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i love u bed, i love u pillows, i love u stuffed animals, i love u sleeping and wrapping urself up like ur a buritto, i just love going to bed okay i love it so so much

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Buck definitely doesn't know how good Eddie was at illegal street fighting or that conversation would have been like "he wasn't just a street fighter he was a champion street fighter. he was the best at it. he made a ton of money."

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You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won't tell you he loves you, but he loves you.

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Imagine loving a guy so much you almost kill yourself to find his baby boy in a tsunami, you claw at the earth when you think you've lost him forever, you crawl under a fire truck to drag his bleeding body to safety with an actual sniper shooting your way, you accept the fact he put you down as his boy's legal guardian in case he dies with barely a protest, you agonise when he quits being your job partner, you take said son to the zoo all the time, you get jealous like a dog pissing on a tree when he has a new friend, you're there when he begs you to fix something you can't fix and you can only hold on to his shoulder to try and shoot the pain, you go to him the second some ugly man dumps you, you throw a hissy fit about him leaving to Texas and sabotage his house showing, and then, you cave. You cave and you give up your housing situation to help him, you move into his house and you let him go. You let him go because you love him that much.

And he looks at you like you set his world on fire and built it back anew, and you hope he looks through the rearview as he drives away, hoping he'll miss you half as much as you'll miss him.

He will. You were struck by the same lightning, you'll forever share a heartbeat.

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this is the first time they’ve ever explicitly, seriously acknowledged that people believe buck has romantic feelings for eddie. not only does his ex think this, but also, most damningly, his own sister also wondered!!! the person he confides in the most, goes to for life advice. maddie thinks it’s not a crazy idea. it’s plausible.

then, the insane line: “i don't want to sleep with everyone i have feelings for, and i don't have feelings for everyone i sleep with”. which shows so clearly the convoluted ways that buck deludes himself. his insistence of referring to eddie as “my straight best friend”. it’s such a coping mechanism. when you strip away eddie’s alleged heterosexuality and distance, does this argument still apply? does it still hold weight? what happens when both those things aren’t true anymore? this episode really shows how buck represses and copes with his feelings. it’s the first time anyone has ever asked him to introspect and think about how he feels about eddie. of course it isn’t a feelings realization—we’re simply planting the seeds of one. we’re making buck, and the audience, think ponder this. now it’s out in the open that multiple people think buck could love eddie.

it’s safer this way. he can’t love eddie, because eddie is straight. he can’t love eddie, because eddie moved back to texas. he isn’t “hopelessly pining” for him, and maybe that’s true—only because buck hasn’t admitted to himself, at least not consciously, that he does wants eddie. this line of thought isn’t safe for his heart. these are fragile times. he’s holding on for dear life. but the people around him aren’t buying it. this is the crazy part. they’re writing it like no one buys the bullshit buck tells himself. i love it.

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Imagine already thinking you're the thing that gets everything you love killed and then your best friend confesses his romantic feelings for you and the act of saying "I love you" to you specifically is what gets him killed? Yeah I'd be sobbing in the corner too I'd never get back up actually

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listen I don't even need buck to hook up with a ton of people, I just need one person to come back to his place with him, hot and ready to go, and they're flirting, making out a little, and just moving through the house, and buck goes to make them a drink or smth while his date stays in the living room for a moment, and they look around themselves, take in the decor, and the pictures on the wall, and when buck comes back they've got their jacket back on and are on their way to the door going "oh my god, I can't do this" and buck's like "wait what?? what do you mean???" but his date just keeps walking, and only right after they've set foot outside, they turn to look him dead in the eye, a shaken yet pissed expression on their face, and go "I don't sleep with married men, okay?"

and then they slam the door in his face and buck's just standing there, staring into nothingness as his mind spins out of control like it never has before.

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hes ur “emotional support blorbo”??? girl he cant even emotionally support Himself

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Maddie got her throat slashed and still was able to get up them stairs and save her husband. JLH IS THEE FINAL GIRL IKDRRR

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idk but jared's posture here is giving big Save Sam Winchester energy and for that and that alone, this picture has rights.

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Doctor Odyssey is the best. Need to do an emergency amputation? Time to find the butch with the bandsaw.

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buddie + insane shots

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jenmish jenmishing ON MAIN in the year of our lord 2025??? more likely than you think

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Okay so now that everyone heard about the news lets ask the real question: will jensen and misha share an appartment again in Toronto?

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I feel destiel in this chilis tonight