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i feel like a fake

ive eaten so much these last 3 days, i feel so pathetic. the only thing that's stopping a full depression spiral is that i have been approved for a rental. i know my period is coming, but i desperately need to get back on track. i can't stay disgusting forever

1/9/23

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too much to do

i feel physically sick right now. there's just too much going on. having to find a new place to live, trying to do assignments, not putting in for group assignments, dealing with a discrimination incident(s) from my teacher, finding the funds to pay for a new place to live, and just generally feeling depressed. im really hoping i can pull through and make this all work

28/8/23

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life is a lil too busy

i think im back on track? i went grocery shopping yesterday and got properly nourishing foods so i can eat well and reduce cravings. im a bit worried because im devoting a lot of time to finding a new place to live and going to house inspections, so i don't have as much time to exercise (or do my assignments)

22/8/23

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log of sadness

i was out with my housemates house hunting today and we stopped at bunnings for some stuff. it's a weekend, so there's a sausage sizzle of course. i wasn't going to get one, but everyone else was so i was like "what the hell, lemme indulge in the pinnacle of aussie culture. gimme a bunnings snag." but then it tasted all wrong, the texture was all wrong, and i had wasted nearly 400cals on this national disappointment

aussie translations

snag - sausage in bread

bunnings - hardware store

12/8/23

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lemme lose pls

i stg, period bloat can eat my toes 🤮

12/8/23

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friction

one thing that has really bothered me about the weight i gained while "recovered" is that now my thighs chafe and give me nasty, itchy, painful rashes. hoping i can be skinny enough when the warmer weather comes (im in australia) so that it isn't an issue

10/8/23

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i talk too much

i talk too much

i talk too much

i talk too much

i talk too much

i talk too much

9/8/23

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it seems so perfect in my head

so walking is my exercise of choice right? its pretty easy to do, can listen to music, get to walk though beautiful nature reserves, and I see heaps of dogs. absolutely perfect right? wrong. i live on top of a hill so no matter which way I go, that last 10 minutes are all uphill and make me sweat like pig. i. hate. it.

otherwise it's great though

8/8/23

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building up progress

i was able to get to 2 hours walking today! havent done that in about 2 years, so pretty stoked. but. i was so damn tired afterwards. i couldn't do anything for the rest of the day. maybe i should make my walks later in the day after ive done what i need?

7/8/23

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slo mo

i'll be honest, the last couple of weeks that I've been back at this have been exhausting. mentally i'm still going good, but i have been so physically tired. i don't even feel like i have the energy to draw. it's pretty frustrating, but i guess i just need to adjust to how much i can do in a day

4/8/23

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probably a bad idea

boy i am craving food bad. im contemplating making tomorrow a "normal eating day" but i swear that will be a regret. i just really want some nice food

3/8/23

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you gotta be kidding

so first day back at my course yesterday, and im doing units about diversity. the teacher, word for word, asked "what does queer mean?"

not to have a class discussion

it was because she didn't know herself

as a teacher

for a unit about diversity

💀💀💀

1/8/23

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back....again?

i stg the last 10 posts ive made have been "I'm back, been away a while." this time i really need to stay "back". I nearly hit 100. i cant do that, i refuse. so here's hoping i stick around

27/7/23

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it's been a while....

yet again, back after a long absence. hit 90kg (198lbs) the other day. haven't been this fat in years. gotta kick myself in the ass (and hopefully make that ass disappear)

26/2/23

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stab me uwu

i need a literal knife through my heart right now. the figurative one is too painful

15/10/22

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my heart is shattered

at least i won't eat i guess

14/10/22

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i hope i'm wrong

i'm convinced you're going to leave me. every fibre of my being is yelling at me, screaming that you're going to abandon me

13/10/22