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Sana magkaroon ako ng opportunity na magkaroon ng stable career, whether sa art or sa kung saan pa mang career. Sana makatagpo ako ng taong maniniwala sa potential ko. Nakakapagod na kasing magmakaawa sa totoo lang. Para lang sa work na mababa ang sweldo.

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Ayoko na muna talagang maistress. Ayaw ko na munang isipin kung paano ako hahanap ng work ulit. Ayaw ko na munang mag effort ng sobra na naman at maging depressed at stressed. Universe ikaw na muna ang bahala please. Naniniwala ako na kaya ito nangyari kasi may mas magandang opportunity na dadating so kelangan ko munang magtiis ng saglit. Basta wag nyo lang ako pababayaan :(

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Some cute pieces that we saw yesterday 🩷

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Dylan took me out on a museum date yesterday. We went to Ruurlo to see this cat exhibition which is so cute! Too bad di gaano kadami yung pieces na inexhibit. Naiimagine ko if andun din yung mga paintings ko of Jolly hehe.

Kumain din kami sa Schalkhaar. Si Dylan kumain ng spareribs na may kasamang grilled chicken leg. Mukhang masarap naman pero di ko talaga bet yung spare ribs eh. Sobrang tamis kasi for me nakakaumay hahaha. I ordered Angus rib-eye steak instead. I don't remember the last time I had steak. Di ko nga alam if nakakain na ba talaga ako ng steak sa buhay ko kasi growing up sobrang kuripot ng mga magulang ko hahaha. Yung tatay ko for sure he would wanna take us for a steak dinner but my mom?? No way hahaha. Maski nga sushi di ko naexperience sa pinas eh. Anyway, sobrang sarap nya and understandable kung bakit mahal (37 eur lol). I am thankful na I can already afford to eat these things 🩷

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Ang hirap maging positive sa totoo lang pag harap harapan kang ginagago ng mundo eh. Bakit kailangan ko na namang harapin to??? All of a sudden biglang mawawalan na naman ako ng work?? Ang masakit is gusto ko na tong ginagawa ko, natututo na nga ko eh nasasanay na ko, pati sa mga kawork ko masaya na ako. Tapos biglang aalisin na naman saken. As in literal na biglaan??? Ano ba to?? Dahil ba to sa evil eye??? Dahil ba madaming inggit??? Di ko na alam talaga :( ayaw ko nang maexperience to ulit na mawalan na naman ng work :( At ayaw ko nang pumasok ulit sa production :( I am not for that! I deserve so much more. Pagod na ko mag start from scratch. Please naman, bigyan nyo na ako ng chance, ng magandang opportunities :( Ayaw ko nang magmakaawang mag apply na naman sa mga companies like bat ganon :( sobrang nakaka down, sobrang nakakapanglumo :( Gusto ko lang naman magkaron ng magandang career :( bat di ako mabigyan

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Malakas naman ako kay lord kahit ganito ako na kinukwestyon ko yung existence nya eh. Naniniwala naman ako na may higher power, so I just call it Universe. Universe truly exist eh and maybe god is universe, the creator. Universe, please, no more negative plot twist, no more forda character developments oh. Let me live. Let me truly live :/

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I feel the love sa work ko rn. Everyone is being supportive, very caring. Nakakasad lang din na di ko na sila makakawork :/ nakakainis naman din talaga kasi ang mga pangyayari. Pero I believe na may better opportunities kasi na paparating kaya ganito. I am very thankful na tutulungan daw nila ako makahanap ng bagong work. Hays. I am still hopeful but at the same time, naiistress din kasi I am scared eh. Normal naman ding mapanghinaan ako ng loob pero ayun, I manifest wonderful opportunities. I know I will get a better job. Better pay, better coworkers, better work environment. ✨️✨️✨️ laban lang, Naj.

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Please give me some good news this week, universe 🥺🙏🏼 please please please 😭

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Yesterday with my favorite girlies 🩷

I am so thankful to have them in my life. May I never lose them. 🩷

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Bound in bloom and blood, they weave in silence;

keepers of a forgotten vow.

Around the dying moon they dance,

hair like chains, hearts like altars.

Each thread a memory,

each petal a price.

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Idk why i feel so insecure. I wish i also have a strong personality, where i can land a job in corporate or in sales. I really wanna work in the HR department where I can do schedules and planning. I wish that I get a job related to that even though I didn't have a degree in HR. Please universe, give this job to me 🙏🏼 Please let me have a stable career, stable income and nice colleagues for life that I can be close friends too 🥺

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✨️i am getting a better job

✨️i am getting more money

✨️i am learning new things and I won't be anxious about it

✨️i won't be unemployed for too long

✨️i won't be working in production again

✨️i will be friends with these people I work with now and the people i will work with in the future

✨️i will be okay

✨️i won't be worried

✨️things will turn out great

✨️i am going to be sexy and skinny

✨️i am losing weight

✨️i am pretty

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Received something good today at work. It may not be certain at this point but I am still thankful to know that there are still people out there who believes in me. I just hope that they're not saying these things just to be "nice" or to make me feel better. Okay, I don't even wanna think about anything negative, I don't wanna overthink this!

Things are going to be okay. There's a reason why this happened, hindi pwedeng wala! For sure this is for the better. There is always something better in store for me and I will be thankful in the end that this job didn't work out. I am pretty sure that it will lead me to a better path. 🩷

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✨️better opportunities are coming

✨️good health, i will be physically fit

✨️i am going to Rome with the love of my life and we will enjoy our time there

✨️peace of mind

✨️getting more money

✨️i am getting a better job

✨️i am not going to be unemployed for too long

✨️the universe always have my back

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I just received a terrible news today. Magsasara daw yung workplace ko. Di ko alam ano mangyayari in the future pero nakakalungkot eh. Universe, sana idirect mo ako sa magandang path, or sana mabigyan pa ako ng chance sa better work opportunity 😔 I don't wanna start again in production plesse!!! Universe, please!! 😭 Ayaw ko maging unemployed ulit at magstart over :(

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Been thinking of getting tattoos 🤔 should I?

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✅️ Went to Austria

✅️ Somehow motivated to go to the gym

2025 vision board 🩷🫶🏻

In 2025...

•I am receiving a lot of money. I am getting salary increase and yearly contract with the company I'm working for.

•I am going to Italy.

•I am travelling with Dylan and my friends.

•I am going to Austria.

•I am highly motivated to lose more weight, to be physically fit and healthy.