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Song: An Ending (Ascent)

Artist: Brian Eno

Album: Apollo: Atmospheres & Soundtracks

This is so beautiful.

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everyone on the dash: is dramatic af and has a penchant for death sorey, whose fate is penultimate in being really really sad but has a huge zest for life : don’t you wanna just calm the insert a cuss word because tales equivalent of jesus in role symbolism i can’t cuss ‘ chill the ... something ...something out?’ everyone: no! i’m gonna be excessive on main ! sorey: :weary_emoji: 

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"my death will be grand."

the SUN & HER FLOWERS  | * accepting /

❝ …..Seriously?Wouldn’t you rather focus on making your life grand? Or at least something you want for yourself. No point in wasting the time you have now, right? ❞

 What an odd guy. Though really he supposed he wasn’t any stranger, talking to what many people deemed as divine beings, who ultimately were to him friends to co-exist with, to strive for a future with, long after his death came for him. 

Geez! That sounded morbid to a boy of natural cheer and vivacity….

But oh, what do you know of your fate, gentle shepherd, you with great power may yet walk like a god, lauded as the awaited messiah who chose the path either spurned or accepted, isolated or integrated, perpetually alone if not for the presence of his Prime Lord, his Sub-Lords, his Squire and his first human friend… oh, and home, Elysia, where the undying seraphim lived; cast in wreathes of green fields and untainted air within Gramp’s domain.

Home, home home home – a beat, gentle voice careful and curious, concerned. 

❝ I uh, mean…sure, if you want that. But that should be a ways down the road, c’mon, you look my age. There’s tons of stuff out there to do and I guess I just don’t understand why you’d want a grand death or focus on it, unless you aren’t but kinda sounds like you are right there.

 It’s not the dying but what we leave behind anyway, right? I’d rather focus on how I live, and how that can continue on after I go. But…maybe I just don’t understand this stuff yet. No, maybe I can’t fathom why you’d say that when you seem pretty alive to me.

 But how you live your life…it’s all about beliefs and choices, ideals and truths we come along the way, huh … so I really can’t dictate you, even if I hope you realize that’s a bit concerning for an outsider to hear. ❞ Sorey glances behind; although really it was to gauge his companions reactions; unseen to most unbelieving eyes, and he wagered no less different with this darkly garbed boy, contrasting to his white ceremonial garb. The Shepherd quirks his brow. 

To be overtly involved in the affairs of mortals or seraphim was a distance he had to tread between; creasing the fate and weight of the world further into a groove between his shoulder blades. Creating a chasm in his white lit heart of pure loneliness that despite wishing to give to taint, malevolence and despair, clung to the hope of fruition.

 Such was the duty and necessity of the ‘Shepherd’ but not of ‘Sorey’ who had to remain neutral even when his heart cried out, for if his light went out, there would be no second chances. 

 But thinking of death seemed strange for now; he had comrades, family waiting for him when this was over….all kinds of things. That’s why he didn’t have his mortality he supposed, on the forefront.

❝ I..guess I haven’t really thought about it. My own death and all. Maybe you have a point..I mean you want to choose how you go, right? I guess all I can say is I hope you don’t forget how you’re doing right now. Even our conversation as strangers was interesting! You know? 

It took me a bit to understand but…aren’t you really saying you just want the freedom to choose how you go? 

Then…well, I think I can understand you. Death’s something I’ll have to think about at one point, or whatever kind of existence ending thing happens to me when I get older – I dunno!❞ 

You will never be any older than you are now or will you, will you, will you ever? 

❝ Either way…I guess all I can tell you is good luck. Not with uh, dying soon or anything, I can’t get behind that, I hope you live a good, long life before you leave behind stuff people could talk about!

But I’m sure if you’re passionate about dying, you’re passionate in your own way about living your own way too! I don’t really think it’s my place to judge you for that, just….be careful, yeah? There’s only one of you. ❞ 

The concern flits to a somber understanding a mirror second in verdant green before Sorey offers a cheery smile regardless. Nodding once and shifting his head to fully flash that calm but gentle smile.

 He sure hoped this guy was going to be alright…forcing him to have the same zest for life that he did…well, that wasn’t something he could do. That wasn’t reality. 

All he could do was wish him in his heart, the utmost. ( So, you, gentle Shepherd, wished him well with all your heart. )

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May these weary bones find peaceful rest.

Teaser images for P5 AU fanfic cover art!

