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“I wanna spend this night talking to you”

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Dear reader.

It has indeed been a while. I think its because i felt better. I felt that for a while the world wasn’t against me. The people weren’t against me.

I thought wrong.

I thought i was able to get over the wall. Ive opened myself up. Got a switch in my mindset. Hell , even the pills worked.

I’ve met people. Made memories, tried to have fun and forget about everything. But it seems my past still follows me. So i closed up again.

And yet it is funny how I’ve met one person, and clicked so good with her.

Like she knew me. She cared.

But with her too, stuff happened that weren’t suppose to happen. And i broke. Beat myself up with it. Why am i so stupid. I keep doing this.

I pushed her away too. More for her own safety then mine.

It’s really hard tho, pushing someone away you care of so much. Like. She keeps going around in my head.

I’ve had some thinking about everything u see.

And i keep coming down to the same conclusion.

It needs to stop. I need to stop.

I need to stop hurting people.

I need to stop pushing people away.

I need to stop analyzing things. Over analyzing things.

I need to stop thinking and over thinking.

So here i am. The lost boy. Back to write one last post. This post.

People will say ; why?

I’m going to dissapoint you. You won’t find it here.

There’s just too much u see.

I’ve tried my best. Everything i could think of. Listened to everyone’s advice. Followed it to the letter. But i come back to this dark area.

So here i am.

Saying my last goodbye.

To everyone that helped me;

Im sorry.

To my mom;

I love you.

To my brothers and sisters;

I love you.

To my grandma;

Im sorry for this. I hope you will understand one day. I love you!!

To everyone else;

Thank you.

13/06/2020.

Much love,

Bramalam.

Sleep well.

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One of my favorite things is when you click with someone without even having to try

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be mine, i’ll keep you forever

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give me the look that says “just wait until we’re alone”

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It’s so attractive when someone actually puts in efforts to see or talk to you.

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i want you here, under these blankets, pressing against me.

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NECK KISSES

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Despite everything, I’m glad i met you.

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In Bloom // Neck Deep

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i know i  joke about it, but i am legit seriously worried i’m going to be alone my whole life.

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everyday.

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“I hope you want to stay for a long time because my heart really likes you.”

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“Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.”

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