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Just recently got off my anxiety meds.

The best decision I’ve ever made honestly, I don’t feel empty. I don’t feel sad anymore. The medication was making me feel like I NEEDED it and I didn’t hence me feeling alive again. I’m not in the funk I was a month ago and I’m truly grateful for that.

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My anxiety was so bad when I woke up this morning that I cried for an hour straight before dragging myself out of bed just to wash my face and brush my teeth.

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“Recovery is a process. It takes time. It takes patience. It takes everything you’ve got.”

— Unknown

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The voice in the back of my mind today reminded me that I am no longer happy with the person that I’m with. Their presence doesn’t make my heart happy like it used to. I think I rushed my heart into this one. He was the first one to tell me that he loved me and I clearly remember it. I stared at my phone for about an hour because I knew I liked him but didn’t love him but I said it back anyway. I want this to work cause I know he loves and cares for me. I also care for him, but it’s not love. I’m stuck and have no way of telling him. I think the biggest thing is that he acted different when we were dating now that we’ve lived with each other for a few months its a whole new different thing.

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Why is it so hard for me to love someone else, why is it hard for me reciprocate the affection someone else gives me? I can’t be letting my past relationship effect my future relationship. There’s a barrier in my heart not wanting me to get hurt again, but in the process of that I might hurt someone else.

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