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madisonbeer: from youtube videos to a whole ass grammy nom ?? i don’t even have the words. can't stop crying 😭

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Kendall Fest 2023 performer spotlight - Madison Beer | @mdisons

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To celebrate Kendall Jenner's 28th birthday, she is inviting everyone for a fun-filled day of music, food and girl power at the stunning Sacred Sands resort on November 10th. This architectural gem is an iconic landmark one mile from the West Entrance of Joshua Tree National Park. Commanding magnificent mountain and desert views, Sacred Sands offers the perfect escape with its luxurious accommodations. It's also a picturesque event venue featuring intimate spaces that will instantly connect you with the entrancing Mojave Desert landscape.

Guests will be provided luxury accommodation and they'll get to enjoy live performances from some of the world's biggest musical acts.

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madison sucked in a breath as their eyes met. it was hard to not immediately let her gaze shift elsewhere, because even though she was trying to prove a point, looking into his eyes took her right back to the last time they had been connected; right before she excused herself to the bathroom to fix her make-up, only to never return again. her heart ached as the painful memories started to cause chaos in her head. until harry started to chuckle, earning him a confused furrow of her brows, lips slightly parting ready to defend herself, but not getting a chance to as he went on. "the only reason i deleted your number is because you clearly weren't interested in ever hearing from me again and i can't blame you. i just wanted to make sure it would stay that way for your sake," the brunette finally managed to explain herself in between, calmly, her voice soft despite this whole situation causing havoc in her heart. 'beckham must be looking for you'. her eyes wandered to the window, far away from him. clearly, the last thing she needed was for him to also believe they were dating. for someone who usually always had a game plan, she was out of ideas this time as the anger build up inside of her because of his comment. angry at him. more angry at herself. "you don’t seem to be a big fan of beckham i suppose, even though you apparently don't care ? funny," this time, the sarcasm in her voice was evident. "i could give you a reason or two to stay. you can't run away from this forever. i can't run away from this forever. if we continue like this we'll be going around in circles and that's not us. or you can leave if you want to and i'll make sure we'll never end up running into each other again. it's your choice."

Out of sight out of mind, is the saying, and how true was that? It's so very true, that it shakes Harry to his core. The more he takes in the sight that Maddison is before him, the more he finds out how mistaken he was, and how he tricked himself to believe he had it all well resolved. He didn't. Listening to her directly speaking to him was physically painful, and he found it was hard to breathe. He knew the moment he tried to make a quick escape that he fucked up, it was very telling, making it clear as day how much it still affected him. Against everything he said in their texts messages, so of course she confronts him about it, right away, merciless. And that only angers him even more, what else does she even want from him at this point? After this long? Clenching his fits, Harry somehow gathers the courage to make their gazes meet, holding it steady for a long moment, not moving from where he's standing. And then he chuckles. Sarcastic, and dumbfounded. "That's rich coming from you" He lets out, somehow still not adverting his gaze from her. "What do you want from me? Didn't you finally delete my number? What reason do I have to stay in the same room as you?" He added, and since he found the strength to speak, his voice surprisingly steady, yet slow as he always speaks, he kept on going, which of course would only work against him. "I don't want to hold you, sure you're expected else where, Beckam must be looking for you"

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there's a difference between thanksgiving and christmas decorations and no one told me in my twenty-four years on earth ? i'm right there with her with the peanut butter cookies love. gingerbread houses are nice to look at, yes. i just don't like the texture when i take a bite, plus the taste is not it for me. i'll stick to cinnamon stars.

Okay maybe i am wrong but thanksgiving decorations is just light Christmas at this point, she loves chocolate and peanut butter cookies, aww you don't like gingerbread? they are always so cute.

