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030 :: take her home.

lilydillyjames:

Lily knew that when she went into the hospital to have Rosie, she couldn’t stay there forever under the watchful care of doctors and nurses who could tell her everything to do and make sure she was making no mistakes, but when she was actually told she could take her home, it still came as a surprise. Being allowed to take a newborn home without a manual or supervision just seemed irresponsible but after asking the doctor several times if they were sure she was allowed, it was clear there was no choice but to vacate her bed and get Rosie ready to take back to the flat. The whole thing was daunting, she was still finding it hard to believe the baby actually existed and they were responsible for her, so to actually be getting her dressed and packing up their bags to take her home just seemed even more bizarre. It must have been even more scary for Matt who’d had to borrow his parents car to drive them all home with the car seat Lynne had installed for all the times she was planning to baby sit. Even carrying Rosie was nerve wracking enough, she couldn’t imagine how it’d feel having to be in charge of the car driving her too.

By the time Matt returned to the hospital room after collecting the car, Lily had just about mastered the poppers of Rosie’s onesie and with her safely laid in the center of the hospital bed, she’d turned to re-packing the baby bag to make sure they didn’t leave anything behind. “I didn’t break her.” She smiled proudly. In reality he’d barely been gone long enough for her to be able to actually do any damage to their daughter but she was so new, anything was possible. “I did ask again if we really had to go home though. I even asked if the midwife could come live with us if I gave her tea and biscuits every hour….she still said no.” Lily huffed, shaking her head as if it were really out of order. “Is everything ready to go? Did you check the seat to make sure it’s okay?” She asked as she stuffed the nappies into the bag before taking them out again to check she’d packed the cream and powder underneath it. 

After the stress and toil of the last nine months, especially over the last 24 hours, being in the hospital for less than a day seemed far too little time to get to grips with handling a real-life human baby. Naturally, if they were old enough to make one, they were old enough to raise one, but the notion of being solely responsible for Rosie’s wellbeing as soon as they left the hospital grounds was sickeningly scary. It broke his heart to have to leave his girls behind to collect the car though, and he held on for as long as realistically possible before he disappeared to head back to his childhood home. A lot had changed within the space of a year, but he climbed into the car with a soft sigh, not wanting to sit and dwell on the fact too much -- not when he had a newborn baby girl waiting for him to come back and taxi her back to her own new home. Thankfully, he had enough loose change hanging about in his various pockets to pay for the hospital parking, and once he had his ticket clearly displayed in the window, he made his way back up to Lily’s room, hoping they hadn’t been kicked out in the meantime to make way for another new mum.  As sad as he’d been to leave them, Lily was probably terrified to be left on her own with Rosie too, so he kicked up a bit of a jog down the corridors until he found them again right where he left them.

“Proud of you,” Matt grinned at her greeting, stepping into the room and over to the bed to lean over Rosie’s tiny form. “Hello my princess angel,” he whispered, cooing softly as he slid his hands beneath her to lift her up for a cuddle. Chuckling at Lily’s words, he shook his head at her apparent plan. “Like we have enough biscuits for those sorts of wages anyway. We’re all alone, aren’t we, bub?” he mentioned, as though he expected Rosie to come out with a full-fledged sentence of response. Instead, all she did was stare blankly up at him from her place in his arms, and he gave her a playful grin until Lily stole his attention away again. Nodding in response, he glanced around to make sure she hadn’t left a outfit or a charger lying around, before meeting Lily’s gaze properly. “I think we’re good to go.. The seat’s fine, Mum gave me a guided tour and installation guide before she let me leave,” he teased, suddenly regretting not bringing the seat up with him given that they’d have to carry her, unprotected, back downstairs now. “Do you wanna carry the precious cargo or the bag?” he asked, quite content to keep his baby girl cuddled up for as long as possible.