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rp sentence starters taken from rupi kaur’s work , the sun and her flowers.

“ my heart cracked inside my body. ” “ no one is coming in and no one is getting out. ” “ i deserved someone who was willing to stay.” “ a dozen different thoughts tear through me each second. ” “ i envy the winds who still witness you. ” “ i could be anything in the world. ” “ but i wanted to be his. ” “ what does love look like? ” “ i realized how naive i have been. ” “ i’m about to get up and walk right out the door. ” “ you cannot walk in and out of me like a revolving door. ” “ you took the sun with you when you left. ” “ when you plunged the knife into me you also began bleeding. ” “ you will suffer the way you make me suffer. ” “ i think my body knew you would not stay. ” “ your absence is a missing limb. ” “ it must be hard to live with what ifs. ” “ how did we live through it and how are we still living? ” “ i can tell when you’re lying. ” “ the person i fell in love with was a mirage. ” “ i notice everything i do not have. ” “ i hardened under the last loss. ” “ all i dream is to soften. ” “ i barely feel like living. ” “ why are you so unkind to me? ” “ you are waiting for someone who is not coming back. ” “ i was the warmest place you knew. ” “ you turned me cold. ” “ the irony of loneliness is we all feel it at the same time. ” “ you must see no worth in yourself. ” “ worth is not something we transfer. ” “ growth is a process. ” “ your actions are not my responsibility. ” “ it’s okay to let others help pick up the pieces. ” “ i do not weep because i’m unhappy. ” “ i have everything and yet i am unhappy. ” “ nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you. ” “ all you own is yourself. ” “ you have already rotted. ” “ there is nothing left for me to do. ” “ what if nothing wants me because i do not want me? ” “ i am both the poison and the antidote. ” “ i have survived far too much to go quietly. ” “ my death will be grand. ” “ all i’ve ever known is pain. ” “ never feel guilty for starting again. ” “ i am the ghost of ghosts. ” “ there is god in you. ”  

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I’m going to put this in my rules but

I’M NOT AN EXPECTANT RP’ER

If I like your starter call, send you a meme, or reply to a thread, and you don’t respond to it, I honestly don’t mind. I never expect anything from anyone, and I’m never demanding with RP’ing. It dosn’t matter if we talk every day, are really good friends, or if we talk occasionally/not at all, I never expect anything from anyone ! This is your hobby, your escape, and your relaxation, don’t stress yourself thinking “ Oh god I haven’t replied/haven’t made a starter/haven’t posted her meme, she must think I’m ignoring her ” I’m not thinking that at all !! Seriously !!

Friend, acquaintance, or mutual, don’t pressure yourself thinking I’ll be bitching about it, I won’t. I don’t mind, and it’s not hurt my feelings. You do you ♥

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Sorey Sama?

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rp sentence starters taken from rupi kaur’s work , the sun and her flowers.

“ my heart cracked inside my body. ” “ no one is coming in and no one is getting out. ” “ i deserved someone who was willing to stay.” “ a dozen different thoughts tear through me each second. ” “ i envy the winds who still witness you. ” “ i could be anything in the world. ” “ but i wanted to be his. ” “ what does love look like? ” “ i realized how naive i have been. ” “ i’m about to get up and walk right out the door. ” “ you cannot walk in and out of me like a revolving door. ” “ you took the sun with you when you left. ” “ when you plunged the knife into me you also began bleeding. ” “ you will suffer the way you make me suffer. ” “ i think my body knew you would not stay. ” “ your absence is a missing limb. ” “ it must be hard to live with what ifs. ” “ how did we live through it and how are we still living? ” “ i can tell when you’re lying. ” “ the person i fell in love with was a mirage. ” “ i notice everything i do not have. ” “ i hardened under the last loss. ” “ all i dream is to soften. ” “ i barely feel like living. ” “ why are you so unkind to me? ” “ you are waiting for someone who is not coming back. ” “ i was the warmest place you knew. ” “ you turned me cold. ” “ the irony of loneliness is we all feel it at the same time. ” “ you must see no worth in yourself. ” “ worth is not something we transfer. ” “ growth is a process. ” “ your actions are not my responsibility. ” “ it’s okay to let others help pick up the pieces. ” “ i do not weep because i’m unhappy. ” “ i have everything and yet i am unhappy. ” “ nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you. ” “ all you own is yourself. ” “ you have already rotted. ” “ there is nothing left for me to do. ” “ what if nothing wants me because i do not want me? ” “ i am both the poison and the antidote. ” “ i have survived far too much to go quietly. ” “ my death will be grand. ” “ all i’ve ever known is pain. ” “ never feel guilty for starting again. ” “ i am the ghost of ghosts. ” “ there is god in you. ”  

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my face as i do lefay, shrine of the water trial...  where one misstep has you at the beginning...

