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Wanted to use this meme for lipsync practice but try and guess where and when I got freakin' tired)

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Some old and new Sparda stickers collection

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Godspeed to my enemies, who've been asking for that call sign You know the behaviour, canines of the saviour Glory to the legion, trauma for the neighbours

- Emergence by Sleep Token

screenshotted the lil story that glitches in the end of the music video it looks like a video game!!!

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Wait for the master.

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my baby boy

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Everyone should experience the DMC1 Novel i think

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my experience with the gacha games i've played so far

genshin: you can build any character to the best of your ability and use them in roles you don't necessarily need them to be in, cuz even 4-stars will clear the content for you thanks to elemental reactions. also you're probably gonna be stuck at the whims of the rng gods until you get that crit/er/em :D

hsr: you have to build characters based on the teams they're a part of, so there's less flexibility, but so long as you know what stats you have to invest in, you'll be set! also you're at the whims of the rng gods for said stats :DD

wuwa: you can build any character to the best of your ability and clear overworld content relatively easily but you still need to use skills like dodging and parrying to get by on harder levels. also you're at the whims of the rng gods :DDD

pgr: no rng, git gud. if you can't clear content, then that's something we call a "skill issue"

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guess what. im back. lets talk trimax.

namely: volume 10, chapter 06, and what we're shown about razlo in this chapter.

remember:

this is my own personal analysis !! it is not meant to be portrayed as "right" or "true", nor to invalidate any other interpretations.

hi teehee hiii. chapter six is titled " the return. " an obvious call to livio coming back, keeping razlo from finishing wolfwood off. while thats a key moment, id like to explore the rest of the chapter, as well!!

this chapter actually delves incredibly deep into razlo's character, which makes it one of my favorites. (im biased. so what sue me. hes like an interesting bug to me.) as we know, the chapter opens with wolfwood just absolutely unloading on razlo as he struggles to regenerate from his injuries. while this parallels the pain vash has experienced thus far, im more interested in razlo's train of thought here.

as a protective alter, by design, razlo is no stranger to pain. for him to acknowledge it to this degree is exceptionally telling of just how bad it was. the reprieve he was offered was only due to wolfwood maxxing out. almost immediately, we see razlo shift gears again, moving back to "i have an opening to finish this." a common misconception, in my opinion, is the idea of him naturally chasing that opening.

while this could be the case, given the past information we have about him, its also an important nod towards the eye of michaels indoctrination he and livio faced, and the manipulation of razlo's "natural behaviors". weve seen to this point he is someone who chooses direct action over words. this can be attributed to the abuse that brought him about, believe it or not!!! he was shown pleading for help, begging for it to stop. unfortunately, that garnered him no results, leading him to believe action (removing the threat from the source) was the best answer.

examples of this trait include not only their parents, but the puppy, the members of the eye he eliminated, all the way up to how he approaches wolfwood. analyzing this is where it gets interesting To Me. razlo views wolfwood as a major threat. whether that is due to the implications that come with failure, wolfwoods actions towards master chapel, or the knowledge of the skills wolfwood possesses when compared to is own is a touch ambiguous.

inherently, razlos end goal is to protect livio.

regardless of how the eye of michael programmed and shaped their relationship as a system, he will default to keeping livio safe. eliminating the source of the threat directly is the only effective way hes been shown to do so—pulling a weed from the roots instead of trimming it back, so to speak.

circling back to the shift in gears we see, theres a lot of different reasons razlo would have done that to consider before "he just wants to kill". however, when livio returns, this can be further cleared up!!!

livio's return and his implied direction causes razlo to push back against him ("you tryna give me a damn order?"). from what we know about him, this seems like a moment he considers himself more capable than livio. however, with later interactions, it becomes much more "you dont get to tell me what to do because you arent above me; we stand on equal ground," rather than thinking livio is beneath him.

but theres something interesting here, even without later details. razlo starts crying, just for a second. with the sheer loss and betrayal razlo has just faced with chapel turning on him, willing to kill him just to get to wolfwood, livio telling him its over and pulling him back likely feels like another person turning on him. his character is heavily implied to be tied directly to those he cares about, and those who care about him. thats been shaken beyond belief in this moment—he feels alone (see him asking wolfwood why he would "throw him back into a pit of loneliness" after chapels initial death), and that is devestating to him.

the feeling of loneliness despite holding a place within a system is critical. it shows he doesnt feel as though he and livio are "whole". "ill never be whole again" is another key line here. the moment he thinks it makes it seem like hes worried about his physical being, but it could just as easily be an underlying fear of failure as a protector.

much of razlos character is driven by his fear of failing. if he fails the assignment, there are implications that the eye will never take them back. theyll be forced to find somewhere to belong again, where they will feel needed. to be needed rather than wanted is to be loved. theres no other way to prove he and livio "deserve" to hang around. this is what they know and understand right now. chapel was the only one that showed razlo he was needed. right up to here:

livio acknowledges that razlo has taken the brunt of the horrible things that have happened.

i know what youre thinking. "rue this just makes it seem like livio doesnt need razlo at all what the fuck are you talking about." steeples my fingers and sniles so sneetly.

this acknowledgement is livio's way of telling razlo "youve done a good job. youve done what you needed to do. you have done enough. i am okay thanks to you." this, again, is My Personal Perception And Interpretation. as a collective / system myself, "taking a break" is terrifying in and of itself. this is the first time livio has felt confident and safe enough that razlo can take a step back. theyve balanced the scales. livio is strong enough to be on his own, and that was the goal all along. razlo spent so much time and so much effort keeping livio safe, showing he cares / worries in his own strange ways, but he doesnt have to anymore. he can rest for now. he can take the time to process and grieve the things he needs to, the things they need to, because livio is safe on his own out there.

this has gotten so long jesus christ. i lobe...lr....i love lr. i love razlo hes so special to me. my favorite bug to dissect. i love systems being portrayed fairly accurately in media. lr isnt a perfect example, but theyre a damn good one. heems.

