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[marlowe-tully]

My Prince,

I am sorry. I don’t know how many times I have said this phrase to you. At this point I don’t even know if it has any meaning. I swear every time it was said it had some truth to it. I never wanted to be the one that hurts you. You have always deserved more than me, more than what I could give to you. You’re the best person I have ever met and the fact that you were with me for so long proves it.

I have so many thoughts going round in my head. So many negative feeling that just won’t go away. You knew this when we met, but you didn’t care. You kept trying to get me to see the positives in the world. I really thought it was going to work this time. I really did. You gave the hope that no one else ever has.

You know you’re my biggest regret. I regret that I came into your life. That I let you get close to me. That all my problems could bring the sun down with me. That I was able to ruin everything for you. That everything we are is because of me. Because I had to go to that specific bridge five years ago. That I let the blood run down my legs. That my screams were loud enough for you to hear me. I wasn’t able to even kill myself without causing problems. Why the hell would I be able to do anything else right? How would I be able to love the man that saved my life when I couldn’t even love the person who gave me life? Or even love the person that is living it?

You tried to help me and I thank you, but why? I should have just ended it then. I should have just drove off like I was planning. But no I decided to be dramatic and now you can’t even tell the story of how we met without fear of upsetting me. You don’t want to bring up a bad moment in my life. As if all my moments haven’t been bad.

I loved you to the best of my ability. And unfortunately that will never be enough. I will never be enough for you. I need to set you free. We were never meant to be. I hope you know that. I don’t get the fairy tale ending and the happily ever afters. But you do. You’re the handsome prince that comes and saves the day. Making everything okay. My life just won’t allow that. I am sorry. I really am. I love you, and I done being a burden on you. Be free my prince

[marlowe-tully]

You

A Laugh. Very simple, but can mean so much.

You make me laugh. Not because you are funny,

But because you mean something to me.

You make me happy to be around you.

You bring me joy. You make me happy.

 A smile. Very small, but there shining through.

You make me smile. Not because you make me happy,

But because you mean something to me.

You make me sad to be around you.

You bring me sorrow. You make me sad.

 A frown. Very unnoticed, but is shows constantly.

You make me frown. Not because you make me sad,

But because you mean something to me.

You make me cry to be around you.

You bring me to despair. You make me cry.

 A tear. Very unexpected, but it happens sometimes.

You make tears forms. Not because you make me cry,

But because mean something to me.

You make me laugh to be around you.

You bring me ecstatic. You make me laugh.

[marlowe-tully]

It is pouring down rain

A small house, A beaten up car in the driveway

A woman is laying by the source of the noise

Bruises cover her arms and legs

She has purplish-green eyeshadow around her right eye

The woman turns to see a man towering over her, They lock eyes, Her eyes show pain, His only shows anger, She looks at the broken pieces, Then she looks at her hand, Its covered in blood and pieces of the vase

He attempts to grab her arm, she gives him a piece of the vase

She runs outside, grabbing the car keys as she leaves

She starts the car, She pulls out the driveway, Beginning to drive away

He walks in the middle of the street, She slams on the breaks, They lock eyes, He hits the hood of the car in anger

“What you gonna hit me”

She presses the gas pedal to the floor

The car continues as its steering wheel becomes covered in blood

The gas pedal is still touching the now red stained carpet

She can no longer see as her tears blur her vision even more than the rain does

The car suddenly stops as it smashes into a stop sign

[marlowe-tully]

30%

I have been told

“30% days deserve 30% goals”

But if you have ten 30% days

You miss out on 700%

The 30% days can’t be control

They come when they want

They take everything

They leave saying “see you soon”

How many 100% days can I have

Before the 30% days come again

Can 30% bring his friend again

Or maybe family members

‘Cus if 30% brings 40%

Then 70% days are here.

Two is better than one

And 70% is better than 30%.

What if 30% doesn’t come again

What if it’s 20% or 10% instead

Then maybe I’ll wish for 30%.

But after ten days of 30%

I’ll wish for more

Ill wish for 40% or 50%

But then comes 20%

Can I ever just have 100% days

Can I ever have a day?

Where showering isn’t hard

And the sun isn’t too bright.

And I have feelings

Of something other than numb.

[marlowe-tully]

"I Already Know"

Yeah sure, you do. You already know. You know the sign. You know what to look for. You know it all. Very Well. Okay. Yup, you are so advanced. ‘Cus you already know. Yup, so simple right. The signs are obvious. Of course. Yes. Correct. You already know everything. Don't need to learn anymore. You know the signs. Lack of appetite. An increase in sleep. Withdrawal from people. Making suicidal jokes. Sure you know the signs. Then why do I suffer?