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Imagine what a nightmare Han Yoojin would have become for the association if he had awakened as an S-rank. Like, "it's not me locked up with you, it's you locked up with me, and today one of you was talking shit about my little brother."

And they can't even sell Han Yoojin to other countries because no one wants him

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Here's another idea for au;)

Han Yoojin returns to the past for eight years, a couple of weeks after Yoohyun left him. At the moment that Moon Hyuna was talking about. When Yoohyun, a seventeen-year-old teenager, was poisoned. (In manhwa, he still wears his school uniform because he probably didn't take anything from home and couldn't afford a nice suit yet, and it just kills me).

Here, Han Yoojin caught a glimpse of this event and what preceded it in Yoohyun’s memories, so he rushed to the scene. The gas leak and the explosion that followed had clearly been in the news for a long time, so Yoojin had a rough idea where Yoohyun was. Next, a chain of events: Wild and mad Han Yoojin breaks into the building, sees his younger brother (battered and with blood from his mouth), becomes even more wild and awakens with a different set of skills aimed primarily at attack and defense.

Somewhere in the process, Moon Hyuna appears, who then just watches the Han brothers(They were both covered in blood, but she saw that the elder was fighting much better than anyone she had ever seen)hug and cry, and does not understand anything

Well, now this is my favorite idea

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I vaguely remembered yoojin treating yerim, yoohyun and noah like kids, but i failed to see how much it was

"They are at that age that they want to look mature..." ; "I wouldnt want them to be near a corpse. They are still kids!" ; "ah there is food on your cheek let me clean it up"

I love how yoojin sometimes thinks he is being condescending but the 'kids' like his coddling

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A few words about Yoohyun's skill "Azure Willow Leaves".

Well, the willow symbolizes loneliness /forced separation; the azure color means devotion

my desire to see the meaning in everything doesn’t leave me

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From 'that which you must become (remember your true self)' specifically the first and last paragraph -

It feels disgusting, the weight of expectation and leadership that’s placed on him. He grew up protected by the broad expanse of someone else’s shoulders, despite being stronger in every other way. He was nurtured carefully under a warm wing, spent his early life following like a duckling. He should be repaying the favor, not cultivating a herd of sycophants and devotees.

He agrees to be guild leader anyway. The words feel like ash on his tongue and his signature on the contract reads like gibberish.

The position comes with a multitude of responsibilities, most of which he delegates to others. If he must make an appearance, he does. If he has to say a few carefully scripted words, wear the clothing that his manager tells him to, create an image that Haeyeon can rally behind—fine. He pretends (he pretends, he pretends, he pretends) that it’s another monster he has to slay, that this whole world is just another dungeon with a very specific set of clearing conditions.

He moves through the world not quite believing that it’s real, but there’s no one to blame for that but himself. He was the one who severed the connection tying him to reality

this whole fic was a self indulgent angsty character study, and i am delighted to talk about this passage.

It feels disgusting, the weight of expectation and leadership that’s placed on him. He grew up protected by the broad expanse of someone else’s shoulders, despite being stronger in every other way. He was nurtured carefully under a warm wing, spent his early life following like a duckling. He should be repaying the favor, not cultivating a herd of sycophants and devotees.

in particular, the element that i really wanted to capture in this fic was the dichotomy between growing up half of a pair and becoming a single, solitary leader out of necessity. yoohyun does not want to do what he’s doing. he hates it. his relationship with yoojin is so so important to him, and he knows that walking away from that is basically spitting in the face of everything that yoojin ever did for him growing up. and yet, when you’re a teenager stuck between a rock and a hard place, and the only person you trust isn’t someone you can confide in, you make some pretty shitty decisions!

i also think that there’s something here to be said about an interpretation of love as safety and obligation, and the contrast between love without protection and protection without love. idk. i don’t think that i was thinking abt it this deeply when i was writing this, at least not explicitly, but i’ve got some Thoughts about relationship roles and what love means within a family haha

He agrees to be guild leader anyway. The words feel like ash on his tongue and his signature on the contract reads like gibberish.

