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the sun has no business tapping out at the tender hour of 5pm bitch i have depression

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hello to sluts only

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I don't know how you do it or what you do but there's something about you that makes me short of breath. I have so many emotions up in the air right now - anger, pain, lust, joy. They all give the same release.

I'm trying to adapt to whatever the hell this is. I'm not complaining because it's not the worst thing ever. At least I'm able to feel more like myself again.

I would talk to you about all of this but I'd rather save myself the risk of breaking down what we have at the moment. I'm rolling with it. I'm not trying to make you sad or mad either. You don't owe me an explanation either.

The truth is, I like it when you look at me. I like it when you touch me. I like the attention. I like that look in your eye when you're looking for comfort and I'm the only one who's there to give it to you.

We're fucking messed up. I don't expect anyone to understand it. I don't even understand it but no-one has to know. The relationship we have is ours and we've put each other through hell to get here and I like it.

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from weheartit

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We were sat on my bedroom floor. We spoke about how I was feeling because you couldn't see me that way.

You could write a song about what happened afterwards. You leaned into me and we kissed and it was raw and powerful but I couldnt carry on. Tears filled my eyes and I broke down. All I could think was how you're not mine anymore. You apologised but there was no need.

We talked things through more. Trying to get the closure we both needed. You said you liked to kiss me. Lord knows I liked it too. Every time we did, it felt as though my chest wanted to explode with the love I have for you.

You realised the severity of where this would lead us if we kept going though. A line had to be drawn. We both knew it. But you're the one who was stronger to speak about it.

We kissed more and as I lay on the floor with your body over me you said this was the last time we'd kiss. Ever. At that point my chest still wanted to explode but the love was displaced with pain. Regardless I took hold of you and did what we were so used to and tried to savour every part.

And then that was it. You pulled away. You took my hand off your neck and placed it on the floor. You stood up. You walked to my door and said you had to go.

Those few hours without you were torture.

When you came home I felt disconnected and cold. You came to make sure I was okay before bed but again, I couldn't mask my pain. I told you you go but I went back to you again.

In the middle of the night I didn't expect your comfort. I needed to be held and that's what you did. You held me like I was a baby in your arms and told me things would be okay.

Your face was close to mine again, you rubbed your nose on mine like you used to and that's when our lips brushed each other's again.

Irrisitable to each other, we succumbed. It turns out our real last kiss left me breathless. A bundle of guilt and heartache overwhelmed us both but hopefully that is where we draw the line.

For now our physical urges have been put to one side. The next thing to overcome is my mind.

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Kiko Mizuhara for Weekly SPA! 9/19

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do u ever think about someone and ur like: i wanna take care of them so hard??? i want to be their #1 supporter especially during times when they think no one believes in them. i want to comfort them when their thoughts are too loud and i’ll stay up with them all night until they drift off into a peaceful sleep in my arms. like u just wanna b there for them???? and love them endlessly????? and give them affection and so much love that they have never received????

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One of my biggest desires is to have Shark Villagers in Animal Crossing!

But since no one recognizes the cuteness of sharks, I decided to create my own villagers!

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I'm now beginning to realise the only person my father will accept is someone who is as much of an asshole as he is

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When I’m abroad and I try to interact with the locals in their language :

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people are probably gonna exist for a very long time after global warming is irreversible but imagine being in the year 3019 and reading a history book and learning that your ancestors had every power to stop the world from being a shitty hell dimension but they didn’t because short term money making was more valuable to them

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I wish I was a fruit bat so I could give all of you rabies

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Pat McGrath Labs Feb 2019