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Training day one. Muay Thai. Purchasing a rope dart as well today. There’s some stunts I’ve always wanted to do. There’s so many similarities between dance and fighting it’s just so beautiful.

I’m working on my backstage profile for the rest of the day. Tomorrow I have to do my dreaded taxes 🥲 it’s not that hard. It’s just hard to start.

I think I can’t be mediocre anymore. I’m the jack of all trades but master of none. But what do I hone in on? I just realized I should have been doing this the whole time : go off the list and delve deep and figure out what I’m really suited for, instead of flitting around doing everything . Blaahhhhh. I feel old and young. Trapped and free. Timid and outgoing. Confused but assured . I wish I started sooner to figure it all out.

I need to start signing up for classes. It’s so hard with a full time job because I just want to do it all.

[meesmos]

There’s lots to do. The purpose of my life is finally dawning on me. The ability to pick up on anything with physicality ,music, art, emotions, and understanding people is all pointing to what I’ve wanted to do since I was a little girl. All it takes is follow through and dedication. There’s really no time to waste.