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So much things i wanna tell.

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Randomly,my phone just got stuck and im literally dont know what to do then im starting to click everything on my phone, try any combination of button ( randomly ) till my phone goes to "hard reset mode". If u dont know what it is, its like a way if u want to reset or factory reset your phone but you cant access that inside the phone or app when your phone is on. Ya thats the point i guess.

And if you dont know too, the display is so confusing bcs this is my firstime doin and sein this. The display its like beetwen youve been hackin and your phone are really fuck up.

And then i start to read and find a way to go back to the homescreen but not deleting anything or doin someting stupid.

Luckyly andbrandomly i click one of the option and finally get back to the normal homescreen.

Fyi, im wait like 1 hour since my phone laging -> blank -> and the hard reset display. I was panic when my phone are fully blank and cant even on and i think that ohh man this is fucked up, i have to go to customer service and explain everything blablabllabla

But ya,thankfuly. My phone back to normal and i hope so. Now i know what hard reset is. New lesson for me in the middle of the night. Thx.

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Shit. Its been a while im not open my tumblr. Since the pandemic i guess. And that 2 years ago. Fvck that feels so fast.

A quick recap.

So a lot of things happen. Changed. About me and my life.

Well, i'm not work as barista anymore,cause the place is closed. So now i work on my friends company. Ya 9-5 shit stuff. But for now im so grateful and happy with it cause i have a lot of new experience and new knowledge from here that i will remember for my future company. So thx for the kindess and opportunity that my friends gave to me.

I thinks thats a good start for first post after im missing a while.

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So i decide to not to meet u,until i have a good reason to meet u in the right time, the right moment and the right reason. Bcs i wont to meet u without any changes.

At least something change in my life. Maybe i will text u.

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Till now its just u can make me think&feel like im fckg nobody,stupid always make me feel that im just a kid. When i always argue with all my friend about a lot off things,always argueing about everything, and i always knoe what i have to say and what i have to do.

When u came? Nevermind, im not that person anymore. Im just like a yesterday kid with a minim knowledge that not knowing everything. Idk but its really really happen to me now.

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Selfish or just fair things

I want it. Really bad. I want to call u, text u, meet u, talk to u, stared at u. But now all of that maybe its just a dream. I think that im to selfish if i just want it all without a good,clearly,straight reason. Because if i doin that, maybe theres no different between now and the past. And that the reason were brakeup right?

But im still excited when supriseingly u call or text me. And i always give u a good respon. Thats why i never text or call u first because if u do that first, i think bcs u want it and might be a good conversation at last.

Different story when i text or call u first. I dont always take a good respons from u. So i hate that, and makes me think that i will never do that things first. Got it?

So its just a selfish things or its just a fair things?

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What i say.... need a couple weeks and month to recovery. But one day u come, u just take me back to day 1 recovery.

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I say something stupid and idiot things to someone, and i dont know why i just say that to her. And now i m feel guilty, and i suddenly turned into someone who wasn't me at all. Maybe dont try to talk with me if my mind is not healthy at all

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I see the universe inside of u

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"Tears"

for the first time in my life I fell into tears when I prayed

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" 2 time "

First, when i chat and i hope i can talk to her like sharing something like that. But she respon my whatsapp like 2 hour later, 1,5 hour later

Second, i confused and i wish she call me just cause she want to. And then she just tell me that her sisters just want talk to me. Her sister, not her.

Third? What i have supposed to do?

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For the big question. I think i have the answer already:)

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Day 33 quarantie

Its fasting day

07:00

Cant bloody sleep!!

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Today's big question is whether she will contact me again today? and if contacting will it be of her own volition or just out of necessity? Let see.

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Alina baraz & galimatias. First artist that make me come to my first festival. Never forget!

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I've stopped doing negative things. Like "man things" get drunk and smthng like that. but why sometimes still really want to do it so bad. may God strengthen me in this matter.