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029 :: life’s rosie.

lilydillyjames

“I’m not ready to be a woman.” Lily sighed, aware of the irony of just having given birth to a baby and becoming a mum yet still feeling like a young girl with no life experience. It’d take some time to feel like a grown up, she was sure, even living in the flat and running a household had taken some getting used to and as mature as she’d started to feel over the last few months, it wasn’t enough to feel like a proper adult just yet. As much as she loved cuddling their new arrival already, it was a nice relief to get to hand her over with how exhausted she was feeling, especially for Matt to do the slightly messy job of winding her and she did have to admit that she’d take any opportunity she could get to watch them together. “It’s team work. I put it in, you deal with it coming out. Just how you put her in there and I had to get her out of me.” She grinned, proud of her point. Burping a baby wasn’t exactly rocket science but she could imagine how nervous Matt must have felt to be patting her even as lightly as he was because she felt on edge even having to be in charge of shifting her into his arms. They’d get used to the responsibility eventually she was sure but for the time being, Lily would continue to treat her as if she was the most precious china that could crack if handled anything other than delicately. “You didn’t expect her to have fingers and toes?” Her brows raised, wondering if she’d missed his meaning due to her foggy brain and as the question was bounced back in her direction she shrugged, inhaling deeply, enjoying the moment of peace. “I think I need a few more hours to get over the trauma but she’s definitely absolutely perfect.” She smiled sincerely, her heart fluttering as Rosie let out a small but perfect sounding burp that would stop her stomach from hurting for the rest of the evening. “Definitely sounds like you.” Lily teased, “I hope she gets at least one thing from me, she’s a total mini you.”

“We’ve already had to grow up loads up to now. We’ll be mature as a fine wine by the time she’s three,” Matt offered with a playful smile, just about managing his duck-above-water guise. Naturally, his heart was still hammering a mile a minute and the idea of being responsible for something as precious as their little girl was sickeningly scary, but just remaining in each individual moment seemed to be doing the job of keeping him calm up to now. The weight of Rosie against his shoulder was comforting too, the knowledge that she was warm and content and safe overruling any nerves he had lingering. Chuckling at Lily’s words, Matt just shook his head as he kept a gentle motion on their baby’s back with his free hand. Nappy duties would be horrific, but they’d have to deal with it at some point, and at least he’d have a couple of weeks off work to adjust and make sense of the new little life in their world. “Of course I did!” He squeaked at her questionable conclusion, meeting her gaze. “I just didn’t expect them to be so tiny and precious. Look at her nails, they’re barely there,” he whispered, glancing at one of the tiny little hands that had gripped onto the collar of his t-shirt instinctively. With Rosie announcing she’d been thoroughly winded with a burp, Matt grinned in boyish delight at what she could already achieve at this age. “Get lost. She’s you through and through, I’m gonna have people thinking I’m her step-dad with how much she looks like you,” he teased, pressing a kiss to Rosie’s hair and finally re-adjusting her to lay flat in his arms to help her off to sleep. “She’s got your little nose for definite, mine covers half my bloody face, so that’s already a point for you,” he smiled, glancing up again at Lily as he shifted to sit closer to her.

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Lily: because my body :(

Lily: I won’t go alone the taxi driver will be there 😀😀 ITS NOT SPENSIVE ITS CHEAP PRIMARK SHOE! Women have boobs if they’re not fat :( Put her outside for s second she’ll be fine ☺️

Matt: my baby juice :(

Matt: NO HE WILL KIDNAP YOU YOU’RE CUTE. Okay fine but don’t lose your shoes please. Yeah but men don’t :( I don’t have man titties. NOOOO she’s asleep it’s fine come home and do things to me.

