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something i've noticed that has become really annoying in the past 10 years or so is this fad of what i've been calling, for lack of a better word, "structural whataboutism." it's that thing where, when faced with a concrete, resolvable problem in your community, your answer is to blame it on a vast, unsolvable issue of structural inequality and then throw up your hands. "there's trash all over the ground in this corner of the park" becomes "well, that's where MEN OF COLOR congregate after their 12-HOUR GRAVEYARD SHIFTS and i'm not going to support a CARCERAL SOLUTION to a CAPITALISTIC PROBLEM. WE NEED TO ELIMINATE POVERTY AND THE SUBJUGATION OF THE WORKING CLASS" and it's like okay but sis. someone still has to go pick up the trash. we don't need a carceral solution, we need more trash cans. you're not going to eliminate poverty and the subjugation of the working class and even if ya did, there would still be trash on the ground. how any of this passes for radicalism within their peer groups i simply don't understand. it's radical laziness more than anything else

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Greater Blue-eared Glossy-starling (Lamprotornis chalybaeus), family Sturnidae, Kruger National Park, South Africa

photograph by PanWoyteczek

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does anyone have that quote that goes something like 'white germans under the nazis lived just fine as long as they were loyal to the state, gave their children to the army, and paid their taxes, and in this sense many americans would be comfortable living under fascism' trying to find who said it but google is giving me jack shit

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go queen ‼️‼️ so proud of you ‼️‼️this is genuinely hard ass work and you're doing great!!!!!!

As of today I’ve lost 25 pounds since I began my weight loss efforts in mid February and I feel fan-fucking-tastic.

I’ve been swimming a lot since my complex has an indoor pool and I’ve been trying to eat better; calorie counting+food logging has been really helpful for making different decisions about what to eat because as someone with ADHD it’s easier to conceptualize hard number values over abstract ideas about what’s more nutritious (especially because sometimes things that are marketed as health food aren’t actually different from normal food). The app I use also shows you macros like fat, carbs, protein, etc and gives you a daily budget for those as well so it’s made it easier to cut back on sugar and up my protein intake.

But probably the most impactful thing I’ve done is get on a GLP-1. I cannot stress enough how much of a difference it has made. I have insulin resistance and am pre-diabetic, so without a GLP-1 it was very difficult to successfully lose the weight because my body wasn’t regulating my appetite and hunger correctly. I would eat a huge amount of food and feel hungry again in a few hours. Sometimes I would feel like…shakes and dizziness and haven’t-eaten-all-day levels of hungry when I’d only had lunch a couple hours ago. Which, now that I think about it, that might’ve been a blood sugar thing? Because of the insulin resistance?

But the point is that my appetite was insane and out of whack and now that I’m on the injections I’m realizing how bad it was. I’m at the point now where I’m a little concerned that my appetite is being suppressed, but that’s another reason the food logging is helpful—having a number value also helps me see when I haven’t eaten enough in a given day.

25 pounds is the most I’ve ever lost in all the attempts I’ve made in my life and I feel so good. I feel physically better between the injections and getting more exercise (my posture and gait have improved SO much). I feel happy that I’m getting trimmer and some of my smaller clothes are starting to fit me again; I’m going to be over the moon when I can consistently fit an XL again instead of a 2XL.

And I feel validated too. I’ve tried losing weight unsuccessfully for years and I thought it was just lack of willpower when really it was ADHD and my body not working properly. I feel validated knowing I just needed the right medication to help me reach the goals I was aiming for. I’ve been on my journey of self reflection and acceptance and while I know that weight and size are morally neutral, I’m still not satisfied with where mine are at. Which I think is something that needs to be accepted in the body positivity conversation—people can love and accept their bodies and still want to make them smaller. The focus should be to help them do it healthily.

I’m excited to see where I end up by the end of the year. I’m so pleased with my current results and I’m hopeful for the future.

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what are we even saying anymore

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One thing that has made me a much more well-adjusted person is a clip I once saw of Hank Green saying that anyone can be in amazing shape as long as being in amazing shape is one of their top three priorities.

(This is obviously a generalization that isn't true for everyone. But it is true for most people and I'm proceeding from there.)

This "top three priorities" framing has genuinely reduced my tendency toward jealousy and self-comparison a lot. Now when I feel envious of someone’s spotless, aesthetic home, I think to myself, “Having a spotless, aesthetic home is probably one of their top three priorities. It’s definitely not one of mine, so I shouldn’t expect my home to look like that.”

Or when I see an influencer with a body that takes a ton of work to maintain: “Maintaining that body is obviously one of her top three priorities, because it’s her livelihood. My livelihood is my brain, so I’m never going to prioritize my body like that.”

It also helps me to identify areas that I actually DO want to prioritize more. I realized in recent years that my envy for my friends who prioritized writing more than I did was NOT going away, so I started to prioritize writing more. (Not top three, but higher priority than it has been in the past.)

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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"autistic people need instructions for every simple task" okay how about we talk about the neurotypicals not following clear instructions. what do you mean it didn't work the way you wanted, i gave you the instructions. oh you didn't follow them? you didn't see where i clearly indicated the directions you were supposed to follow for this task? and you're shocked it didn't turn out right? you decided to pull a Jared I'm 19 and go rogue? you're surprised the road less travelled isn't fucking paved because no one travels it? do you get off on this

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I got another photo with Giancarlo Esposito and the conversation went like this

me: hey 10 years ago I got a photo of you pretending a banana was a gun, do you remember me?

Giancarlo: of course I remember you

me: shit you’re a good actor

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i got this photo with gus from breaking bad and the conversation went like this

me: “hey can you pretend this banana I found outside is a gun?” him: “it is a gun” me: “shit you’re a good actor”

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I want to [remembers that suicide jokes only further damage my mental health] fuck you like an animal

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when god closes a door you reach your little paws under it and go mrrwwaaaooow mmreeaaow

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where in the HELL did that horse come from

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Anyway dni if you still support Cain, he hit his brother over the head with a fucking rock and it killed him instantly (source). I truly do not know how he still has fans. It astounds me how people can call themselves good people and still be completely fine platforming blatantly Abelist assholes like him. Smh

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Jonathan Harker is so madly in love with his genius wife he is canonically willing to damn his soul to hell just so she'll have someone to hang out with and if you don't think that's the pinnacle of romance then get the fuck out of my face