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A R E A | silk + crystal embroidered butterfly top | Collection 02 Runway

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Everything unfolds and reveals itself in the way it was meant to

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i dont care how corny iris by the goo goo dolls is bc i love iris by the goo goo dolls and i will continue screaming iris by the goo goo dolls from the top of my lungs every time i hear iris by the goo goo dolls for the rest of my miserable life 

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I wanna hug the music, is that too much to ask?

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me, looking back on it all:

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I have mixed thoughts on sex work. I love sex, but I hate work!

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Bram Stoker’s Dracula (1992)

Directed by Francis Ford Coppola

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Me

What it’s like living with Autism and ADHD as an Adult;

Surfaces? Cluttered with random shit, literally no organization anywhere ever

Able to watch an entire series, not remember a damn thing. Don’t even bother to remember names of the characters either

Speaking of names? What’s your name again? I know you told me 50 times already I’m sorry.

I collect Accents in my brain like they are fucking Pokémon cards

Books, movies, albums, games everywhere. Never read, watched, maybe listened to a single song, played that game for 20 minutes and never played it again. More decorations I guess.

Wait, y’all have consistent diets and workout plans? I could never.

Did I pay that bill? *checks my reminders, forgot to set the reminder*

Sorry I didn’t reply to your text, I read it and replied in my head but forgot to type and send it

Rereading an entire chapter cause while reading a certain passage my mind wandered again

I absolutely hate a lot of those “ADHD Lifehack” videos. They don’t work lol

Annoyed by basic human interaction while craving it at the same exact time

Know what a Social Meter is? I memorized mine

Phone calls are terrifying unless I’m 100% comfortable with you. Even then it sometimes can be overstimulating

RIP to all my plants I got when I was hyperfixating on them and forgot about them

I can determine if I want to be friends with you based on a small conversation when we meet. Majority of people I don’t consider friends and will only talk to them to pass time.

A part of my body has to constantly be moving or I get anxiety, fuckin weird amirite

When I’m hyperfixated on a certain hobby, I go hard until I literally burn myself out. I know I do it but I physically can’t stop myself until I’m burnt out. Will probably resume it in a few months though.

Self care means nothing to me

Watching a show that’s more than two seasons is very difficult

I’m able to completely forget about people for months. No I don’t do this on purpose. Lost a lot of friends this way. It hurts to be honest but I understand.

My aesthetic can change QUICK. For example: I can have a 80s style phase, punk or alternative phase, responsible adult phase, outdoorsman phase, and pretty much every style you can think of in the course of a week.

People think I’m fake because I can relate to most things and interests

I can stare off and think of something in depth, forget about it as soon as become aware of my surroundings. (Intense daydreams)

I was labeled as lazy growing up. I literally tried to be the best I could but I mentally couldn’t do anything after school no matter how much I tried.

The fear of never knowing what I want career wise cause my wants change frequently

I have a talent of figuring out other people are autistic based if they are like me in the slightest way. I’m right about 60 to 70% of the time. I don’t tell them though.

I’m easily overwhelmed by basic adult tasks. Can be as simple as dishes or laundry. Bills are debt are a nightmare

The future honestly terrifies me. Good or bad, I naturally stress about everything. No idea why. Planning with me is a nightmare

When I say I don’t care, I genuinely don’t care. I’m not being mean, I’m just passive cause options overwhelm me.

There’s a ton more but if I keep going I’ll get off track more than I already have.

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She sins like a Devil, but loves like an Angel.

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