The position comes with a multitude of responsibilities, most of which he delegates to others. If he must make an appearance, he does. If he has to say a few carefully scripted words, wear the clothing that his manager tells him to, create an image that Haeyeon can rally behind—fine. He pretends (he pretends, he pretends, he pretends) that it’s another monster he has to slay, that this whole world is just another dungeon with a very specific set of clearing conditions.

read: yoohyun hates his life lmao

i think? it’s canon that yoohyun doesn’t actually mind being guild leader, or that he likes it or is good at it or something?? i’ve forgotten the specifics. but i dunno, yoohyun strikes me as a very straightforward, no nonsense kind of guy and i can’t imagine him really appreciating or following guild politics or understanding the need for good publicity lol. maybe he picks it up more as he goes, but at the beginning? nah.

another thing that i really wanted to capture here, and also just with this fic in general, is just how young yoohyun is? like he’s a teenager, he knows fuckall abt what he’s doing, and he’s probably got a bunch of adults around him telling him what he needs to do in order to succeed. and like, he’s an s rank, but being an s rank doesn’t inherently give you the knowledge for how to navigate the sociopolitical space of being a publicly scrutinized leader, nor the more insidious manipulation that happens because of that. i don’t think yoohyun, as i’m writing him here, would get that, so i was trying to be rather subtle abt it!

He moves through the world not quite believing that it’s real, but there’s no one to blame for that but himself. He was the one who severed the connection tying him to reality.

YEAHHHH. i mean, when you’ve purposefully left behind the only support that you’ve ever had, what other feeling for that is there other than adrift? when your self identity is entwined with someone else and then you sever that tie, who do you become? yoohyun sure as fuck doesn’t know :>

[send me a passage from one of my fics and i’ll commentate on it!]

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I cannot stop thinking about how all Yoojin wanted for Yoohyun was to be happy and he thought the way for Yoohyun to be happy was to be normal, the first tragedy between them, and Yoohyun knew that and he tried so hard even because all he wanted was for Yoojin to be happy in turn

and then he awakens at seventeen as an s-class, incredibly strong and incredibly inhuman and if he wants to survive, if he wants Yoojin to be safe, he has to lean into that even though all Yoojin wanted for him was to be a happy, normal kid.

What was he supposed to do?

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Okay, what if...

Yoohyun went back in time, saw some of Yoojin's memories and is now trying to fix everything for his brother. But Yoojin remembers everything too and doesn’t understand why Yoohyun's behavior has changed so much.

Yj: What's wrong with you?

Yh: You were dead.

Yj: Yes, so what?

Yh: /nervous breakdown/

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Im obsessed with yoohyunie actually

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If you are going to write angst, fully commit to it! (S Classes that I Raised)

Trigger warning: suicide and anst

I really want to see a oneshot where pre-regression timeline Han Yoojin successfully - very important because I haven't seen this done yet in this fandom - commits suicide and then the aftermath of Han Yoohyun dealing with all of this. And by this, I mean the funeral, the reading of the will, seeing the social media "celebration", reading the suicide letter, all of it.

Naturally Han Yoohyun wants to trace out the event and the causes for this. He's in denial - he thinks this was an assassination disguised as suicide. He thinks there's invisible enemies that he's unaware of.

And in this research, he finally sees and understands how his decision to "cut" his brother off truly impacted Han Yoojin.

And then give me all the regrets, all the tears, all the stages of grief, and the world starting to realize that nothing is what it seemed.

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my favorite moments from todays chapter update~

poor yoojin’s older brother energy getting grinded up into nothing right now haha

yoohyun is so cute here wuwuwu 

i reckon this scene speaks for itself. 

look at peace being as cute as usual~ 

myungwoo having his angsty moment!! so thrilled for his power to finally unlock~ the difference between the early chapters to now in terms of attitude and appearance is quite striking!!! so excited to see how the artists will draw his power!!! 

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:OKAY FULLSTOP ive been thinking about this goshdang chapter for the last four days since it has come out heres my favorite parts of it i am GNASHING MY TEETH OH MY GOD 

do you HEAR the sound of my HEART falling into pieces like yeah ok yoojin!!! what the hell 

THE FACT. THE FACT he thought of YOOHYUN when he convinced himself that its better to let myeongwoo go and do his own thing without any sort of payment back JUST LIKE THE WAY YOOHYUN LEFT YOOJIN TO GO FORTH AND ESTABLISH THE AGENCY AND>………  also not to be a total simp but HOLY CRAP every frame with myeongwoo in this chapter looks so fine they really decided to yassify him like holy shit

yerim looks so cute in this frame i love her sm wuuahh 

im ngl this convo yoojin had here broke my heart i want to give him a hug,,, also i cant believe he is this oblivious like i know it was the same in the novel and i understand why he behaves that way but also like holy crap yoojin pls understand that you are loved please orz

also gotta say i love the artists for every chapter, every character is so emotive and all the silly little panic expressions are always so enjoyable 

