masakousuke

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I am the worst person alive and very little is currently keeping me from just leaving this life for good.

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I hope one day the online friends I had and lost will decide to check on my accounts and somehow have to guess that I must have died or something

Mostly just because I think and hope I'm headed for an early grave.

... It simply just got bad again. Cried over zucchini with olive oil. Lol.

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I might turn this into an ed blog as the final fuck you to my mental health lololol

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Look the queue ran out lol

I hope I die and I kinda wish I could delete this account. Not that I wanna erase the people I met, that's not it. But I'm sure it will be taken that way. I hope others have moved on. I haven't, obviously, not in full. And I'm doing a little too poorly to really know what to say. I drew for the first time in weeks yesterday. I wish I could delete my body of work. I wish I could pretend I never felt the disappointment in myself when others' response wasn't what I hoped it would be. I wish I could erase the anger I feel when I decide it's time to make myself worse and look at the tag again, and think about all that I've done wrong, and think about how I'm not good enough, and I'm not good enough a person.

Goodbye to all who cared. Sorry I'm like this. Sorry I've always been like this. It's easy to be outgoing and easy to talk to online until you break. I'm losing my personality again to my disorders so I'll see you all on the other side or something.

No point in tagging this.

Idk. I will never not hope for something. I'm sorry to have disappointed everyone. Goodbye.

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nothing in the world makes me more evil than just being kind of annoyed

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thinkin bout funny meme

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Nick Miller

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Todays Seal Is Banana!

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NO girls should flirt with me because they will find out that as soon as it gets to the sexy talk stage i cant turn off the jesters spirit and i will continue to make jokes. there is no sexy in me only the bit and brother i stay chompin

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I am unfortunately just like other guys. I like trashy horror, dog poems, cannibalism as a metaphor for obsessive devotion, religious imagery, people who use my name in a sentence, academic validation, lying for fun, being bisexual and bleeding out in the snow.

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— David Cronenberg, Consumed

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"am I being annoying" are you aware that my heart is trying to crawl out of my chest to get to you

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do it scared do it weird do it alone. holy trinity

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my peanuts went sour

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giggling and kicking my feet as i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill you i kill y

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“you should be at the club” Brother I should literally be sent to the seaside for my health

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{Words by: Virginia Woolf from day and night/ Mahmoud Darwish}