mattrob1010

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Why I chose to blog

This past six months have been really challenging for a lot of different people for a lot of different reasons and I am no different.  I have two sons Lucas and Braxton and Lucas is 3 yrs old and Braxton is 10 months old.  We recently found out a few months ago that Lucas our 3 yr old was diagnosed with autism.  Its been really challenging.  As a parent and father you want the best for your children.  Its really hard emotionally and mentally to see your son struggle in some areas.  What is awesome is to see his successes and the growth.  So rewarding to see your son sing Jesus Loves me and to know no matter what this world tries  to beat you up and bring you down that we are child’s of God and he has larger plan for our lives.  

Its been really hard not being regularly in church and having to watch it on live stream.  Without having nursery due to coronavirus spiritually its hard not getting to be around my church family and getting that support.  When you dont have something in your life that is such a big part you can feel the void.  I feel like its affected my relationship with Jesus and my mood as a whole.  

I think I have been in denial that Ive not allowed the circumstances and situation that God has put me not get me down and my wife brought it to my attention.  She let me know that she saw a difference in me.  And had to re-evaluate everything and look at it subjectively and feel like she was right.  I wrestled with what Ive been going through and felt like I needed to put my feelings to words and hope to inspire and help others that are going through some of the same challenges that we are going through.  Just so that people know they are not alone.  

Im working through this blog and my goal is to touch on subjects that fathers, husbands deal with in everyday life and struggle with and relate that to our Christian walk as well to be a better Christian father and husband and father figure to our children.  Fathers are so important and our Father’s love in heaven is so important too.  He loves his children so much.  Im so undeserving but in his eyes Im worth him sending his son to die on the cross for my sins and for that Im eternally grateful.  

Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;

Romans 12:12