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[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

hello,

I haven’t write in such a long time. But here we go I guess…

There are rare moments happened in a human’s life, and it happens almost everyday. Like seeing a shooting star, or even little things like trying new stuff that you wanted to do in a long time. And now, I get the chance to have it. There are rare moments where I get to have and experience with you like, went to the bookstore without feeling guilty, strolling around the city without me worrying about things, and I get to have my bucketlists crossed.

There are a very much important rare moments where now I could talked about a guy to my parents and sister without pride and shame. Very rare moment happened when you came along, where my father asked about you to tease me. And my friends, my two picky friends likes you. And the other, told me to be thankful and pray more. She knows that I have been longing to have someone that really care for me and noticed how worthy I am.

She knows how I always felt lonely almost everyday. I couldn’t sleep, I cried almost everyday, I spend a lot of time thinking of how unworthy I am that people could left me for that. Thinking that I have always been the second choice, in my family and in my circle. I often feel guilty so my friends wont leave me behind. I felt so lonely until the point where I can only cope just with reading books and writing my book. I prayed to God that I wish I never felt this lonely anymore, and im sick of this never ending feeling. It kept relapsing at day even at night. I keep track of the ‘feeling’ in my journals so then I could see how much I have been feeling that way.

But then I went to my friends and they said the opposite. They comforted me and were saying that I am the greatest friend to them, and the most caring person they ever known. That is one of the reasons why that they are one of my most valuable thing that I could ever possibly have. I always make time for them, whenever and wherever. They are the only thing besides my family that makes me happy. I promised myself that I wont take them for granted and cherish them.

I never expressed things so easily, because like my friends always said that I am a prideful girl, and I guess, now times change and without pride I could say that you are also one of my valuable thing.

In 3 months knowing you, by far you never failed to amaze me. You are a box full of joy and surprise. I could even call you kinder joy. I am also amazed of how smart and intelligent you are. You’re mind, fascinated me sometimes.

I am as the poets say, a mess. And people don’t like messy stuff. Even me.

I have been doing everything on my own for as long as I can remember. But you suddenly came and change the game. You helped me, keeping me company, whether its in person or by calling me. Its feels weird but I tried to get along with it. By you keeping me company almost everyday, now I didn’t feel lonely anymore.

I honestly don’t know what to write but let me tell you that I am grateful to had the chance to met you and get to know you. And most of all, I want to thank you for everything that you already done for me.

-E

p.s: pls dont read acosf and read soc instead :)

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

today is august 13th, I feel very loved bcs of what my bf said at august 11th. that day we were hanging out, just the two of us enjoying the 'all you can eat' pizza at pizza hut. after we finished eating a lot of pizzas, we play the couple recipe book. a lot of things open up. he said that everything about me is amazing, and I was one of the reasons why he stopped being moody and shit like that. I was shocked, and I was about to cry that day but I keep it cool bcs we were in a restaurant. I just didn't realize that I was so important to him and wanted to be better for me, and he said that as long as you are happy I'm happy. despite him being a total asshole sometimes, stubborn, and being a lazy ass bitch he was so genuine and a really caring person. I even thought that I didn't deserve to be with someone like him. after all this time that I thought he does nothing to keep this relationship alive, but then I realize that he tried and he'd do anything to keep our relationship alive. that's why I promise to cherish you and to support you, I promise to always take care of you even when you're away. I promise to be there for you when you needed me. and I promise to love you even (god forbid) if we're not together. this is the point where I want him forever in my life and I still want to see him if I hear the word future. I love u so muchoo bby. I hope someday you read this and realize how important you are in my life 💖🐻🌈✨

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

so on August 4th my friends and I had a barbecue party in the backyard on one of my friend's houses. it was very nice we had a great time. and my bf and I doing the couples recipe book while we're waiting on my friend's arrival. he forgot what I gifted the first time. what a joke. I help my friends to chop the meat and stab it to the stick. we start to barbecue after maghrib, my friend Z is the one who cooks it, my friend S and I were playing badminton, bcs I'm not in the mood to eat, and that day I didn't eat single meat. as I was playing badminton the ball almost hit the barbecue ashes, but then my friend Z smash the ball back with the sate, and at that time all of my friends were looking at us play so we witness everything. we burst to laugh like almost ten minutes. it was a great day, bcs it was our last 'assemble' before our friends IR and RZ off to college dorm. well, as always I will say I love u guys so much and I hope we can meet again soon🤍

