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WHEN I SAY SOMETHING AND SOMEOJE SAYS SOMETHING AFTER ME SO THEY IGNORE ME AND TALK ABOUT WHAT THE OTHER PERSON SAID QHAWWSSHHSHSHDUXUUXXDIJRNEM

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I hate my friends they can't even reply to me so maybe I should complain

Sometimes I feel like complaining but I have good friends and some people don't even have the luxury of people who care about them so maybe I should shut up

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I actually deserved it so much more than you!

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My superpower is that I cannot feel good for other people I'll grit my teeth and tell them that I'm so happy for them when on the inside I'm dying and scratching at my walls asking why couldn't have it been me

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it's okay everyday is one day closer to moving out of my dad's

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Sometimes I feel like complaining but I have good friends and some people don't even have the luxury of people who care about them so maybe I should shut up

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If my mom interjects my psychiatry time with "she's been really moody and defiant lately" I'll literally kill everyone this is my last nerve

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Only finding out exactly what my problem is can save me, either I'm just a shitty person or I have some deeper psychological trouble. I can never open up to any psychiatrist about this because they'd just confront me about my dishonorable traits and make me want to kill myself

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I HATE PEOPLE WHO HATE ME I will not be the bigger person being the bigger person is a myth to keep you from giving people what they deserve!!!!!!

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solike I did cut off this girl but I relate to her selfish nature so much that I feel connected to her because of it like im currently being very toxic and well that just reminds me of her so now I lowkey miss our friendship maybe if she became self aware of her behaviors we could've had something but no she just drove me insane lowkey

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I really don't feel bad about revealing she does cocaine at shows because she was originally being a bitch to me over some petty shit, then she messaged me about it like don't care bye have fun being ghosted. You're a 19 year old out of high school getting offended and butthurt over someone still in hs maybe grow a pair and move out of your parents house

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I don’t know what’s going on, but I am not going to worry about it until they respond. I am going to wait.

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I hate when people treat all bpd people like "yanderes" or like having fp's/favorite people is cool or quirky and so romantic, when its so mentally draining for me and others alike and its not romantic, its just obsession. I hate when people romanticize something i have to live with. BPD is not hot, its just a disorder that deserves as much recognition as the next.

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How can you be mad at me of all people I am literally the most innocent person ever, like sure I did reveal something really fucking toxic and negative about your character and you found out but hey if you don't like people talking about that part of you maybe don't be doing cocaine so out in the open like that lol

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and she never gave me a definitive response, can't even give me the decency of a "No I don't like you the same" this is literally worse than being plain out rejected she's avoiding me what the fuck am I that repulsive is the idea of me liking you so horrible that you can't even interact with me after learning of it

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I've been so dead I have nothing to complain about because schools over so basically I'm free

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oh I told her how I felt about her and she hasn't given a definitive response in 3 days what if I just shot myself in the head in front of her