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thank god we're both fucked up. it's obviously been the key for us not turning into a cliché rom-com. damn, you're smart. now i wonder if you can come up with the second reason while i'll be busy, hiding all my hair care products from you. think i prefer him now compared to young beckham. you're still more daddy than he is though. which is why the whole good boy thing hasn't really been on my list of things i wanna try out with you. it left my lips with no thoughts behind it really. you are a good man though. in a non-sexual way. well fuck. you're making it really hard for me not wanting to continue fueling those dating rumors and sneaking around with you at events, knowing i'm having you all worked up over my outfit and sheer presence and then getting blessed in a hidden corner. trust me babe, you didn't leave me unsatisfied once. actually, you've always had me craving more. still think it's best if we take a little break though. she's my friend and clearly uncomfortable with the whole thing, i don't wanna hurt her.

That's not a problem. We both know when commitment shows it's ugly face, I run the other way so I'm certain neither of us will have to worry about that. Oh, I see how it is. You're afraid if you tell me your secret, I'm going to have better hair than you. It's entirely possible. Next time I stay at yours, maybe I'll just snoop through your bathroom products and test our your little theory. Of course you have a thing for Beckham. Even I have a thing for him. What a handsome man and the fact he still looks that good? Unfair to the rest of the word really. "Good boy" is that one of those other things you want to try out on me? I've never used it before but there's a first time for everything. As for the dating rumours, I have to admit, it's rather fun to see everyone speculating. When there's someone as gorgeous as you on the stakes, I'll take all the affirmation I can. It's always amusing to hear their little theories while I'm sneaking off with you to hear you scream out for me. They'll never know what we have because they'll never understand us. The commitment doesn't matter, we don't need that. I get to have your most intimate moments, just before you fall apart and watching that pleasure taking over, knowing people are whispering about us from the next room is pretty hot. I can't deny it. Believe me, when you enter a room, my eyes are always following. Oh wow, you're just not playing fair, are you? Well, if this is the last time we might as well go out with a bang. I'd hate to leave you unsatisfied.

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manifesting a reunion ? god, i'm so in awe of your power. please teach me your ways. sorry i got so caught up in my own mess. how about you come over for a nice glass of wine and all the tea to make it up to you after we've caught up on some much needed sleep ?

i mean, not to brag or anything, but i told the universe that i was missing your face and then here we end up in a freaking castle together. feeling pretty powerful right now. i don't care what you have going on, i need to steal you away so i can hear all about what is going on with you, thanks. @mdisons

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people who don't do what we do will never understand how putting your deepest feelings and thoughts into writing songs is like therapy for us. we feel things more deeply. and when you put a personal note on it, it makes for the greatest love or heartbreak songs. so, it doesn't feel like the right choice now ? i mean, did you ever fully get over him or were you hoping to re-connect when you reached out to him ? i do. kind of left someone without a word too, for entirely different reasons, but still. it's an ever lingering feeling of guilt. don't think even if i'd get the chance to apologize and explain myself, the feeling would disappear. i don't like him that way. like i've said, he's a good guy and i enjoyed hanging out with him, but that's it. hoes before bro's, right ?

yeah, don't think he loved that but it fuelled a lot of the album, or anything before that really. all the early songs for sure. I always regretted the way it ended but I always thought I did what was best for us. you know the story of being linked to a famous person, it becomes the story. I had my dad to handle, the nepo baby label stuck, I wasn't willing to be known as someones girlfriend at the time and let's be real, his career probably benefitted from not being tied to me either. it did,I am sure it did, but it wasn't an easy choice, but it felt like the right one back then. do you? relate I mean, it's a weird feeling, right? heartbreak you brought upon yourself? I guess that's what makes it the best songs, isn't it? Mads that's not...if you like him that's, I broke up with him years ago, I just..hate the idea a bit?

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mads: what's so wrong with that ? don't forget we've also had some good times mads: ofc it's working bc you love me

Joe: Whatever you say. Joe: Maybe I did, but I know you're trying to reel me back in. You know how to get under my skin and it's working, sadly.

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duh, we're the hottest duo of course. who's someone else ? don't know them. you said party and i'm in. lets get together soon to plan something huge everyone will still talk about weeks later.

Sick idea. Are we the hottest duo, or is it you and someone else? 'Cause, I'd still be accepting of that if you still make this happen. I'm sure if all else fails, we'd throw an even better party.