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Lily: You didn’t ask my permission to plant her and I still love you and gave you her ok

Lily: ok I’ll find a taxi :D when I find my shoe :// MANBOOBS MINI MANBOOBS. I thought it’s what you were going to do :(

Matt: you didn’t ask my permission to grow her that was so rude

Matt: Be safe don’t go alone :( WHERE IS YOUR SHOE IT’S EXPENSIVE. Are you saying I’m a big fat boy :(((( I want to but you said I can’t have a boner when Rosie is in the flat 💔

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Lily: YOU WERE EAGER. But I did choose so :(

Lily: My head hurts though :( YOU HAVE BOOBS ITS THE SAME. Oh noooo don’t be in front of Rosie weeps

Matt: SO WERE YOU, YOU WERE GAGGING. Exactly because I gave you that choice so :((

Matt: come home let me smooch it better ❤️ I DON’T I HAVE SEXY PECS? broad and handsome. Don’t talk about my willy in your mouth then I can’t help it 😭

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029 :: life’s rosie.

lilydillyjames:

“Me or her?” Lily replied softly with a smile, already knowing the answer though. It was weird to know that Matt’s heart was now shared between her and Rosie and that she’d have to share his affections, however her heart was now the exact same too. “That’d do us a favor actually though, can we sell all the clothes we got and get a bigger flatscreen tv?” She grinned, fully preparing herself for a ton of new gifts and baby things from his parents now that she was actually in the world to dote over. As Rosie’s suckling slowed, Lily looked down to see if she was doing anything wrong, rolling her eyes playfully at Matt’s comment about the nurse. “You’re telling a very hormonal girl that just gave birth about someone fancying you? Is that wise?” She raised her brow, gently shifting their daughter off of her breast when she properly stopped feeding to carefully move her over to him without making her throw up all the milk she’d just drank. It was a bit of a relief that he was the one who wanted to burp her as she wasn’t sure she had the confidence to try and maneuver that just yet and once the weight of Rosie was passed over, she re-adjusted her top and leaned her head back against the pillow to just relax for a minute. Watching Matt and the baby together couldn’t help but make her smile, especially as he spoke to her and had Lily had the energy, she definitely would have gotten up to hunt down her phone to record the moment. “You’re doing the first nappy too. I hope you know that.” She grinned, only half joking. “Hope you still think she’s gorgeous then.” There was no doubt in her mind that he’d always find her the cutest thing alive, though a dirty nappy was probably more than enough to test the theory. “Is she what you imagined?” Lily asked out of curiosity, wondering if he’d pictured her any differently since all they had to go off of was a few grainy scans of her profile.

”You’re my woman now, she’s my girl,” Matt teased, quickly stifling any built-up emotion by clearing his throat as he approached them again. He felt miles too young and stupid to be responsible for something as precious as Rosie, but at the same time, the notion that they had to grow up and mature was nothing short of appealing for him. He liked the idea of their little family, even though they’d yet to deal with her screaming the roof down yet. Chuckling at Lily’s remark though, he shook his head fondly, sitting comfortably on the edge of her bed by her feet. “I don’t think we have enough for a nice TV. Maybe a TV license for iPlayer, if we’re lucky,” he laughed, reaching over to stroke Rosie’s cheek as she suckled. She gave a disdained grumble at the touch though, as though she were conscious of Matt stealing her dinner, but all he could do was grin as he retracted his hand again. “I thought it was wise. Flirty nurses all over me yet here I am, still at your beck and call,” he murmured playfully, but opted not to go any further than that loathe to really upset her. When Lily shifted to hand her over, Matt quickly slid his arms beneath hers to lift her gently, before slowly and surely shifting to rest Rosie against his shoulder. “But you put the milk in, you should clean the mess that comes out,” Matt grumbled, already dreading the state of her first nappy. With his hand soothing Rosie’s back, his gaze found Lily’s at her words, biting his lip as he thought. “More,” he murmured, dropping a kiss to her baby-soft head. “I didn’t expect her to be so tiny with all her little fingers and toes. She’s incredible,” he whispered. “What about you? Worth the trauma?” He quipped with a small smile, his voice naturally low as he waited for Rosie to make a sound that she was finished.

