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Another step foward

Hey friends!!!! Its been a while since my last post(intro), so here's an update!

Guess what I just got?! Ive purchased a chest binder!! Here's some background on why I've purchased one in the first place. Chest binding is something I have been looking to do for a while now. It is the process in which you compress your breasts to make your chest look flatter.

All my life I've worn sports bras that have allowed me to feel comfortable for the time being. However, Ive never been able to get that flattened chest look I've wanted in order to feel more of a man. Ive felt frusturated and have even cried because I HATE having breasts and have never been fully able to feel more manly because of them. For me, they are a part of my body thats unnatural they dont fit the rest of who I am!

Ever since I came out as transgender I've wanted more than just a sports bra. For the time being, the closest thing I found to getting a fully flattened chest, other than top surgery, is a chest binder. It took a while to really find a chest binder that works for me. Its another step towards feeling like who I truely am inside and out!

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This top sugery experience is so amazing to watch!!💜🏳️‍🌈 makes me so happy inside!

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I cannot make people like who I am, but I can educate them on who I am. I can educate them about acceptance of my difference.

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Long-->short😊

As a part of my transition process, here's a little taste of me with long hair to now having short hair!

Just like I had mentioned in my previous post I didnt like long hair. it just got in my way. I now love short hair because I can style it anyway I want. I can also just hop up outta bed without needing to brush it. Its easy, carefree, makes me feel more like me. Im closer to becoming a man💜

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Morning vibes💜

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Intro

Hey guys my name is Max heres a blog about my transition from female to male, how it began, and where im at in the process. This blog about me is just to get my thoughts out on paper. So feel free to comment back! Thanks.

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I had fantasies of what id look like as a boy my teenage years and to now. I never told anyone this. Not even my closest friends and direct family members for fear of their reaction. I would stand facing the mirror looking and my cut abs. I had a small sixpack in highschool with the v-cut. It was my favorite! And I still have them🤗 id see that in the mirror and imagine myself in a mans body. No boobs! Damn! Id be one handsome fella! Thats where my fantasies started. And then I went on to hating my periods and low hips. The thing I hated most was having to deal with a period and having boobs. Man they never fit with my six pack! Since then I wanted and still want to get rid of them! This is the hardest for me to explain to people when they ask me, why do you want to be trans. Im a male stuck in a females body.

I never wore low cut shirts. I hated dresses. All that made me uncomfortable like i had to dress as a someone I wasnt. As a woman. Ive never felt womanly. Ive always felt masculine. My body felt masculine but it's looks didnt match how i felt. I wore athletic clothes everyday to help me feel more masculine.

I grew up as a tomboy. I acted like one, dressed like one, walked like one, and even spoke to my friends using words like "dude," bro," "man." I loved to wrestle my guy friends when I was younger and sometimes id win! I was and still am an athelete. Soccer was my main sport. My all time favorite thing to do was and still is to lift weights.

When I say im naturally strong to people, im not just bragging! Its my only talent im comfortable at doing. And because of that i WILL show it off 😋 for example I weight 115lbs and can bench 125lbs maxout. I can curl 35lbs dumbells in each hand. I can do 25 pushups, and I can do atleast 10 pullups. I can hold a plank for 4minutes straight. Most women cant do all that with ease.

But I'm not most women. In fact, im not a woman. I came out just last year as transgender. That means im a female to male. This, I would definitely say, took a very long time for me to muster up the courage to do. My parents were the first people that I told this to. Then my sister. Right now its harder on them because theyve known me as their little girl and her little sister their whole life.

All the years ive fantasized about being a man, I never vocalized to my family or friends about it until just last summer when a traumatic yet positive lifechanging experience happened. Which segments to my next blog. And how my transition process starts.