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think you just became my new favorite person. got more interrupted by actual human beings than ghosts, but at least i didn't pee my pants because i got scared shitless, so that's a win. how'd you like the trip ? there's always space in my rocket for you. besides, would be even more fun to start a new life up there together anyway.

Then say less, I'll be handing you a drink and yelling "bottoms up!" - I also can't promise that your sleep won't be interrupted by those haunting this place. Ghost sort of have a mind of their own, yanno. They scare who they want and when. I really would, I just ask that you take me with you.

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ah yes, a people's favorite. it's a mood honestly, because men are trash. well, not all men, but you get what i mean. feels right calling them out on their bullshit every now and then by blasting that song. did you try the black pudding ? because i chickened out and now i'm not sure if i'm gonna regret this one day or if it wasn't worth the hype.

really? well i'm glad i could make you feel good. honestly i love boyshit, something about that song that really gets me going. it's great and i for sure added it to my everyday playlist because i can't get enough. oh yeah that'll really make the trip fun, i love that. i think i looking forwards to the stories as well and of course trying new foods.

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her own soft footsteps echoed through the castle halls, sometimes hastily, because she could've sworn she heard a weird noise and other times the echo stopped as her feet came to a halt, contemplating whether to take a left or right turn. of course the one time madison had decided to do something on her own, she would get lost. just her luck. quietly cursing under her breath when she got faced with yet another dead end and only one door on her left to save her from freezing to death out here, the decision was made easily. carefully opening the door in case she would interrupt someone or something, the brunette was immediately greeted by warmth, the inviting sound of wood crackling in the fireplace... and an all too familiar voice. shit. her eyes widened at the sight of harry with a book in his hand. a library. cute. didn't stop the big lump from forming in her throat, making it rather hard to breathe though as her gaze wandered over the wide collection. the male's words caught her attention again and for a second, he would've had a chance to escape and walk right past her without her saying a word or stopping him. "you can't even," madison's voice cracked and she paused, taking another step into the room to distract, the golden hour shining in from the window gracing around her like she was an angel sent from above as she swallowed hard. "you can't even spend ten seconds in the same room with me ?" she finally managed to get out. the singer had never felt more uncomfortable facing someone she shared so many good memories with. "you say you don't care, but your words scream quite the opposite to me." it was a risky remark, but then again, everything the brunette had been doing lately was risky. it was as if she'd found comfort in getting hurt. "do you really hate me that much ?"

To say he has been activily avoiding coming near Maddison was - well it was quite accurate actually, he spotted the singer walking into the elevator the minute he checked in on day one, and since knowing she was there, he has been careful in what rooms he walks in, and which table he sat at, always making sure to keep his distance. Call him imature, he really doesn't care anymore, he left her on read after she texted him by mistake - or so she says -, and he was planning on keeping the silence and distance as it was. "How many times am I getting lost in this godforsaken castle... ridiculous..." Harry whispered to himself, walking inside the next door he finds after he took a left, which leads him to yet another dead end, this room looks like a small library, with books filling the walls to the brim, a couple of armchairs by the fireplace, with one single window from floor to ceiling, from where you might be able to go outside to the grounds. The sun was setting, and the golden hour gave the room a natural golden light all around it, making it look even cozier and welcoming. Humming a random melody that was stuck with him since morning, Harry couldn't help but to roam throufh the shelves for a while, reading through some of the titles, getting lost in quite a few he would like to read and mentally creating a list, until the noise of a door closing snapped him back to reality. "Oh shit, you gave me a fright- I'm sorry, I got lost, not sure if I was allowed here..." he started off, stopping in his tracks the moment he turns towards the entrance, and of course fate wanted to laugh at him, because what other reason would Maddison have to have just walked in the same room as him. "Right. I'm leaving" only problem was, in order to leave, he would have to get through her. Fuck. @mdisons

