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[melauranes]

Update.

My moon came into my room and hugged me. I guess now she’s realized the importance and significance that I may be growing a tiny human inside of me. Last night she was more concerned with my partner, and this morning she’s realized it’s about something greater than that.

I still cried last night for the lack of love and care I initially received, but I talked to Xavier and he made me feel a little better. Plus sleeping did it’s thing for me, too lol

❤️ let love find you, MLJ, 8/8/24, 8:48a est

[melauranes]

Told my mom that I was pregnant today. She reacted how I thought she would. She wasn’t excited, she was more focused on my boyfriend. She said he was going to leave me, then she said that my sister Keisha was going to react worse. She said that I was going to miss having the freedom to do anything I want, but I have that freedom now & I don’t do anything. My friends have all went on to do other things and don’t speak to me anymore, so that’s that, & my family doesn’t do events or dinners. I’m sort of sad, but I’m not allowing the devil to steal my joy. I honestly just got a bit excited about it today after knowing for about 2 weeks, so that’s why I decided to tell her. I hoped she was going to be more excited, but after 4 grandkids, I guess another one isn’t as exciting. I tried to lighten the load by saying “anything can happen”, meaning the potential loss of the child, to gain a lighter reaction but I shouldn’t have had to do that. It does hurt my feelings that she wasn’t nice about it & immediately said Xavier was going to leave me. I’m starting to believe she’s more of a frienemy or she doesn’t like me based on her initial response to “good news” from me. I told her I wasn’t worried about Xavier, because I’m not. I wish I could go back to an hour ago when she didn’t know. I’m glad, however, that I’ve strengthened my relationship with God, because he’s all I have. I don’t think I’m going to tell anyone else, though. Anyway, goodnight.

MLJ, 8/7/24, 10:59p est

[melauranes]

Just In Case You Were Wondering.

My name is Melissa Lauran (better known as 'Lauren') Jones. I'm an African American woman from Charlotte, North Carolina, & I've been living here all my life. I was born in October 1992, and just in case anyone from my past wanted to check in on me, here I am.

I know I've been hard to get a hold of and it's hard to "just google her" me, seeing as I have the most BASIC full name, but I also haven't accomplished much to be google-able. I delete my social media accounts a lot and start over a lot, but that's because I'm still trying to find my niche (at 31, go figure). Here's an answer though to some questions you may be wondering:

I did not attend college, which was such a bummer.

I work a full-time job at a company I've worked at on and off since 2020, but I've been working since 2012 (I baby sat in the meantime and in between time).

I only currently have an Instagram account (melauranes & emthenymph), a Pinterest account (thegoldenlibrio), a SoundCloud account (melissajowns & emthenymph), a YouTube account (emthenymph), & this account on Tumblr.

I am not married; however, I do have a boyfriend that I've been seeing since December 2022.

I do not have any children...yet. I hope I can have two, though.

I hoped that answered any inquiries about myself that you may have been wondering about. I am not currently still connected with anybody from my past, other than my immediate family members (i.e. my mother and sisters). I am not apart of any friend groups or social groups, and I'm doing fine. I do not wish to relive any moments or reconnect with anybody, as I am happy enough & at peace with my circumstances and my circle, which is more of a dot :D

Thanks for visiting me here, & I hope you see more of me.

Luv,

Melissa L. Jones