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starters  /  prompts taken from hieu minh nguyen’s work ,  not here .  feel free to change pronouns  /  tenses as necessary .

  ❛  it seems important to mention all the things that went wrong  ❜

  ❛  don’t ask if i’m a ghost  ❜

  ❛  i fled and did not return  ❜

  ❛  i cannot love you  ,  if i love you  ,  i will die  ❜

  ❛  for years i chose death  ❜

  ❛  i belong to my mother’s fear  ❜

  ❛  what do you do with tenderness when all you expect is fury ?  ❜

  ❛  he looks like he will keep you safe  ❜

  ❛  any love i find will be treason  ❜

  ❛  why did you bring me here ?  ❜

  ❛  i count the hornets that escape their mouths  ❜

  ❛  i only ask for your laughter  ❜

  ❛  look at me in the old way in this new light  ❜

  ❛  sometimes i wake up and my body does not follow  ❜

  ❛  it wasn’t the same without you  ❜

  ❛  i’m still trying to figure out what it means to stay  ❜

  ❛  it’s all very predictable  ❜

  ❛  how can i love something that isn’t ruined ?  ❜

  ❛  like all agony  ,  there are pleasant moments  ❜

  ❛  i want to be better at lying  ❜

  ❛  i’m afraid if i say it out loud i will cast a curse  ❜

  ❛  some men don’t know they’re hungry until they eat  ❜

  ❛  some spells take years to cast  ❜

  ❛  there are rules you have to follow if you want to survive  ❜

  ❛  i know you’re not supposed to smile back  ❜

  ❛  madness  ,  too  ,  can be cumulative  ❜

  ❛  trying to forget is not the same as leaving  ❜

  ❛  i really should get a sense of humor  ❜

  ❛  i understand no one  ❜

  ❛  i cannot stop him from disappearing  ❜

  ❛  her body was a dress i hung for motivation  ❜

  ❛  you were once and perhaps continue to be the myth you tell to scare yourself  ❜

  ❛  there are countless ways to justify company  ❜

  ❛  you are predictable in your longing  ❜

  ❛  i don’t want to explain a thing  ❜

  ❛  i knew if i just asked him to leave he would have  ❜

  ❛  there are countless ways to open a carcass  ❜

  ❛  all i’ve ever wanted to be was useful  ❜

  ❛  there’s still time to be saved  ❜

  ❛  shut up  ;  i know the story  ,  or at least the lesson  ❜

  ❛  you wont find it  ;  you won’t find whatever you’re looking for  ❜

  ❛  i could get away with being clumsy with knives  ❜

  ❛  i want to study the mechanics of leaving  ❜

  ❛  any adjective can be true if you cry hard enough  ❜

  ❛  i see little futures in the distance but none belong  ❜

  ❛  i am beginning to forget what i expect from the world i always knew  ❜

  ❛  you can’t think of regret as a town you move too when grief snores too loud  ❜

  ❛  in death we belong to everyone  ❜

  ❛  i want to return to my old body  ❜

  ❛  i think the life i want is the life i have  ,  but how can i be sure ?  ❜

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watch me make a verse listen ,,,, who would do this with me --- who will give sorey a blue feather + get 1000+ FP.... the only way to romance him forget pendants etc, is a feather bc feather aesthetics is the way 2 love. heck just have him as your vibrant best pal who is a brainiac in all things history / ruins / historical sites / eras and periods / culture study.

Your muse but in a farming game ! I’m talking about Rune Factory or Harvest Moon / Story of Seasons! Or Stardew Valley! How pure and wholesome. 

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i contemplated the sun’s yolk on my window sill. it entered my room rather rudely, hitting the right lens of my glasses so that i was momentarily blinded. in my blindness, i realized that i, too, could touch the heavens with a crimson-laden finger. and why not? i’ve spent my whole life gambling with luck as my opponent, the cruel ace smiling gleefully down at me.

no more. i’m the joker in your card deck; fate is my weapon.

joker / akira kurusu / ren amamiya of persona 5 thieved by ren. ind. heavily sel. priv. oc + crossover friendly.