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[medianhell]

no matter how much our brain tries to make me (blue) a different guy it never works. everyone else is like "oh no im someone else now who am i!" but i get thrown into front and it's like "who am i- oh i'm blue again but with a different haircut. nvm"

[medianhell]

[ID: Stowaway from corru.observer. They are a vaguely humanoid shadow-like creature with two bright white circles for eyes. /End ID]

this thing lives in my head

recent update in our median subsys is we found a guy who is kind of just There in the background all the time. they have like. no actual identity so now they're stowaway c.ob

[medianhell]

recent update in our median subsys is we found a guy who is kind of just There in the background all the time. they have like. no actual identity so now they're stowaway c.ob

[medianhell]

[ID: Snippets from the aforementioned carrd. They read: "basic dni criteria: an extensive list that encompasses basic do not interact standards. scroll for full view

anti non-she/her lesbians or non-he/him gays

exclusionist

radical inclusionist

pro all good faith identities

pro mspec lesbians or gays

pro amab trans men/afab trans women

etc

you use the toothpaste or listerine flags

anti self-diagnosis

anti recovery

pro endogenic systems"

/End ID]

none of these things are "basic DNI criteria". none of these things have ever been part of "basic DNI criteria". what on gods green earth are you talking about.

i have found a new "basic DNI" carrd and the my opinions on the concept of basic DNI aside the stuff in here is like. like. absolutely not encompassed under basic DNI criteria. (this is actually a good example of why the term is useless)

[medianhell]

i have found a new "basic DNI" carrd and the my opinions on the concept of basic DNI aside the stuff in here is like. like. absolutely not encompassed under basic DNI criteria. (this is actually a good example of why the term is useless)

[medianhell]

[ID: A simple drawing of a boy with long hair wearing a shirt, reading, in caps: "My favorite hobby is seeing patterns that arent there and reading into everything more than is healthy". He is smiling and giving a thumbs up. /End ID]

[medianhell]

neon pink t shirt with glittery text on it reading "i see patterns whenre there arent any" (typo included)

[medianhell]

the weird unfair rules my brain shoves on me are so weird sometimes. our dad is mowing the lawn and i just got done running around the kitchen trying to get food while doing my very best to make sure he could not see me through any of the windows.. because..??? i'm not entirely sure. but i sure have been like for my entire life ! anyway i ended up peeling an orange while sitting on the stairs because of this

[medianhell]

i could get into it more but the base concept would be something along the lines of "psychotic athiest/skeptic has caught the attention of some sort of deity(?), who is very interested in fucking with them"

one of those days ("whatever the hell i have going on with my psychosis could be adapted into some absolutely fucking rad writing")

[medianhell]

one of those days ("whatever the hell i have going on with my psychosis could be adapted into some absolutely fucking rad writing")

[medianhell]

i wish that i could exist in headspace at the same time as the other people in my subsystem so i could whack them all with cardboard tubes

[medianhell]

empathy is a game and i'm losing (said with pride)

lets go cold and unfeeling bastards

[medianhell]

lets go cold and unfeeling bastards

[medianhell]

c.ob headmate talked me into trying out a qou form so i guess i will be one of those for now. pros include this form is very tall and looks pretty cool. we will see how long this sticks

on todays episode of juno asterisk and co trying to figure out identity shit, my newest headspace form is an alien

[medianhell]

on todays episode of juno asterisk and co trying to figure out identity shit, my newest headspace form is an alien

[medianhell]

absolutely horrible mix of symptoms: "nothing feels like enough" + "*i* don't feel like enough, thus i deserve it" like man ok. sure

i wish i did not have Nothing Ever Feels Like Enough disease. i think i may be losing it

[medianhell]

i wish i did not have Nothing Ever Feels Like Enough disease. i think i may be losing it