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don’t lejeave me

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yeah if i all i do is be annoying then i need to spare people my bothersome presence

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PISSES ME OFF WHO MOVED THE GUN FROM THE ATTIC i tell myself when i feel really bad “it’s fine if it comes down to it i just have to go up there figure out how to load it and shoot myself” as a comfort it was my reassurance for when i felt really bad and now it’s gone cuz SOMEONE MOVED IT STUPIE MOTHERFUCKER GIVE IT BACK there was a buncha ammo but NO GUN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO TWLL MYSELF NOW THAR I CAN GO DROWN IN THE LAKE INSTEAD ??? ITS NOT FAIR AND I SPENT like thirty minutes up there in the 100 and something degree attic looking so now im light headed and also tired but also i wanna cry cuz its gone now

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what am i even doing with myself

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nobody’s ever happy with me

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i can’t think of Any words that could describe how absolutely stupid and useless i am LOL thinking about it. it’d be the perfect time to kill myself with the gun in the attic

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how it feels to be aware of your paranoias btw

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24 days until i can slit on my arms

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if i were to enter a coma and become unconscious and mute or straight up die i dont think it'd make much of a difference anyways i dont do anything that makes an impact i dont really think anyone would really mind if that happened to me even though i think i'd be sad and i'd miss some things and idk i just dont do enough and im not enough im just annoying ,, how to stop being annoying instantly no borax no glue quick tutorial please ghhhh i dont wanna always be such a nuicanse so i wish there were someone who could tell me Everything to do cuz if im taking instructions from someone then id trust them at least to make me a more interesting better person cuz on my own im incapable of ever being anything other than bothersome

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Why did I draw this? Why to show off Shadow's sick under fit of course!

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i know theres so many better people to leave me for that are more intersting and fun and exciting but please

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Dont leave me

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i feel like people are mad at me and i am unsure what to do However nonetheless i persist finishing this exam and being alone has lifted a weight from my shoulders