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I’ve never been so happy to see my own fucking bed 😭😭😭😭 this has been the LONGEST 26 hours of my fucking life. Sitting in an airport for 10 fucking hours is a HARD ass pass. I’ll give full cruise pics and everything later. I’m beyond exhausted and I DESPERATELY need to go to sleep

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I genuinely would die for him. I don’t know what it is about it but every Nico fic you’ve ever done is like got some sprinkles of crack. Like why am I checking your blog daily on this cruise 😂

can we get nico taking care of a sick jersey or maybe cheering her up cause she’s sad?

The way I have an actual blurb of sick Jersey in my drafts rn omgggg

Anyway, Jersey for the most part is a very happy and joyful kid. Like Nico, she’s good at taking things in stride and just letting them roll off her back.

But when it comes to Nico leaving for away games, she turns into a the greyest little rain cloud anyone has ever seen. She’s been taught by Nico and reader to always talk about her bad feelings and to cry if she wants because that’s the only way they’ll get better, so even if it’s the middle of the night and she’s waking up teary eyed because she knows her daddy has to say bye in the morning, she’s scrambling out of bed and padding into their bedroom.

Not hesitating to run to Nico’s side of the bed, clawing at the sheets and his back as she tries to heave herself up onto the mattress. He always sleeps on his stomach, head half under the pillows and an arm or hand stretched out to reader to next to him, so when Jersey is half on his back in the middle of the night it takes some awkward, delayed-by-sleep maneuvering to get flipped around.

“Daddy,” she murmurs when his face finally comes into view, her voice already cracking and Nico is quickly rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, sitting up against the headboard to get a good look at his baby in the soft glow of the nightlight by the bed.

“What’s wrong schatz? Why are you up?”

“Don’t want to say bye in the morning, papa.” And she’s crying, fully slumping into his neck with the saddest little hiccups and sniffles he’s ever heard. Reader has woken up by then, half asleep but concerned as she realizes Jersey is holding Nico’s bicep so tight her little nails are digging into the skin and her back shakes with sobs under his large hand.

“Oh baby,” he murmurs, getting up from the bed with her still sat on his hip. He motions for reader to stay, reaching over to pull the blankets back up and over her. “I’m only going to be gone for a few days.”

Realizing what this is about, she sinks back into the pillows, giving Nico a sympathetic look as he carries Jersey out of the room and towards the kitchen.

“But you won’t be here with mama and me.”

He gently bounces her on his hip the way he used to do when she was just a baby, quietly sifting through the cabinets over the fridge to get to the hidden goods. So special they’re kept out of Jersey’s and reader’s reach.

“No I won’t,” he agrees, “but I’ll talk to you everyday on the phone. And we’ll send pictures too, like we always do, remember?”

She makes an unimpressed noise, stroking her hand up and down his arm, soothing herself with the soft fuzz of hair on his biceps.

“Mama will you let you watch the hockey games on tv too, and you can sleep on my side of the bed, and I’ll be back before you know it.” He continues, sitting her on the counter before him. She lets him pull back enough to wipe her wet cheeks.

“Can’t you play hockey here instead?”

He laughs. “No baby, not always. Just like sometimes I have to go to Switzerland to play remember? I have to go to these other places too.”

“Can I go?” She asks, eyelashes all clumped together and eyes still wet with tears. “With you like I do in Switzerland?”

Nico brushes her hair back with his hand, pressing a soothing kiss to each of her flushed cheeks. “Not this time my love. It wouldn’t be as much fun, trust me. We have to sleep somewhere new every night.”

“Oh,” she sighs, deflated. “Then Snoopy couldn’t go daddy.” Nico shakes his head because no snoopy isn’t allowed on trips like that. Not after he’s been lost and almost lost again far too often.

“Snoopy likes to sleep here with you and mama anyway,” Nico comforts, “lucky puppy, huh? Wish I was sleeping here with you two every night.”

Her head perks up in interest. “You don’t like going by yourself?”