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in los angeles, the historically Black community of altadena has been decimated by the ongoing eaton fire.

afropunk has created a spreadsheet of gofundmes of displaced Black individuals and families affected by the current los angeles fires. the list is constantly being updated.

please donate what you can and share widely.

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the mutual aid los angeles network (malan) has put together a spreadsheet with valuable resources for people affected by the ongoing los angeles wildfires and wind storm. the sheet is constantly being updated with resources such as shelter info, animal boarding info, addresses for distribution centers, volunteer opportunities and so much more.

please share this spreadsheet widely

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srry 4 the reblog instead of a normal reply tumblr wont let me do it :(((

absolutely wish lilith had more screen time and a better characterization so she wasnt so like. neutral as a character. like shes not so evil that you want her dead at all costs like you might mundus and she isnt neutral in a way that makes her nuanced shes just kinda there with barely enough humanity not to feel like a demon and barely enough evil to feel inhuman. she also implies that without her baby shes nothing to mundus and i wish they explored that a bit more yk, like- where she comes from, how she met him, just how far her powers go. or why he even keeps her around, baby notwithstanding. i mean.. cmon. she has to be more capable than that and it cant be that mundus of all people keeps someone around so close to himself and give them so much influence just for sex.

..... also sorry for using ur reply as an excuse to lilithpost /j i just think she wasnt very well thought out they just gave her a kid and called it a day. huge waste of a character design and premise i really like. and idk i think that if the devs were more conscious about women's issues (which the game somewhat hints at, again, by having lilith talk abt how shes nothing without her baby, something that hits very close to home esp w the current climate around reproductive rights, Especially in the usa) or even just cared about her, one of the admittedly very few active cast members, they would've explored her and her relationship to mundus more.

(or maybe they had time or budget constraints but idk. im volunteering to write em a lilith dlc anyways /j)

So theres discourse still about Kat's depiction in DmC and NOW it's being framed that Ninja Theory is misogynistic ??) for portraying a woman who...

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.... realizes in horror that Vergil, the person she admired and looked up as a leader and even friend, turned out that he never valued her at all, on top of the fact he's likely a megalomaniacal rising tyrant, and she becomes stunned to the point of breakdown..

... and for some reason THAT'S the one these haters are picking?!!? As "evidence" of how "bad" the lead female character is ?!?

Well talk about being:

1. Heartless & probably brainless..

2. Did they not realize Kat is having a vulnerable breakdown? She's watching in real time two people she cares about, with the other turns out to haave very selfish and delusional views about himself & the world..

And these haters have the goddamn audacity to point their fingers at Kat & holler at her helplessness & say "she's not feminist!" "She's not strong" "she's pathetic" Talk about Rowling-esque " f3minIsm" hurr durr durr

The fucking double standard AND lacking of self awareness of how these haters are pretty much making a very misogynistic claim against a character in her most vulnerable scene

I've seen MANY depictions of women, and there are FAR WORSE, misogynistic ones out there. But I'm also gonna have to hand a little lesson to you: how the creators depict something uncomfortable ISN'T immediately and/or directly evidence of bigotry/oppression, etc.

If every little uncomfortable scene is going to be sudden grounds for you to point fingers at the creators, then more than half of fiction media is censored/banned outright

If you can't discern a creators' intent for depicting uncomfortable situations, then I don't know what else to tell you but you re allowed to see these situations AND understand the reasons/intent for it.

Context ALWAYS matters.

But i guess haters keep missing. And for the last 12 years now btw

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So theres discourse still about Kat's depiction in DmC and NOW it's being framed that Ninja Theory is misogynistic ??) for portraying a woman who...

*** rewatches the scene these "morally upright haters " believe would vindicate their hatred & ignorance evn more ****

.... realizes in horror that Vergil, the person she admired and looked up as a leader and even friend, turned out that he never valued her at all, on top of the fact he's likely a megalomaniacal rising tyrant, and she becomes stunned to the point of breakdown..

... and for some reason THAT'S the one these haters are picking?!!? As "evidence" of how "bad" the lead female character is ?!?

Well talk about being:

1. Heartless & probably brainless..

2. Did they not realize Kat is having a vulnerable breakdown? She's watching in real time two people she cares about, with the other turns out to haave very selfish and delusional views about himself & the world..

And these haters have the goddamn audacity to point their fingers at Kat & holler at her helplessness & say "she's not feminist!" "She's not strong" "she's pathetic" Talk about Rowling-esque " f3minIsm" hurr durr durr

The fucking double standard AND lacking of self awareness of how these haters are pretty much making a very misogynistic claim against a character in her most vulnerable scene

I've seen MANY depictions of women, and there are FAR WORSE, misogynistic ones out there. But I'm also gonna have to hand a little lesson to you: how the creators depict something uncomfortable ISN'T immediately and/or directly evidence of bigotry/oppression, etc.

If every little uncomfortable scene is going to be sudden grounds for you to point fingers at the creators, then more than half of fiction media is censored/banned outright

If you can't discern a creators' intent for depicting uncomfortable situations, then I don't know what else to tell you but you re allowed to see these situations AND understand the reasons/intent for it.

Context ALWAYS matters.

But i guess haters keep missing. And for the last 12 years now btw

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suck, and i cannot stress this enough, my cock to the fucking base

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When violent characters are gentle and tender & when gentle characters are violent and unhinged

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not all character interpretations are valid some of you are sexist

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not all character interpretations are valid some of you are sexist

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not all character interpretations are valid some of you are sexist