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[mawrko]

type shit

what a mother does for you out of obligation vs what a mother does for you because she wants to. the taste of a cup of coffee made from obligation vs. the taste of a cup of coffee made. did you raise me because you wanted to or did you raise me because you had to, because i was in your home and you thought, i have to put food in every mouth under this roof. did you look at me with love or did you look at me. did you ever look at me? did you ever see me? did you want to? do you want to still? if i asked you to love me would you laugh? would you ask me why? would you tell me to not ask such stupid questions? would you go to bed and wonder to yourself, why does she think i don't love her? i've done everything for her i've bathed her i've clothed her i've fed her i kept a roof over her head. isn't that love? do you even know? do you know what love looks like? did your mother love you? did she make you coffee? can you tell me what it tasted like?

[mawrko]

hes so pathetic i wish i could put him in a bottle

[mawrko]

My mom would rlly looked at my autism and decided that provoking me into anger and overstimulating was a good idea and had the audacity to act like the victim or like I was crazy when I got angry and/or overstimulated even tho she knew that was gonna happen bc she didn’t have a bf to fight with when she got bored

[mawrko]

oh

Sometimes i realize i have to accept that i won’t get better. That i am messed up and i cannot go back to “normal” things because it will make me relapse. I have to accept i wont ever see any sexual things normally. That it will always trigger me. That it will always make me go through episodes of breakdowns. I have to understand that i got groomed. That it is real that it is my trauma and not some bad situationship with an older guy. I just have to accept im hypersexual because of sexual trauma. That through sex i managed to be content with myself even though it made me feel disgusted and want to throw up afterwards. I have to understand that i am fucked up. And the only way better is to avoid sex completely. Idk why im saying this but some people need to hear it. You have to accept that this is it

[mawrko]

listen I know it's heartbreaking that Claudia dies and it's understandable to wish she didn't, but let's please not accuse the writers of fridging her. to do so is a fundamental misunderstanding of the story and is frankly insulting to the intelligence and skill of the writers of the show.

Claudia's death, and the overwhelming grief and regret her parents experience because of it, is quite literally the point of the entire story. she dies because Anne's daughter Michele died of leukemia when she was five years old and there was nothing she or her husband could do to prevent it.

writing IWTV was how Anne coped with the unimaginable loss of a parent losing her child. she created a story about a little girl that could not die and then killed her anyway. Claudia's death is a senseless, unavoidable tragedy, just like Michele's was. the grief that haunts Louis and Lestat for the rest of their lives is the same grief that haunted Anne and her husband.

so when you're accusing people of killing Claudia off to benefit a story about two men, please remember that in real life sometimes parents lose their children. please remember Michele Rice.

she's the reason Claudia exists.

she's also the reason Claudia cannot be saved.

[mawrko]

I simply have to stop showing interview with the vampire to new people because they’re trying to sit with the insane emotional gravity of Lestat dropping Louis OUT OF THE SKY and I’m too busy kicking my feet at Devil’s Minion making eyes at each other and giggling at Armand’s Rashid costume.

[mawrko]

CALLING DANIEL ARMANDS DADDY IS WIILLLDD 😭

“Armand de Romanus”… “Armand Molloy”… Maybe we should call him “abu Daniel” now, have you thought of that?

[mawrko]

[mawrko]

my sweet angel boy

[mawrko]

Anyone else ever think about the poetry of Armand, who was sexualized for his youth and taught that growing older would make him unwanted and undesirable being in love with Daniel who is made the more desirable by having lived a full life and carrying the age that comes with that? Him loving Daniel for the very things he was taught to hate himself for?

[mawrko]

Look at that face. Tossing up whether to set Lestat on fire or give him a big smooch. What a sweet boy

[mawrko]

[mawrko]

spent the night quite literally fantasying about covenleader!Armand. this is not a drill i am in fact losing it

[mawrko]

my favourite armand fits 9/∞

[mawrko]

i love you mutuals. you can take my breath and breathe twice as fully if you desire

"And I cannot say even now that I regret Claudia, that I wish I had never seen her, nor held her, nor whispered secrets to her, nor heard her laughter echoing through the shadowy gaslighted rooms of that all too human town house in which we moved amid the lacquered furniture and the darkening oil paintings and the brass flowerpots as living beings should. Claudia was my dark child, my love, evil of my evil. Claudia broke my heart. "

[mawrko]

Louis dressing Lestat:

Armand dressing Lestat:

Lestat dressing himself:

[mawrko]

same louis. same

all of iwtv is just disaster mentally ill bisexuals, and then you have louis just: dick, dick, dick, dick, crazy french man dick, dick, dick, dick. why does god hate me? dick, dick, dick, dick.

and honestly, understandable. if i had a face like that, i wouldn't be shy about what i really wanted either. even if i had to catholic guilt myself to death on the inside.