P.S. i didn't took a lot of pics bcs i was so busy talking with my friends. so i took a video instead

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

yesterday July 30th my friends and i are hanging out again. at first, my mum doesn't let me go but in the morning one of my friends text me again reassuring that i could go or not. then i go and asked my dad, and he said okay but i should be home by 5 PM. after i hear my dad said yes rushly i tell my friends that i could go.

we went to The Lake House, the view that day oh my go it take my breath away. its a very cozy place. we sing and chat along the way to the lake house, i filmed everything so that i can remember and replayed it when i miss the moment. My friend, my boyfriend and me were fasting that day so we didn't eat. after a couple of hours hanging out there, we decided to go up to Puncak pass, you know just strolling around to see the view. at 3 PM my friend decided to go to the Masjid to pray. and then we went home. as we arrived adzan maghrib was echoed, my parents told me to bring food and drinks to my friends, since the iftar together at Ramadhan was canceled we did it now. we ate cilok and pizza, it was so nice and delicious. there's nothing special going on that day but I'm so happy like always been with them. they are the most fun I've ever been around and I don't want to let that go. I love u so much guys, I hope we always be like this and I hope we can meet again another day🧡✨🌈🦖

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

Today July 22nd, I went to my friend’s apartment with my other 6 friends. So this is my other gang, all are girls. we reunited at last. We do a lot of mukbang today. And Fyi the food and drinks are a dozen of J.co’s donuts, Breadtalk muffins, chatime, salmon mental rice, coco pandan, spaghetti, and Ayam geybok. Oh and we ’surprised’ our friend because her birthday was on July 17th. We got a lot of stories to tell because of this quarantine. We’re so happy to meet each other today and you know to talk and laugh are stress reliefs. Well, all I got to say now is, I'm glad we meet up today, and I hope I can see you guys again soon. Thank u for today and Luvv u all weirdo so much🌈💖✨😘🥰

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

its been a while since the last time I went on a trip with my friends, and yesterday July 20th me and my friends went to Bogor. at first, I'm just sitting there like Michael Corleone type of thing and i hear the Godfather theme song. as i was eating lunch I watch them talking and burn it in my mind and become a memories. there's a lot going on when quarantine happen. the view is incredible i can look at it all day. there are 2 cars yesterday and there's just three person on my car and thats my friend (Z) and my bf.

Just the three of us and the road. we split on the way to the next coffee shop, and my car went straight to Masjid. i pray alone and just after i pray my asthma relaps. but my friend and my bf didn't finish yet. so i waited there until they finished. when i said to my friend my asthma relaps he rushly take his shoes and offer me if i wanted him to bring my bagbut i said it's okay. and he said its okay if i wanted to go to the car earlier when he was praying. then when we're on the way to the coffee shop the rain came and it was like storm. my friend rushly took his hoodie and give it to me. and yes that was the highlight of my day. i love this brotherly-friend love type of thing. it's because i've always wanted a big brother and somehow god bring them in the same time as i existed. for this i'm forever grateful. so i'm looking forward for the next trip or getaway type of thing. well the last thing i'll say is, thank u and i love u guys so much you have no idea💖✨🌈

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

Your eyes is sirius Galaxy burns in your hair Us are stardust Run like rockets, faster than Juno Universe is in our hands My heart explode like supernova for you

E, again.

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

HOLAA MI FAVORITO!!! happee 3 years of boochin!!

despite the fact that I'm probably the most annoying, cranky, bitter, and sarcastic person to you. you still managed to hold on and keep us going.

Everything about you is incredibly amazing. You motivated me to keep going and the most incredible thing that I could possibly have been experiencing in this relationship is we grow up together. From me being such a dependent person and scared of experiencing new things to a person who very much more likely to be independent even though I'm still learning.

We all feel insecure about something, but you keep reminding me there's nothing to be insecure about. There are other people that not as lucky as we are.

We should feel grateful for what we have.

You keep me safe and secure. you know every detail about me like my favorites to eat or maybe my favorite movies. you let me annoys you and you still okay with that.

although i don't say this much but I miss u every day and even before the quarantine began. I have so much plan for us in the future, I hope we can still enjoy the time we got left. looking forward to having tea with u and cook everything that i learn from quarantine.