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Lily: You were too fertile! bUT I CHOSE TO GROW HER

Lily: I think all the time :( I need a break. AND MAGIC MILK PILLS OK GOOGLE IT! :D did I sext

Matt: I was casual, your womb was like GET IN ME. But you couldn’t choose that if I hadn’t put her there in the first place :(

Matt: Think better. THEY CAN’T WORK ON DUDES SURELY WE DON’T HAVE MILK BITS? Yes I’m hard now ugggghhhhh.

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Lily: You were too quick :( BUT I GREW HER AS A PRESENT FOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Lily: I forgot what we're talking about :/ omg its trueee how do yoy think women breastfeed when they dont carry the baby :o with your penis?

Matt: you were too fertile :( BUT I PUT HER THERE AS A PRESENT FOR YOU!!!!!!!

Matt: same stop drinking and start thinking. Use formula and powder mixes wtf!!! They don’t work on men surely?? hahahHhahhAHAHAHA?? Yes???

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Lily: You were too eager :( I love you most I made you a baby!

Lily: I can’t (:((((((((((( You can buy pills for that :D omg I’ll buy them all for you! Can’t prove it

Matt: You were too open :( I love you most I put her there!!!

Matt: Please tho :((( for me. Wtf pills for making my tits leak milk??? That’s a lie. I can I’m gonna breathalyse you when you get home >:)

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Lily: Too many long words :( I love talking to you I love you :3333

Lily: :’( I’m crying already. I’m busier!!!!!!! Not boozing ssh

Matt: “early uh-oh”? AHHH I love you too :D I love you the most.

Matt: NO that’s illegal stop crying :( Teach me how to pump milk out my nipples and then I can be even busier. Yes boozy Lily! 🍹🍸🍻🍷🥃

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Lily: NEVER SAY ACCIDENT!!!!!!! I am talking to youuuuu

Lily: You do snore dont mke me cry :( You doooo i'm just busy being mum now :(

Matt: “mistimed development”???? I know I love when you talk to me ❤️❤️

Matt: you snore louder but don’t cry in a club :( I’m busy being dad!! You’re out boozing >:)

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Lily: WE WEREN'T CONNECTED SHE WAS CONNECTED TO MEEEE. SHE FELT MY HEART....now i miss her weeeeeps

Lily: Your snoring wakes you up look in the mirror! I don't turn you on i pushed a baby out and i'm not snug anymore :(

Matt: I PUT HER IN YOU FFS by accident. Don’t you miss me too :(

Matt: no it doesn’t I don’t snore! You just honk away while you sleep. You turn me on all the time that’s why I’m sad I don’t make you horny anymore :(

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Lily: nOT THE SAME KIND OF ONE

Lily: Why are you watching me sleep 0_0 stalkerrrrrr. Rosie might read them!!

Matt: I was inside you before she was OK!!!!! I know you best :3

Matt: because your snoring wakes me up and I have to find the source of the TORMENT. She can’t read for ages yet why don’t I turn you on anymore :(

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Lily: Rosie knows me best we were ONE

Lily: You think it’s me but it’s you!! You not here to flirt with :(

Matt: me and you were one beforehand to make her 😭

Matt: IT ISN’T, I’ve woken up to watch you snore yourself silly. Sext me anyway so I feel wanted :(

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Lily: You don’t know who I talk to!

Lily: I don’t snore, YOU snore! How do you know I’m not horny hnmmm?

Matt: Doesn’t matter I still know you best :(

Matt: You RATTLE with your snoring. Because you haven’t flirted with me once yet!!!!

