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i think the feeling i get from furniture is not arousal i just like feeling comfortable and being ace is weird

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life's been good

i've been lying and bluffing and oh god i probably hit a new low but it's ok because i have a lot of [REDACTED]

as in thinking about a certain [REDACTED] calmed me down from a panic attack 2 times last week and while my body might be ready to give up, at least i'm still alive thinking of [REDACTED]

Why [REDACTED], you may ask. Don't. I have no clue why I fixate on it so much and it's creepy and weird

uhh anyways i'm a piece of shit for lying to my friends. on a second note anyone seen kokichi? because i feel like a fictional character who self sabotages by lying to everyone is relevant when we're about me. exept i'm not a cute anime boy so people hate me instead of whatever kokichi is up to so fuck off i guess. being a shitty liar with no way of stopping is actually not fun at all

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i'm fucking dumb

i'm lying to *uhh rolls a die because i forgot if I had given them a name already* Pin again because I'm embarassed. I think about this daily and I just wished they wouldn't notice so i just said that i didn't know what they were talking about and they saw it anyways.

it was. not good. i wanna die?

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????

I'm sorry. I'm just questioning everything I know because of a fictional hedgehog and the fact that I know so little about him which makes me so confused and paranoid. I feel like I should know more than this but I dont

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT. THING ABOUT STONES THOUGH?

It's also extremely late and I should be asleep

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HHHH WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK

WHAT???

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??????????

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WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH SONIC

???????? I am so confused

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dating a girl is a valid possibility

so im closeted which means i am seen as a girl, i am a datable person (the bigger problem is that i'm ace and hate touch and social interaction overall, which makes me a not so valid possibility. Also I'm not a girl whoops)

have i ever mentioned that i wanna die and that i'm a liar in more than one way and that also makes me wanna die?

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also i miss jo

god damn i miss jo

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i want to yell

my (romantic/platonic) crush might like me back but i feel like a liar because they don't know i'm ace and a horrible person and i wanna die again even though it was supposed to be a positive thing but it's not because i'm lying to one of the people i care so much about :(

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its 3 am and i sleep when im dead

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theres no way this is healthy

i feel like laughing at this even though its pretty serious but

i have a weird asd infection on my feet and it's been weirdly wet and bleeding on and off for 3 days now and it's red and disgusting haha

i really hope its not super serious

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Me? Still salty?

It's more likely than you think.

Also, is it possible to be emotionally abused by someone who's way youger than you? Because I know for a fact that a certain person in my life called Dino uses my insecurities to his advantage whenever he feels like it and he's been doing it for such a long time and he keeps fucking me over.

I wish my friend Aki was here ;_;

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i am still salty

nothing has changed

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okay man what the actual fuck

turns out the bunch of people who have been harassing me are very likely just one single person. Said person can't draw for shit (neither can I, but compared to them i am incredible) and the all this shit has to do with the posts that have my art in them. hmm, i wonder what's up with that.

(if I had to guess, I'd say this moron/these morons are just really jealous and I'm not even kidding when I say this. I honestly believe that could be the case. Not that it's the only way any of this is happening but I'm having really hard time understanding why these people keep bullying artists. This also has to do with other artists on the site. They're so full of shit.

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never mind i still wanna die but i dont hate life

i hate the shitheads instead and i feel nauseous because i'm so fucking angry

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breaking news

i wanna fucking die i hate life

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fuck this i'm vaguing the shit out of this guy

If you make a small boy cry because you have to prove how big your virtual dick is, you're not a very good moderator and you should go die in a hole. (i'm saying shit like this because I'm the boy who has been bullied for a long ass time by this guy and I genuinely feel like shit right now. I don't actually want anyone to die. except myself maybe. because i have extremely strong emotional response to everything and when i feel like shit i feel like the worst person on this entire planet. wanting to die while in that mindset is kind of undersrandable.)

also, you keep telling everyone how fucking logical you are, but then you don't understand shit about fuck when i try to calmly reason with you and instead just keep saying the same thing again ad again. if talking to a moderator feels like talking to a brick wall, i'd say you should blame the moderator for that.

You go around bullying little kids janking your fucking internet dick. I have a strong sense of justice and I know a bully when I see one.

Emotionally supportive my ass. Go suck a dick. You made me cry just to feel better about your stupid sad life, because you can't admit to being wrong.