ONE OF MY FAVORITE FRAMES EVER like just look at him the little “i’m not some parent~!” caption and his flustered face its so endearing sorry 

this entire thing!!! AHHHHH!! !!! now on to my favorite part!!! my favorite peace frames from this chapter (every single frame where the face is visible..) 

i think im gonna make a master google doc where it’s just peace. anyways! next chapter is the garden scene!!! are we gonna see noah soon!! i am so excited :D! and… seseong guild leader… 

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Had another au idea for tsctir that involves HYJ going back in time (about 5-6 years) using the wishing stone, like before, except the wishing stone requires a payment of equal value to the wish (in this case, its at the cost of most of his remaining life) and he goes back in time with his current body.

So, HYJ shows up in the past (scars, injuries, leg injury and all) several months before the awakening broker incident can take place and desperately tries to get in contact with his brother. When he finally does (im thinking that HYJ manages to get HYHs attention cause hes waiting around his brothers guild for him to get back from a dungeon), HYH is shocked (his face twisting with dread? And maybe HYJ notes that the HYH of the future wouldnt have made the mistake of letting his emotions show on his face which makes him feel a bit nostalgic) to see his hyung in crutches and carrying injuries that he shouldnt have and looking older? more exhausted and worn down? than his hyung should be and he’s livid cause, what the hell happened while he was in the dungeon?

The change is too sudden and too severe for HYH to ignore and he has HYJ brought into his guild to get to the bottom of it. HYJ goes through the process of apologizing to HYH and talking and HYH has HYJ explain whats going on cause his hyung looks older, has injuries that couldnt have healed this much while he was in a dungeon, and his hyung uses his crutches like hes had them for a long time, and the notifications hes gotten of his hyungs current state doesnt match up with the hyung hes seeing in front of him; so HYJ gives a, very lacking, explanation (just enough to explain that hes from the future thanks to a wishing stone) but HYH accepts it cause HYJ is able to prove that its actually HYJ and not someone else using some kind of disguise.

So, due to everything surround his future hyungs situation (and how could he abandon his hyung when he looks so Tired?), HYH has HYJ live with him.

Its, awkward. At first. But HYJ is nurturing by nature. He knows he doesnt have long left to live. Hes not trying to get anywhere with the time he has left. Hes just, trying to do what he shouldve done for his dongsaeng. So, this time around, he doesnt hold back and he doesnt mind (though he does get bored) being confined to the house.

HYJ tells HYH lots of things about the future (his way of making it up to HYH for all the stress hed caused him pre regression) in order to help him grow his guild much more easily. And “all hyungs are equal” HYH is happy to have HYJ living with him again. His, significantly older, hyung who stays home and worries over him, cooks him meals that remind him of when they used to live together, and who dotes on him with lots of love and affection. His hyung who looks at him fondly, even if sadly at times, and treats him like a child (even more so than usual, which he blames on the larger age gap, even tho hes an adult, but its a dynamic thats oddly comforting).

During this time, HYJ realizes that he hadn’t seen HYH smile in the 8 years that they had been apart (except when hed died protecting him) and seeing his dongsaeng smile so easily and freely now just. Breaks his heart. HYH smiling an enjoying himself in his hyungs company is what gets HYJ to break his silence on what happened. He starts by apologizing, which confuses HYH cause his future hyung hasnt done anything? But the way HYJs voice wavers has HYH feeling concerned, but HYJ continues. “I dont know how id never noticed it before. Have you really not smiled in all the time we’ve been apart? Have you been happy at all?”

How had he gone so long without realizing a single thing? “I’m sorry I didnt notice how miserable youd been. I’m sorry for failing to be a proper hyung.” And maybe HYJs crying (but trying really hard not to) and HYHs trying to comfort him saying “It’s not your fault; i didnt explain anything” but “I should’ve noticed. You hadnt smiled all that time. It’d been 8 years. I dont think Id ever seen you look happy. How could I have been so blind?” And maybe he’s hugging HYH by this point and rambling “I was so caught up in my own anger after you left; so focused on how i felt that it took-“ he pauses “Yoohyun-ah. You died trying to protect me from an ss class lauchitas dragon that showed up in a d class dungeon i was in. It took you sacrificing yourself for me to realize you still cared. It took you dying for me to realize just how much i needed you in my life. How much i missed you and wanted you in it. I’m sorry for getting mad when you interfered. Im sorry for resenting you all those years. I’m so so sorry. I wish i could take all of it back. You didnt deserve any of that. I should’ve been supporting you. Im sorry. I’m sorry.” And, by this point, HYH knows that future HYJs been in dungeons and had awakened but he hadnt known all of this, but he does know that his future self wouldnt have regretted dying for his hyung. His hyung was his whole world; his life wouldnt have been worth living if hed lost his hyung. He doesnt say it though. Its not what his future hyung would want to hear.

