mattiealou

[mattiealou]

hi~ i’m alive. i would really like to make some friends on here again and i don’t usually do this thing, but i’m desperate and bored. so like or whatever if you’re a multi, i don’t really care what groups you like because i myself have lost count. my ults are stray kids, day6, the boyz, pentagon, jamie park, and nct. umm yeah okay, ttyl.

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umm i’ve had a week.. first hwall take care of yourself and your mental health, you will be missed with the boyz, but deobi has your back and will support you ❤️. second woojin stays love you, take care of yourself, and chan do not blame yourself and take care of yourself ❤️. third my mom has been yelling at me for the past few days and i’ve become very depressed and numb, i haven’t cried since hwall left the boyz even though i’ve had reason to. fourth gannie(my stepgrandma) you will be missed, thank you for accepting my mom, sisters, and i into your family, RIP ❤️. i’m gonna disappear off this app for a bit(only answering some dms), but mental health update first. i’ve been very very stressed and depressed and want to die and i’m trying my best not to self harm, i’m so sorry, i don’t know who i’m apologizing to or why, but it feels right.

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ah hello it’s been so long my dear friends. i haven’t gone on tumblr much in the past year and i’m very busy with both work and school. i am here to say that i miss woojin and i want to know he’s okay and everything’s okay. i hope stray kids are doing okay and are healthy. i hope bang chan doesn’t put the blame on himself and he takes some rest for himself. i hope that all stays(new and old) are doing okay, we can talk if you need to sweets. drink some water, eat something, stretch a little maybe, go to sleep if it’s early, study or do homework. anyways it’s 1am and i have to work with my first graders tomorrow morning so goodnight.

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anger in a tiny human, he’s gonna explode

Who is this? (wrong answers only)

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race, confident: the woild is yer erster !

newsies:

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jisoo x blackpink

• don’t repost without asking me

• like/reblog if you save/use

request open

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Reblog if you’re a calm kinda k-pop/k-music fan who thinks the amount of drama in these fandoms is excessive. Like, let’s tone down the hate and competition, we’re all here to have a good time. We can enjoy our faves without needing to start fanwars or petty arguments, we can agree to disagree on things. Let’s not be such cutthroats.

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Seungkwan: I’m gay.

Jun: I’m upset.

DK: I’m tired.

Wonwoo: And I’m all the above, get over yourselves.

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jaehyuk x gold

request open

• don’t repost without asking me

• like/reblog if you save/use

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… dont watch yg treasure box

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The Kpop Rules of 2019 (Cause I’ve had enough)

No more fan wars! Periodt.

We aren’t crying if our idols start dating, heck we’ll be their biggest supporters this year!

Somebody gained weight? Okay we still stan.

Somebody is tired and takes a hiatus? Cool…we still stan!

Someone in the group gets a bigger spotlight than our bias? We WON’T take out our frustration on them.

They go live on VLive? We aren’t asking about anyone else unless they pop up on screen too.

We’re embracing new fans and taking them under our wings.

We will still stream but we won’t be annoying about it. (Less annoying)

You don’t like girl groups? That’s fine with me.

You don’t like boy groups? Do you, I ain’t mad at u.

“Cute concepts are annoyin-” Next…you don’t have to announce it.

“Dark concepts are over don-” Stop, thank you for your input, but we didn’t need it.

If we don’t agree with an idols beliefs we won’t shame them because we realize we were raised differently.

We’ll forgive idols who fail us, because they are human too and we all make mistakes.

We won’t support unfair practices or abusive companies.

We won’t ship members that don’t like it.

We will allow our idols to age and mature, and not be trapped in a box.

We aren’t going to stalk anyone, or release their personal information.

We aren’t going to try and glamorize any tragedies and will be as respectful as possible.

We’re going to be proud of how far our groups have come and recognize how hard they work.

We’re going to cheer for the ones who win!

We’re going to cheer for the ones who lose!

We will learn Korean if we want to, and won’t be labeled a Koreaboo.

We won’t learn anything if that’s our heart’s desire, and just enjoy the music and feel no judgement.

We will let our idols leave their groups and do what they want to do.

We will embrace new members and not reject them.

We are going to support each other just as much as we support our idols.

We are going to be positive and encouraging.

We will stand by idols struggling with their identity and mental health.

We will applaud those who stand up and bring change for the better.

We will unite and erase the negativity because all of our groups spread love and we will finally spread it right back.

We won’t just be a fandom…We’ll be a family and we’ll keep working to make Kpop reach even greater heights than it did this past year!

