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[markclancaster]

Yeah, I know. I hated it too. It's really no problem Cart, I totally get it. 

That’s one week too many. I hated that you were mad at me. Thanks man, I really appreciate it. I just need to get away for a little while.

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That's one week out of all the weeks I've known you. It's practically nothing. It's settled then, you're staying with me for a while.

I was in the way for the past week or so when you’ve been mad at me. But it would be nice to get away from my house for a few days.

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Dude, when do you ever get in my way? I dig having you around. Hey, what they don't know won't hurt them.

Really? I wouldn’t want to get in the way. Too bad for them that I’m not your roommate and I’ve still corrupted you. 

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Yeah, let's do that. Hey you know you can stay at my dorm room for a few days, right? We can put a mattress on the floor or something. Thanks to all that extra money my parents spent to ensure that I don't get corrupted by a nonbeliever there is no roommate to bother. 

It’s okay, it’s not your fault. I’m just so frustrated right now. Let’s just go grab a bite or something. I need to get out of this house before I punch someone in the face.

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I'm sorry, I thought- you know what I thought. What matters now is that I was wrong and it wasn't your fault

Well it seems like I already have.

[markclancaster]

It's okay Cart, I'm here alright? You're not going to lose me, not over something stupid like this, okay? It wasn't your fault. 

I’m fine, I just-

I really don’t want to loose you, you’re all that I have and I don’t know what to do to make this right.

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He didn't say anything else, no. I stopped texting after that. Look Cart, I know something's off, and I worry about you buddy. Are you sure you're alright?

My dad had my phone, and I really wouldn’t doubt if he had texted you. Did he say anything else to you? I’m fine, I’m about to punch someone’s face in, but I’m fine. I’ve got self control.

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Then how do you expl- oh. That fucking bastard huh? Oh crap, fucking crap. Cart, are you okay? 

I swear I didn’t have my phone… When I got my phone back there was not a single text message, and I didn’t text you at all, I couldn’t text- 

Uh oh… That fucking bastard. 

[markclancaster]

Oh for fuck's sake Carter, just cut it. Not a single text my ass. Here, let me refresh your memory. "Hey Cart, got some booze, wanna throw a party for two?" the second day you were gone, and here's two day's later "Hey dude, haven't seen you around, you okay?" followed by "Carter? What's up dude?" To which I actually got a reply, "Stop texting me." So don't come here with that 'didn't have my phone' crap.

It’s so much more complicated than that Mark, I had no phone I didn’t even know where my phone was while I was there and then I just wanted to pretend like nothing happened. And I didn’t have a single text from you so I thought I could just come back here and pretend like nothing happened. 

[markclancaster]

If I didn't care it wouldn't bother me that you left. Oh shut up Carter, the problem isn't that you were gone, I get it. You were in the hospital, that's fine. What pisses me off is that it would literally have taken a few seconds to send me a message saying "I'm in the hospital, won't see you for a while" or even just "I won't be around the next few months, there's something I gotta take care of" but you didn't, you just decided to let me spend months thinking you'd left me as if it didn't matter at all. And that's a pretty screwed up way to show me that you care. But you've made it perfectly clear you don't see the issue with that, so I'm just wasting my time here. 

If you’re going to get this pissed at me for something like this then clearly you never really cared about me in the first place. I came back for you, I was just going to run away away and never come back, but you’re the reason why I came back. I didn’t mean to hurt you and I said I was sorry and gave you an explanation. What more do you want from me? 

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That is the idea, yes.

Well, good for you. Really. 

[markclancaster]

No, I'm actually not going to drink again. It's a stupid and immature habit, along with everything else I've been doing the past year.

That’s what everyone says and then fails to commit to. Maybe a more realistic goal would be, “I’ll never drink that much at one time again.”

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Did you honestly expect me to stop being mad if you just spent some more time not talking with me? That's just not how it works, if this was going to just blow over it would have done so during the months you spent away. You can't just break my heart and expect me to be okay with it because it was the easiest thing for you to do.

Yeah seems like it. 

[markclancaster]

Are you seriously asking me that?

Are you seriously still pissed off? 

[markclancaster]

Whatever

I’m calling bullshit on that 

[markclancaster]

I'm never drinking again.

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Moodboard: Mark Lancaster