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you said romcom and i say ew. let's not just swear off each other when romantic attachment creeps its way in, lets also swear off it possibly happening in such a cliché way like all romcoms do, because no thanks. your hair is nice the way it is. which gives me two reasons not to spell what shampoo i use. did i see what ? sorry, think i got distracted by other stuff when watching it. like his headband or those muscular calves or vic in the crowd. good boy. you're so easy to work with. barbie had better things to do and i can't blame her. i suddenly get the feeling you're into stirring up dating rumors with me, though. do you get a kick out of having everyone spinning their wild theories and made up gossip about us while you're sneaking around in hidden locations with me, knowing i'm not yours and you're not mine and we don't care, getting up to more fun than any of those real couples ever could ? because i do. hoping i'll have your eyes on me all night. who says i came unprepared ? we're about to head off to a banquet after this. so rest assured i'm not just wearing a sexy dress, i'm also wearing nothing underneath it. you're getting extra lucky tonight, considering our time is limited and this might be the last time.

Well that sounds like the start of a romcom where two people make a stupid bet. For both of our sakes, I'm going to spare us the embarrassment and say that we'll just swear off each other if we even get a hint of romantic attachment towards each other. That's true. Your hair and boobs have always been a huge advantage of yours. What shampoo do you use? I need to invest in something better. Childhood hero? That's a bold statement but how could I not love the man? Did you see him score from the halfway line? The man has talent and looks. Not that I didn't enjoy seeing you as Posh Spice. That little black dress did things to me. Please do send photos next time. Even if for nothing more than for me to drool over you. I promise from now on, I'll never dress up as your husband — fake or otherwise. Next time we should go and Barbie and Ken. I heard they never got married. Pretty scandalous for a couple in the 60's. You're a strong women, I must admit. Your resilience is breathtaking. Ruined my night? I had good booze and a hot girl to stare at. Nothing was going to bring my mood down. Who said I set the record straight? I just carefully rolled my eyes and sipped on my beer. Whatever they think is up to them. I'm not going to point out their blatant idiocy to their face. I was raised with better manners than that. Oh, you have a thing for being watched? I'll store that information away for a later date and I'll meet you there in five. Pity we aren't dressed up right now. Like I said that black dress... wow.

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well shit. i was gonna say this sounds like a mixed up story out of your songs and it probably is. so, i'm guessing you've had regrets eventually ? and that's why you reached out ? you were so young back then, so i get how the thought of going public with someone who was about to have all the cameras thrown into his face, and yours, would be overwhelming when you were still trying to find yourself and weren't ready to be someone's girl publicly. still, you can't blame me for feeling a little sorry for him. it must've hurt a lot when you left without saying a word. done that before too and still suffering the consequences. told you i could relate. that tagline works so very well for us. me and jake - he's not on my hitlist of guys who ain't shit, but he's also not my prince charming. we're not seeing each other. he's a good guy and i won't deny we've had fun times, but you're my friend. that's so much more important to me than a guy i can fool around with.

Look, him and I were never public, this was kinda before we both...made it, I guess. I kinda broke up with him when he booked a big show, and when I say broke up I mean left without really any reason. I was terrified of the attention it'd bring and knew it wasn't what I wanted to be known for at the end of the day, I was already my dads daughter and at the time I don't think I wanted to add Jacob Elordis girlfriend to the list, not publicly at least. I knew he was going to make it big and wasn't read for any of that and I thought leaving would be the easiest for the both of us. Look, I messaged him right before I saw you in London, guess I wouldn't have if I'd known you guys were..seeing each other or something.

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yeah, definitely sounds a whole lot of complicated. nothing wrong with trudging it up again if you felt like there was maybe unfinished business or something. who are we talking about again ?

no, look, it's a really long story and it's not even a story anymore, it's the past and I trudged it up again recently. but also, he's not shit, I kinda fucked it originally, so...complicated, okay?

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by the time we'll get back from scotland, it'll be thanksgiving in no time, so i'm right there with you, leaving those suitcases to unpack themselves and start decorating the house for christmas instead. what christmas cookies are her favorites ? since the list is long. if she says gingerbread, i'm out.

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Okay i have to ask, is it too early to decorate for Christmas? Stormi has already asked for Christmas cookies and honestly that girl is literally a mini me at this point, anyway if you love Christmas that makes us best friends and you need to come over my place for cookies!