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“I choose to love you in silence because in silence I find no rejection, and in silence no one owns you but me.”

— Rumi

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To the ones who still believe in dreams: Chase them. Chase them until you’re out of breath. Then, keep running.

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I’m on a roller coaster of emotions

And I’ve fallen off

Can you catch me

Or is my only option to hit the pavement

Maybe I fell

Maybe I jumped

My body is a slave to my impulses

I want to say I’m sorry

But I don’t really think I really am

-Melanie M.

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Masterpiece

Make me your masterpiece

And paint me with your kisses

Make every stroke

Stimulate every part of my body

Make my skin your canvas

And devour my essence

And I promise I’m yours

May these words

Illuminate the way

So that my body

Never forgets your touch

-Melanie

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Trading places

Things you don’t talk about

At the end of the day haunt you

As much as those thoughts

You’re trying to suppress

Don’t leave you

But that’s life right

I mean that’s what I’ve known

If you’ve known different

Then I wish a life in which I’m you.

-Melanie

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Confession

Yes Im bad at love

I suppose the space you create

That falls right in between us

Is the insecurity of me falling

And slamming into the pavement

if your not sure about us

that little doubt is hesitation

and hesitation is always an answer

And so I ruin it before you can

My answer to your hesitation

Is the distance you’ll feel

Of me slowly shoving my emotions away

Friends still right ?

Is what I’ll say

You might be confused

Or maybe you won’t be

But that just means

You never felt my effort

Or worse you did and continued on

But one things for sure I didn’t feel yours

And now here I am

Left to ponder on what I want

with you or without you

If only to voice freely what I feel

To simply just say to you what I think

And not think twice

If it’s wrong or right to say

But I could never bring myself

To express this small confession

A confession you will surely never know.

-Melanie

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“Within my own heart’s sea I will find the shell, break it, and hold at last the clear pearl of my soul.”

— Umm-i Salma, tr. by Deirdre Lashgari, from Poems; “He, The Beloved,”

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Dear Me,

It’s inevitable to assume the worst

Expecting a storm

In the midst of a beautiful moment

Just remember there’s a better perception

For what you expect in the future

A future that promises it

Only that it seems as if it will never show up

But dear you aren’t darkness

Nor the passion fruit in eve’s garden

You’ve just been deceived all this time

The darkness has kept you in the shadows

For too long crippling not only your mind

But your spirit as well

You can stop hiding now

Stop worry so much

You don’t always need a plan

Sometimes you just need to breathe and let go.

-Melanie

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Everyone likes to believe they’re a good person

Because really looking at yourself in the mirror

Means unraveling the truth and

the truth is sometimes accompanied with pain

I cant sit here and lie saying im not one of them

Because when im honest with myself

I know im not the hero in everyones story

And i sincerely apologize to those ive hurt

But im also not the villain to all

At least thats what I tell myself before bed

I have to believe it if not then I’m not me

And if I’m not me then who am I?

Have you ever been the villain

In someone elses story?

Because im betting your answer is yes...

I wish i could see myself through the eyes of others and know when i hurt someone

I wish i could wake up and not be afraid

Afraid to breathe and be

Maybe the villain isnt all bad

Maybe youre just reading the wrong story.

Maybe your perception needs to be altered

Maybe you need to look one more time with a different lense

But thinking this way is just torturing myself

Sometimes overthinking can make you feel like your stuck in an abyss

Harder than being seen as a villain is trying to fathom the thought of what everyone else thinks of you.

-Melanie