I hope ur love for me never fades and remain the same, and i luvv luvv luvvv u so much weirdo💖✨🌈💕🐻

I'm glad we met, and I will cherish every moment of us being together.

A heart can cost 1 million dollars if i sell it, but i gave u for free. so i hope u cherish mine like i cherish yours, keep mine safe as i kept yours, keep it and don't break it.

3 years went by like a whiff. I'm so happy that I can spend 3 years of my youth with u. I hope we can meet again another day, and I wish u were here so I can be clingy again like I used to. so bye-bye pls text me call me skype me zoom me🦖💖🐱💗🌈

- ur lover, E

P.S: This is for your eyes only

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

After the charity event. My pals pick me up at my house and take me on a drive to the place of my desire. And it's big bad wolf books.

This afternoon I don't get a lot of pictures because I'm tired as a sloth and all I wanna do is spending time with them. After we went to big bad wolf books we decided to eat, And we choose to eat at the side of the road. And then went to cibubur to sent my girl friends home.

When we're on the way home my boyfriend is very clingy, he held my hands as he sleeps, rubs my cheeks, and play with my hair. I think This is the next level of intimacy. He is so calm at this point in time, It's weird but not rare. And I want it to keep it that way.

Like Every Saturday's we take a drive and they literally my stress relieves. My friends are very genuine people and I want them forever in my life. All I wanna do now is spending my weekends with you weirdos💖🌈✨💗🐻🦖

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

So last Saturday my faculty is having an event called served with love at the retirement home, and it was amazing. I met an old lady and she's very nice and humorous, she likes to sing and ngaji.

And there's an old man too and he's 90 years old. My old lady says he can't hear very well so u must say it louder. Perhaps My friend who is the MC is very tired and she screams to the old man's ear haha. And my friend says to the old man when he was dancing ” is that the war dance?” and I was like ” omg that's rude but funny”

This event is not life-changing but it was extremely incredible. I'm so happy when the event is over. no more meetings no more fundraising. But this last day, I just realized that my teammates are very nice and helpful people. And I'm just very grateful that I had teammates like them.

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

This week we went again like the other weekends be. maybe this will be a tradition for us every Saturday we went somewhere to clear our minds from school and everything that keeps us feeling stressed out.

Yesterday was enough and very pleased for me because once again I can go to the place that I always dreamed of getting there with my friends.

Warpat, Puncak holds a special place in my heart

The weather up there wants me to hug every single one of my friends. I like warm sweaters and the chilliness up there.

But yesterday it was very cold bcs it's raining and the fog came down. My friends are freezing but I'm the only person that had warm hands. And I'm curious about my hands why are they warm when the weather is 17 degrees...

I'm happy once again, so thank uuu🙈✨💖🌈🦖

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

we drive to bogor this time, 4 hours.

I'm as happy as the twilight

This is the last trip before I'm back to uni. plus we made a TikTok.

And I wish I could put my hand to his every day you know and I just want to be with him all the time.

And luvv luvv u guys very very much. All I wanna do right now is spending and cherish the time with uuu weirdoss🌈💖💗✨🦖

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

I'm just so happy that I am surrounded by the most genuine and kind people who are caring for each other and got each other back.

They are my friends. My second family. I'm grateful for them. They are the best pals that I could’ve ever imagine.

we understand each other’s arguments and variations, We laugh every time we met, and no dramas between us. And I feel like they are the other version of me. They are me and I am them.

I love them so much and I want to cherish the time we got left in this lifetime. So let's drive far away from the city and never come back.

— from e to the travelers gang

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

talking without boundries are my favorite thing to do

with them.

thank's for the weekend getaway guys.

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

But when you found the one You stop searching just for the fire and butterflies. But you start finding peace to the mind Warmth to the body Fire that awakens our soul And thats what I found in you

its ez, again.

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

my friends are the kindest, coolest and the most genuine guys i've ever known. but u are so much more. even tho u are not the best but u always tried to be one. u always be my plus one my day one because no one else make sense.

i dont know what i do without u. life made sense with u. i didnt own u and u didnt own me. but we both know we were meant to be even tho we never said that to each other, we knew.

— from e, again head over heals with u

[mcnuggetsforlyfe]

Jakarta, 2020

burn the food, burn the soul, burn the sky