“No baby, I wish I could be here every night. But hockey is work remember? And I have to go to work.”

She seems to get it after that, even if she’s still downtrodden and pouty as she tells him she’s going to miss him. That’s when Nico finally breaks out the secret weapon, unwrapping and breaking off two little pieces of the chocolate bar, all the way from Switzerland. He tells her he’ll miss her too, that he’ll think of her the whole time and call every chance he can get. They eat their chocolate together in the dark kitchen, Nico dampening a rag to clean up her messy fingers and the dried tears on her face.

“Wanna come back to bed with me? We can have a sleepover with mama?” He asks, picking her back up off the counter and she hugs his neck.

“Mhm,” she hums, head on his shoulder as he carries her up the stairs.

“That way we can spend the whole night together so we won’t miss each other as much, huh?”

She rubs at his arm again, a little annoyed sounding when she says, “I’ll still be sad.”

Nico presses a kiss to her head, fighting back a bittersweet smile. He hates this part, hates making her sad but he loves knowing she’ll miss him just as much as he’ll miss her. That her missing him on roadies is what’s a big deal in her mind and not him being home. Because being home is normal, him being around is what she’s used to.

He’s not the absent father he always fears will come with the tough hockey schedule.

“Me too Jers,” he assures, “but we can always spend time together in our dreams right? Think of all the fun stuff we can do there while I’m gone.”

Reader is asleep again, and Nico drops his voice to just a whisper as he gets back into bed with Jersey. She stays plastered to his chest, legs stretched out over his thighs as she snuggles into his chest. “We always have fun in dreams don’t we?”

“Yeah papa,” she agrees, sounding lighter than she has all night. Exhausted by her tears, she’s already drifting off, speaking through a yawn when she says, “we have fun all the time.”

Nico strokes over her back, smiling up at the roof as he waits for her breathing to even out, her fingers to go limp on his neck. Then he’s tucking his nose into the top of her head, closing his eyes and willing himself to dream something crazy and silly that way he can tell Jersey all about it in the morning before he leaves. A reminder that they’re always together even when he’s gone, because they just love each other so much.

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I SAW OTTERS TODAY

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I think this is momma. I’ve been trying to post the video of her and her baby breaching together

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😬 for a limited time. I really just want yall to be able to look at my highlight I’ve made for the cruise. I’m trying to add everything to it cause insta is one of the apps that’s working pretty well. I also posted my first tiktoks 💀 same username. Ngl that’s literally my user on everything I can

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Btw I fucking HATE that stupid ass thing it’s not even a button but it’s like the circle from the iPod 💀 I just fucking dated myself with that

It’s gonna take me a while to get use to having a camera button exactly where I rest my hand on it. I’m just hoping for CASETiFY actually send me my products so I can have to phonfzxf backs ccvvc

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What time do you think?

What time do you think this was taken?

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What time do you think this was taken?

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I had to bring pua 😂

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I had pasta out of a cheese wheel yall im THRIVING

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My home for the next 8 days 🥹

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I will be on my cruise tomorrow through the following Saturday we have wifi on the boat however idk kid it will actually work 😂

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Flying into Seattle this morning I got to see mount Rainer and i literally almost cried out of excitement. For the longest time I thought it was a cloud off in the distance but as we got closer it was in fact a mountain 😭😭😭😭 it genuinely was really cool

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Gonna leave in a few

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We are

I didn’t sleep

My head is killing me (I neglected my hair yet again so it’s all a knot and my mom and i have been trying to undo it for 2 days at this point and we had to stop bc it was late both days and we were exhausted. We are trying not to cut it bc I will be bald if we do)

Welp guess we aren’t going on the cruise

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Welp guess we aren’t going on the cruise

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This is the only fucking mating dance that ever pops into my head when someone says it. It’s the stupid useless arms that do it. I literally laugh every fucking time I see it.

luv how male animals gotta fucking dance around and cry and shit for female attention and sex. and then men irl complain about fat women and body hair like get on ur fucking knees and beg me actually