memoriesof2016

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i can Yap all day and still feel like i havent said enough nor did i explain my own feelings properly

What the hell

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sooo depressed

I wanna be happy again

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I HATE MY LFIE I HATE MY LIFE

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ermm

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life is hard

sims it is

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pam and jim

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also, lets try not to worry about food and calories :D i need to stop comparing 16 yr old me vs 23 yr old me's body. like its normal to not be the same weight at my age. and also, its okay to age up yk. i keep thinking i dont have enough time, and everything feels like its slipping out of my fingers. :-/

i wish i wasnt SO complicated ~_~ i wish i saw the beauty in aging tho, but i know one day ill be old and the beauty standard will no longer have me chained istg. like ill be so free being old but i also hope i DONT compare myself :-) im truly unhappy when i do

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welp! work is gonna take my whole week, i will literally only rest tuesday until NEXT sunday😭 holy crap. im opening and closing one day but the rest im staying for so long and i rather not,,,, i feel like my social energy runs fast and then i sulk when im off. :|

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ive been listening to lana n i feel so sad lately, i feel so

emotionless and i feel like im on autopilot. i feel like idk what to do anymore :-) like what am i going to do in 10 yrs? i cant live like this any longer. i keep regretting stuff idk WHY. i never regret anything so this is truly a sucky feeling :/

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why why

i hate knowing im the person who hurts the ones i love. never on purpose ofcourse, but it happens too often. its so frustrating !! : -D

i will take a break from posting :/

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whenever i listen to frank ocean, i always end up reminiscing!! i clearly remember listening to most of his music when BLONDE came out. it was when we first met, and "ivy" will always be a song that reminds me of 2016 tbh. it was that good.

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i've become a person that i would truly hate if i was a teenager. hard pill to swallow, but it's the truth. i remember not liking what others did and now i do it. i started drinking when i was 18, just to cope. i got rid of that habit. i even smoked cigs (you would prob be like ew) but i also stopped. i even smoked weed for the first time when i was like 20? haha. i didn't stop that until october? but i did stop anyway. i have met people who really destroyed my happiness. i've become someone who has a lot of problems. i hate meeting new people, new environment, and i hate going out. interacting with people is so draining. trying to keep up a conversation is the most exhausting thing ever.

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i wonder if we had lived closer if we would still be friends. i would've liked to know you outside of this screen. i wonder if you're ok, if you are too busy to remember me, if you ever think of going online. it's kinda sad i waited this long. i would rather do this to you only. i also still talk to nicole, hannah, aaron and other ppl from msp sometimes. LOL it takes me to memory lane every single time

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my puppy

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huh

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welp itll be ok anyway

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i just wish u werent in the back of my mind, thats so fucked up LOL but i have to let go. its been 4 years. :) :(

miss u bestie

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why is giving effort so tiring? and it feels like its draining. but i kinda like him and i know i will probably regret it later in life. i wish i stopped regretting things.