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Feeling Unsteady

Have you had a moment where you just feel like you have no idea what you are doing with your life or where you are going? I’m sure most of us have at least felt that once before. I was feeling pretty down today and my mood just kept getting worst, until I wrote out everything I felt. Writing things out always helps me put things in a better perspective and to conclude it all, it was just all in my head. It was just me, being harsh on myself and making myself feel unsteady. 

In reality things in my life are pretty wonderful. My life isn’t perfect, but it doesn’t mean its not great. I had just achieved one of my wildest dreams in getting my own apartment to myself, my job is pretty awesome, I make a good amount of money to be able to afford all the things I need in my life, I am healthy, I am loved and surrounded by amazing people in my life, and so much more. So the reason why I am asking myself that question is simply because I have achieved most of what I wanted as a kid/teenager. 

And so its time to go back to the drawing board for something even bigger and beyond my imagination. This does not mean that I’m not grateful for what I have right now, it just means there is more within me to keep growing. Being in this stage helps me realize that I am truly the author of my life. I can literally create and build anything I want for my life as long as I put my time and energy into it. 

I understand that not everyone is in the same path as me and we all walk different roads, but I do believe at the end of the day it is all about perspective. I believe the more you look at things in a positive light and be grateful for what is in your life and what you can build, can create the outcome you envision. This only works if you are willing to put in the work for what you want. 

So if you feel like you are going through challenges or feeling weak and a bit lost within your life, asking yourself “What am I doing with my life?” just know the fact that you are asking yourself that question - that is the seed being planted within you that something huge is about to sprout and blossom. Be patient with yourself and don’t rush the process. Don’t be so harsh on yourself because I am sure you are doing the best that you can and keep doing what feels right to you. When the time comes (which I sure you it will) something beyond you is going to happen.