HYJ, over the course of living with HYH (and sometime after the above scene), ends up convincing him to explain everything to the HYJ of this time. His relationship with HYH had been bad but he could still make a difference for his brother now so he does. So, instead of lecturing HYJ about the awakening broker incident (it helps that he knew it would happen ahead of time and why his hyung would even think to do such a thing), HYH apologizes and explains the situation. He explains why hes been getting in his hyungs way; why hed left; why hes cut off contact (seeing future HYJ as distraught as he was before gives him the push he needed to actually be honest about everything) . They end up talking for a long time and their conversation ends with their first hug in 3 years (and maybe an award winning act that resembles what had happened in the original timeline to prevent people from realizing anything’s changed) and a promise to keep in touch and hang out from time to time (albeit discretely; just until HYH has the best guild in Korea). And maybe HYH, at the recommendation of future HYJ, gives past HYJ an envelope containing a lot of cash and tells his hyung to pursue what he really wanted to do with his life; to get the education he had given up for HYHs sake? Idk

When future HYJ sees HYH return home, he looks much more relaxed and like a weights been lifted off his shoulders. It also makes him feel horrible again for not realizing just how much hed made his dongsaeng worry over him —how self centered and uncooperative hed been. It leaves a touch of guilt, bitter in his chest, lingering. But he also feels happy knowing that HYH wont have to suffer the way he did in the pre regression; that things wont have to get as bad as they did.

Of course there’d need to be scenes where HYH gets to enjoy being spoiled and HYJ cant say no to HYHs puppy eyes (especially cause a 20yr old is easily still like a kid in the eyes of a 30yr old); i just dont know what kinda scenes to make happen for this yet (pls let me know if you guys have any ideas)

As HYJ starts to reach the end of his life, the effects of the sacrificial wish stone starts making itself known. HYJ starts to get weaker and weaker; he tries to brush it off telling HYH not to worry, but the first time HYH comes home to find HYJ collapsed on the floor, HYH panics and forces him to see a doctor. When the doctors cant find anything wrong, HYH is about to start going off (to ask for more tests to be done), but HYJ stops him saying theres something else he needs to come clean about regarding his situation. And, when the doctor leaves, HYJ explains that the wish stone was actually a sacrificial wish stone, and he’d sacrificed most of his life in order to go back in time. This information leaves HYH feeling really distraught and he tries to find ways to increase his hyungs life span or improve things in some way, but nothing works. HYJ paid the price before regressing. But, he was able to do what hed wanted, so hes not too upset. His main worry is that HYH would feel sad, so he talks to past HYJ about everything and makes sure that he wont make the same mistakes that hed made (makes sure that his dongsaeng wont be alone this time).

When HYJ reaches the end of his life, hes already bed bound. Hed lost the strength needed to carry himself but now hes having a hard time moving his arms and anything more than talking drains him. He knows hes going to pass soon. HYH takes a vacation just to spend all of his time at his hyungs side. HYH tries to smile and keep things light hearted for his hyung, but, when HYH thinks HYJ isnt looking, HYJ catches HYH looking so sad. Then, one morning, HYJ Knows hes not going to make it to tomorrow and he lets HYH know. HYH tries to hold it together at the news and doesnt leave his side. HYJ doesnt miss the way his hands tremble at the news. The past HYJ is brought over at future HYJs request (he wanted someone to be there for HYH) and, when the time comes, HYH is sobbing and trying to give HYJ some of his own life force to keep him around but HYJ is like “No. I’m ready to move on now. Thank you for giving me the chance to make up and thank you for taking care of me and i love you and im so proud of you.” And he tells the other HYJ to take proper care of his dongsaeng and to be there for him and past HYJ nods and thanks future HYJ for helping to mend their relationship.

And, this time, HYJ is the one who gets to smile softly as he looks at his dongsaeng for the last time.

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I will be so normal about her (lie)

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tsctir no dungeon au! where yujin and hyunjae are insane workplace besties.

they are always saying the most wildest stuff during breaks and no one can tell whether they hate eachother or not

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not to project but agender yoo myeongwoo is something that can be so real.

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Ill have 20 yoojin dolls pls

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HES KEEPING THE DOLL LMAO