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Thunderdome

Trailer park in the dark,

Hooded strangers in the yard,

Steady income

And he saves it all

Vulnerable, he bears it all

And takes me out to where he’s from

To share his liquor at the Thunderdome

Black eyes and butterflies

He benches heavy down the street

I pick him up and he puts his arm around me

And it’s safe and warm

Because he’s tough and strong

And he has a dream, I swear he does

It hasn’t been the same

Since they took him down to county

But there’s naught like love through a silicon screen

And he’s battered and broken

There’s not much there of him

But there’s something left that calls out to me

He’s a bad, bad man

There’s no fixing him

But really, is there any fixing me?

And I’ve loved him before

And I could love a couple more

But ain’t it better loving one who never leaves? 

But God, when I look at him

Bloodshot eyes and lesioned skin

And he’s perfect, and he’s worth it

And I stay here because I deserve him

Track marks to mirror the scratches

Down my back and across my ass

That he left

For me to collect as keepsakes

Souvenirs from the man I should be with

He’s got his addictions

And god knows I have mine

And he mixes them together

In some store-brand wine

He gets sleepy with the reds

And then gets angry with the whites

About his dumb luck daddy

So now he has to be mine

And he fights my battles so I don’t have to

Spits at cops in an AMC parking lot

And he’s a good man deep down behind all the pain

And I think I could be too if I stay

But God, when I look at him

Bloodshot eyes and lesioned skin

And he’s perfect, and he’s worth it

And I stay here because I deserve him

Track marks to mirror the scratches

Down my back and across my ass

That he left

For me to collect as keepsakes

Souvenirs from the man I should be with

At the Thunderdome

We can see it all

Bright lights and bar fights

And screams through the megaphone

We can live it up

Lawn chairs and solo cups

And no matter what we’ll be enough

We’ll still be flawed

But at least we’ll be in love

Yeah, you’re so flawed

But I can’t help but be in love

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a recent drawing i made of Haydens coachella outfit ♡

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For mental health purposes I have decided to take a break from yearning. I will now be focusing my energy on longing instead.

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cursed town 📸: @prairiedeath

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Bones

Heard you singing on the couch in the basement

Singing indie rock and singing my praises

I think you got those couple songs from my playlist

Your temper isn’t mine but I can sure try to make it

Jaw is swinging

And you’re making me blush

But I think it’s the rush

From the Avion

It’s advantageous,

Not the best thing I’ve done

But I fell on hard times

And you can sure make them easier

I was never meant to become this, I didn’t mean to

You can blame a couple guys from down the line if you need to

I know I do 

They were beautiful and horrible

I miss them more than I could miss you

It sickens me to even think that you could look at me

The way I see the boy who cheated our virginity 

It’s not easy being the problem

And I know because I’ve been the one trying to solve him

Remember those glory days

Remember those Summer nights

Ten bucks for the older kids 

To hook us up with the Miller Lights

Remember the pool table

Where we had the fight,

Drunk calling your girlfriend

And telling her that you fucked me right

But that’s all a memory

I’ll never get it back

And it’s not the same 

Leaving red marks on someone else’s neck

But I’ll never be that for you

And you’ll never be that for me

But I tell my friends about you

They way they’ll tell their friends about me

Can you be my boyfriend?

Can you be my life?

Can you be my mistake,

My reputation,

My one night?

Can you be my way out?

Can you be my friend?

Can you be my heartbreak

And my brutal rejection?

I have so much to say

By the end of the night

Couple shots on the house

Had a real good time

But its so raw and lonely

I forget how you’d hold me

It’s been two years since I’ve felt you inside of me

Do you wanna come over and stay the night?

I only drank half of my bottle of wine

Never mind, I changed my mind

Have a safe trip home

I’m still trying to find the one I lost

In someone else’s bones

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there's just something about you, baby.

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REBECCA IS THE FUCKIN BEST