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there's no place like home

the only difference between me and them is that I would never choose to go back to boring real life

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i feel so alone on a friday night

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bad influence

when you meet someone who seems cool you think "wow, i wish i was cool like her" then when you start getting closer to her you feel happy because thinks she'll become as cool as her, at first everything is rosy, you start to feel more confident around her and people start to notice you more, everything starts to go wrong when she starts to turn against people, even the people you love, you think you don't need anyone else but her, so you walk away easily, people start to look at each other strangely, they start to move away from you, until the person you love so much starts to sabotage themselves, you obviously didn't expect this from them but it happens, there comes a certain point when you realize that the person you envied so much was actually jealous of your life. because before you met her she was innocent and pure, now she lost her purity a long time ago, she is like a vampire, she sucks your good energy and destroys you little by little, she takes herself to the hole with her.

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no one know what i'm really like.

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"you know what i think? i think you're a fucking gay just like your daddy."

jules was like a rainbow, each color represented a trait of her personality, and she had a very broad personality, on one hand she had the need for femininity, on the other she had the brutality that represented a little of the masculinity that still existed in her, the stupid and naive decisions she made were also part of her, she was a confused and even a little naive person, she just wanted to help everyone around her but forgot to help herself. she was the one who needed help the most.

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i like girls, no, i like the girl.

i wanna tell my baby to pretend, that every word i say is what i really meant, and when i get my head back on all right, then we can be together for another night, and we can have those dreams like no one else, it's just one more reason to control myself.

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lost love, have you ever been through this?

sometimes i think you don't realize that you might lose me. are you sure you want to suffer the torture of remembering a lost love? do you know the torture of remembering a lost love? it's horrible! it will accompany you day and night! you will wake up at night in despair! you won't be able to eat or play, because you've become so ill. you will hate yourself and the whole world and everyone who lives in it.

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i don't want to be cute, I want to be pretty

why do people always see me as a cute person but never as a beautiful person? i want to be attractive, no matter how hard i try i never can, i'm never enough, no one will ever love me if i'm not pretty enough. nobody wants to be with the cute ones, only the pretty ones.

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don't put kids in hollywood

the amount she was sexualized and became a new sex symbol for hollywood saddens me. unlike her partner who was her abuser in the movie, she had her career destroyed by a role where everyone became disgusted with her. this shows that men, despite all the atrocities they can commit, will never be judged as much as women are when they make mistakes. whoever sexualized her is sick.

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i just wanna play with you yoo

i want to spend my days by your side, i want to live intensely by your side and everyone who looks at us calls us crazy, i want to do crazy things, i want to commit atrocities, i just want to have fun, i don't want something serious, i want unforgettable days, i want you to never forget me, never forget how crazy and insane i was by your side, i'm just here for fun, i'm here to make sure you never forget me.

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i'm your favourite boy

the more you want me, the less i want you, i know it's horrible but it's true... and of course you think i'm hiding things and I'm... i'm hiding, the total chaos i am, behind this cute and acceptable version of being chaos, it's insane.

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me and him

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teacher's pet

today a new teacher came to teach my class, he was a portuguese teacher, many didn't like him because they considered him boring, in the middle of the class i had noticed the letters that we had written in a paper and i mentioned it to my friend david, he immediately called my attention and sent me to the coordination, i didn't disobey him and went right away, when I got there, the room was empty and he asked to talk to me. he said that i had been a badly behaved boy and that he would have to teach me a lesson. At that moment he pulled down my pants and underwear and started slapping my ass, i asked him to stop but he continued stronger, there came a moment when he stuck his fingers in my intimacy, it was nice, then he dressed me and asked me to go back to the classroom and said that if i said anything someone would kill me, i went back to the room scared but with a smile on my face because i had never experienced anything like that. it's a shame he's a temporary teacher, i wish i could see him more often.

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"they didn't let you go because you got better, they just gave up on you."

daisy was broken, broken and psychologically unstable, she needed help, unhappy, the wounds she carried were impossible to heal...

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"you're just jealous lisa, because i've got better. because i was released. because i have a chance."

the need to be loved by her father, the constant fear of food and getting fat, and the frustration of not knowing her diagnosis and what tormented her so much were characteristics that formed her personality of daisy, she was melancholic and mysterious, a little angry, she was a broken person, who just wanted to be happy and loved, had a sad ending but unfortunately due to his mental and psychological condition, a sad but expected ending.

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have fun in florida.

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maybe i'm just a girl interrupted