to figure it out, it wasn’t like she could give a child away, or anything. the wave of emotion rolling through her as she blinked away a few tears. “i’ve never missed a day on my birth control, theres just no way.” she whispered sniffling slightly and she stood straight trying to push her long hair out of her face, practically whining about it. “theres no way, its stress okay. we’ll take the dumb test and it’s going to tell us i’m not.” she kept talking almost trying to convince herself.  her eyes moved, looking at him as he sat on the floor. she moved back down next to him. she reached up touching his cheek smiling weakly. “it’ll be okay babe. its just stress. i couldn’t actually be pregnant. i’m careful...i take my pill all the time.” she said trying to think if she’d ever missed a day. she scooted closer in between his legs she held onto him. “i love you.” 

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mark stood there watching the scene play out in front of him. she looked defeated, and he couldn’t quite understand why. slowly, he plopped himself down next to her, holding her as he stroked her hair, hoping that would make her feel better. the last thing he wanted was her to feel any sort of pain or discomfort.

her whispers, however, scared him. was she more ill than he thought? was it cancer or something very serious? “me?” he blinked a few times. what did he do? was she breaking up with him? no, this wasn’t a break-up scene, not considering the words she had exchanged with him just earlier. and then he heard the word ‘late’, and his whole body froze. when his mother had given him the sex talk (a little too late, in his opinion), she had told him that if a girl ever told him that she was late, he was in big trouble. 

he felt his heart stop. she was … oh god, she was pregnant. he breathed in and out slowly, trying to calm his racing heart. he wasn’t ready to be a father. he was just a kid himself. “are you … are you sure?” he asked, holding her close and yet squeezing his eyes shut at the same time because he was scared to face reality.

ren pulled her legs up gently and turned into him slightly. her arms wrapping around her waist and there was a soft ringing in her ears that wasn’t real. maybe it was because she was so much in shock that she honestly didn’t know what to do. of course  here he was holding onto her like she was about to leave, or really be sick. the only thing that ren felt was horrible at this point.  “I-I-I do-don’t know for sure.” She said and breathed but she couldn’t stop it, her arms pulling him tighter as she moved closer to him. her own eyes squeezing shut as she tried to think it all away. After she stayed like this for a good chunk of time she pulled back her eyes puffy as she looked at him, and a small pout on her cheek. “I-It could be stress right, living together is stressful and I could just be late from that?” she said trying to smile to convince herself. “shit.” she mumbled to herself as she started to get up from the ground and she looked around. “S-Should i go get a test or something I don’t know what to do, Mark.” 

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mark felt a surge of pride right then and there. he had caused her to change her mind. which meant that he had succeeded. his goal in life had been to get her to change in mind (okay, maybe not goal in life, but one of his goals had been to do that) and rarely did he ever actually reach his goals. this was a nice feeling, he thought to himself as he snuggled with her.

he was just teasing, when suddenly, she was moving away. “babe, are you okay?” he cried, moving towards her before sweeping her into his arms and carrying her into the bathroom. he set her down in front of the toilet and held her hair, rubbing her back. “what’s wrong? what is it? did you have something bad to eat again?” he really was clueless about some things.

ren blinked a few times as she felt herself being picked up. him walking her to their bathroom and setting her down on the floor. but her stomach kept turning as she just sat there staring at nothing. how could this had happened, she was careful and she was always on a schedule with everything. she leaned back slowly leaning against the wall slumping down. he was going to leave her, there was no way he’d stick around for this.  “i’m not okay.” she whispered, feeling like her mind was swirling into a thousand different directions. “you...I think.” she stammered out before her hands found her face rubbing it with a whine. She was a kid, she can’t do this. “I’m two weeks late.” she said, the words practically gushing out of her mouth as her head turned slightly to look up at him.

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