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“cause i miss ya…… to damn much!!” 

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PASS THIS ON.

The first transgender suicide hotline is now up and running in the U.S. You can reach Trans Lifeline at 877-565-8860.

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*literally thinks a second about a character’s death scene*

Me:

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*also raises hand*

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Tag

@eliboubou1 tagged me

Bold everything that apply to you:

I am in college/university 

I’ve graduated college/university

I am in high school

I like my job

I’ve never had a job

I am shorter than 5’5

I’ve worked a job I hated

I wear glasses

I have a tattoo

I have more than one tattoo

I don’t have tattoos but I want some

I’m vegetarian

I have allergies

I’m sarcastic

I’m self-conscious about my body

I’m shy

I’ve been called over-emotional

I have a strange sense of humor

I wear a piece of jewelry at all times(i wear earrings, always)

I’m atheist

I have red hair

I have blonde hair

I dye my hair regularly

I am an only child

I have more than three siblings

I have a niece

I have a nephew

I couldn’t choose a favorite song

I’ve failed a class

I can speak two or more languages

I can play an instrument

I’ve hugged someone in the last 24 hours

I’ve kissed someone in the last 24 hours

I have a best friend

I’ve known my best friend for more than 10 years

I have met a friend from the internet

I’ve kissed someone of the same sex

I’ve had sex in the past month

I’m in/have been in a long distance relationship

I’ve had a one night stand

I’ve been dumped more than I’ve dumped someone

I’ve cheated on someone

I’ve met someone famous 

I’ve broken a bone(does 10 fractures in my foot count??)

I’ve spent more than six hours straight online

I’ve been out of my home country

I have friends who are married

I have friends who have children of their own

I have been in a wedding party

I’ve ridden in a limousine

I am a morning person

I am a night owl

I like anime(I don’t watch it much)

I like Disney movies

I like comedies more than action films

I like action films more than comedies

I always order dessert

I can’t cook

I enjoy puns

I enjoy being alone

I read for pleasure

I don’t play video games

I believe in ghosts 

I believe in aliens

I enjoy conspiracy theories

I’ve been somewhere considered ‘haunted’

I’ve stayed up all night for no reason

I can’t keep secrets

I’ve had a Skype call with more than four people

I’m good with children

I’ve cheated on a test

I’ve watched an entire season of something in one day

I am wearing something green right now

I am wearing something yellow right now

I am wearing something purple right now

I’ve never tried alcohol

I’ve had alcohol while underage

I’ve played a drinking game 

I’m scared of snakes

I’m scared of heights

I’m scared of clowns

I’m scared of spiders(I’m a scaredy cat ok)

I collect stamps

I collect comic books

I keep old bus/train tickets

I don’t know the words to my national anthem

I have more than three key rings on my keys 

I’ve had my hair cut in the past month

I’ve cosplayed

I can’t swallow pills

I miss someone right now

I don’t have people to tag

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Elements tag game

@eliboubou1 tagged me

RULES: BOLD the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, and tag 9 people!

AIR:

• I have small hands

• I love the night sky

• I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by

• I drink herbal tea

• I wake to see dawn

• the smell of dust is comforting

• I’m valued for being wise

• I prefer books to music

• I meditate

• I find joy in learning new truths around me

FIRE:

• I don’t have straight hair

• I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls

• I play an organized sport

• I love dogs

• I am not afraid of adventure

• I love to talk to strangers

• I always try new foods

• I enjoy road trips

• summer is my favorite season

• my radio is always playing

WATER:

• I wear bracelets on my wrists (and hair ties)

• I love the bustle of the city

• I have more than one set of piercings

• I read poetry

• I love the sound of a thunderstorm

• I want to travel the world

• I stay awake past midnight most days

• I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs

• I re-watch kids’ shows out of nostalgia

• I see emotions in color, not words

EARTH:

• I wear glasses

• I enjoy doing the laundry

• I am a vegetarian or vegan

• I have an excellent sense of time

• my humor is very cheerful

• I am a valued adviser to my friends

• I believe in true love

• I love the chill of mountain air

• I’m always listening to music

• I am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER:

• I go without makeup in my daily life

• I make my own artwork

• I keep on track of my tasks and time

• I always know true north

• I see beauty in everything

• I can always smell flowers

• I smile at everyone I pass by

• I always fear history repeating itself

• I have recovered from a mental disorder

• I can love unconditionally

I don’t have nine people to tag