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I know people have the headcanon that Neil had a crush on Jeffery back when he was in Welton, HOWEVER I raised you instead Todd and Neil dating and Todd who *thinks* Neil had a crush on his brother (because everyone loved Jeffery, everyone. The first time they met Neil introduced him to everyone as Jeffery's brother).

Then Todd worries a lot and is convinced that Neil only likes him because he couldn't be with Jeffery so Todd is just "the second best option" and he's kind of jealous of his brother even though Jeffery isn't even part of this!!! Jeffery probably never even met Neil, not significantly.

Eventually Neil and Todd talk and Todd learns, no Neil never liked Jeffery. He only likes Todd, and it has nothing to do with his brother, it's because he's *him*

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Dead Poets society textposts/Tweets Part 9

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i hc that when neil and todd kiss, it’s those kisses where they mush their noses together. they think it’s endearing, but the rest of the poets tease them for looking idiotic.

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more of these because i think neil torturing the poets with his pining is one of the most hilarious things. it #getstoapoint

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thinking.

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The devil work hard ,but i work harder

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ginny and todd bestfriends agenda who else cheered🙏

I'm going to lyon tomorow 😋

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I'm going to lyon tomorow 😋

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Realistically I know it’s because he didn’t have a choice, but now that I’m in college getting my degree (and constantly on the verge of death because of it) it’s really starting to sink in that Neil was a straight A student, and how much more tragic that makes the way everything turned out.

Quite literally he was as perfect as he could have been for them. Obedient, charismatic, intelligent, committed. He had straight As. He had straight As. As in As in every class. As in passing everything. As in not falling behind in any regard. As in keeping up with an insane amount of course work every day, on top of three school mandated clubs, a secret society that usually met in the middle of the night, and a secret play with rehearsals that were held off campus.

It makes his father saying he thinks he was taking ‘too many extra cirriculars’ at the beginning of the film feel like an even bigger slap in the face, because it’s incredibly obvious that Neil could have balanced all of it with ease. Considering how their spat goes when Neil expresses discontent with the decision to be taken out of the annual, I can’t even give him the benefit of the doubt by saying he just didn’t want to chance it. Neil liked it, that much is obvious, but Thomas saw no long-term benefit to him being involved, so it had to go. Anything not directly contributing to his plan for Neil couldn’t stay, no matter if it brought Neil joy.

All paired with the grace Neil still gives his father in between his frustration with him, and the fact that Neil isn’t afforded the same. Neil is always backing down, always rationalizing, always falling back in line, and Thomas is always pushing and disregarding and coercing until he gets his desired result—Neil’s resolve breaking. Their relationship is such a constant show of domination, and that fact is always passively in my head, but every time I think about it too long my chest starts to hurt.

And the thing that really gets me is the kindness Neil still shows to others despite it all—the fact that he inherited his father’s quickness to anger, and his stubbornness, and his tunnel vision, but not his cruelty. Neil is so spirited, and gentle, and open-minded. He goes through life desperate to be listened to and desperate for control and still remembers to be good instead of spiteful. And he has his moments, because he’s human and a teenager on top of it, but he never loses himself to it. He’s never rude, he never belittles others for struggling, he never lets his standing as one of ‘Welton’s finest’, as Nolan said, get to his head. Even with all the odds stacked against him, he stayed good.

He was a supportive friend. He was an amazing actor. He was an understanding son. He was a sensitive person.

He was a straight A student.

It’s literally sickening.

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neil perry just needed gay marriage to be legalized and a little bit of sertraline and he wouldve been fine

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I raise to you:

Neil Perry with slight obsessive tendencies and maybe a bit of a loser simp behavior, instantly falling for the new kid at the block and fumbling as he tries to swag his way to his heart

And a flushed Todd Anderson who doesn't know how to respond but low-key likes it all the same and would humor Neil

Fanfic writers you know what to do <33

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todd writing a poem that he's really proud of and wanting to read it at a dps meeting but he's scared so neil holds his hand while he does it

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can you maybe not throw bricks at me?

todd anderson had a daughter and named her nellie and she ended up EXACTLY like her semi-namesake. todd would look into her big brown doe eyes and imagine they were from neil's genetics, that they'd reached that far. when she came running home with a school theatre permission letter, he couldn't sign it quick enough, and gave her the biggest standing ovation - even when her puck crown toppled off of her head with excitement. on nellie's eighteenth birthday, he couldn't stop looking at her mature, gentle eyes, and saw someone he never got to turn eighteen with.

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I CAN’T ☹️☹️

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that’s why i’m steven meeks

To loud to be Todd to quiet to be Neil

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Todd did have to end up taking care of himself.

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I love Charlie and Cameron angst.