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029 :: life’s rosie.

lilydillyjames:

Lily didn’t even remember dozing off but when she eventually opened her eyes back up and was greeted by the sight of Rosie and Matt, she was happy to realize the whole thing hadn’t been a dream. As tired and uncomfortable as she was, she knew learning to feed was important and so she did her best to listen and focus as the nurses talked her through it while the new dad disappeared back to his parents for a bit. Not having the added pressure of Matt looking at her helped ease her into it but the whole process was completely bizarre and not at all how she expected it to feel or be. Rosie made a bit of a fuss before she actually latched on properly and it did take all of the energy Lily had left in her body to not immaturely chuckle at how weird it felt to have something suckling at her boob. Once the nurse had talked her through how to know when she was satisfied and the lecture about swapping sides and making sure to wind her, she was content to leave them both in peace to enjoy their first nursing experience and Lily couldn’t help but sigh contently at the peace and quiet of the room after the amount of fuss she’d had around her all afternoon and evening. It was a slight insight into what their coming days and weeks would be like together, especially when Matt went back to work but it didn’t feel awful, it felt comfortable and just right. 

By the time Matt returned back to the room, Lily had properly settled into her first round of nursing and had her finger lightly brushing over Rosie’s cheek as she suckled herself to sleep, grunting and groaning. “She definitely has your appetite.” She joked, rolling her eyes. “I have a feeling all our newborn clothes are going to be proper small, really quickly.” Babies grew fast, she knew that, however she did regret buying the tiny sizes now she’d birthed such a healthy sized baby. “Have your parents gone home?” She asked, unsure if they were still hanging around downstairs for another glimpse or for Lily to go down and see them. “They told me we could go soon, I tried to cry and beg them to let us stay here forever so we always have supervision but they didn’t seem keen. I think she’s actually our responsibility now.” She smiled, shaking her head as she looked down at Rosie, wondering what they’d gotten themselves into and how they were going to cope.

It warmed his heart to see Lily catching up on some sleep after their trauma, and if he hadn’t promised to return sooner rather than later, he’d probably have left her to doze soundly. She’d have to learn to feed Rosie soon though, and with their baby becoming a little bit fussy as he returned to the room, it was probably time to wake her up anyway. As daunting as it was, Matt knew he’d be absolutely no help with helping the two leading ladies in his life, and so leaving them in the capable hands of the nurses and midwife seemed a better use of his time. His parents, obviously knowing the stresses and strains of having a baby, seemed keen not to intrude too much; he’d have been happy to have them around for the rest of the day for support, but he couldn’t deny that the chance to just soak it all in with Lily was just as appealing for right now. Waving them goodbye at the main doors, he stopped on the way back upstairs to help himself to an energy drink from the vending machines, and sipped it on his way back to his girls.

The sight of Rosie contently nursing made his heart swell, and he couldn’t help his mouth falling into an adoring pout. “That’s my girl,” he whispered, clearing his throat when his voice jumped at the sudden emotion, and he exhaled slowly as he joined them both at Lily’ s bedside again. He chuckled at her comment though, nodding in agreement, and letting his finger stroke across Rosie’s balled-up little fist. “I have no doubt. I think Nana Smith has bought her outfits in every size right up until she’s 30 though, so I wouldn’t panic just yet,” he teased, meeting her gaze. “Yeah. They’ll be back in the morning unless we need anything. I think the nurse fancies me so I reckon I can swindle an overnight stay for you at least,” he smirked, giving her a knowing look before his gaze re-settled on Rosie. When their daughter seemingly gave up on feeding with a belly-full of milk for the first time in her life, Matt held his hands out to take her, happy to wind her so Lily could focus on relaxing again. “Aren’t you gorgeous?” he murmured playfully as he took her carefully from her mum’s arms, giving her a gentle coo and fuss before settling her against his shoulder to rub her back, but took a seat on the edge of the bed so she wasn’t too far away from Lily.

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Lily: Yuo don’t know taahtttttttttt

Lily: if seh snores lfike you they arenx’t quiet!!!! Nodeinks :)

Matt: I do I know you better than ANYONE.

Matt: SHE SNORES LIKE YOU ok. Well it’s not tequila because that makes you horny soooo gin? Vodka?