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New Start

Today I decided to start doing things that are relevant to my coding. Despite that I consider myself a genius, talent was only a 1% of success. Getting hands dirty now makes more sense that it used to. 

New Year is coming, so I am deciding to move on with my life. Setting new goals for life and for the upcoming year.

As for 2018 I have few things on my mind like : 

Music project, 

Apple and Amazon interview, 

Make a research on Artificial Intellegence,

Try to get in Netflix, 

Do something with hardware project, 

And work a little on Computer assistant(Jarvis).

Also, the BOOOOM of BLOCKCHAIN technology makes me research about it and find a way that it can change the way we communicate. Internet of data(information) => Internet of Things. 

Todays goal:

Go through questions about HTML, CSS, JS.

Go through Java Tutorial, 

Go through Equimper API dev

Sounds like a lot to do and a lot of fun . 

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Why it is so hard sometimes to understand the code ?? 

Why every model needs controller and every controller need a route ?

Why ?

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Aaaaannnd that`s a wrap of the chapter “My first and crazy love !’

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I lost my lover and I lost my best friend !

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Me anima mea

What it feels like when you are in constant search of something more than everyone has. What is that feeling when you want to surpass all of your ancestors from the beginning of existence ? 

This question combines inside of my small world with lots of problems. The question for now, that does not let me go, is that I have always felt that everyone I had always keep on choosing someone else.

One of the brightest examples is my friend from childhood. We grow up together sharing some basic knowledge and vision of the world. Everything has changed when I moved in to another school that required me to stay there for 5 days in a week. I was trying to contact him every weekends, but it felt like as soon as I was gone, he found new people to hang out with. Its been the simplest instance and just a matter of time !

By the end of the school that I mentioned above as a “new school” I had two best friends, well I thought they were. One of them always had another friend that have been closer to him just because of the time they spent together. And other one was truly my soulmate. I remember the day when we first became that close. Night when we shared what we love and our deepest dreams. I had an illusion that for the rest of our lives we going to support each other on behalf of the friendship. But once he just told me that he has another friend who is closer than me for a second, and it just teared me apart. I think he never ever noticed that but I have been truly offended assuming what I have been ready to do for him. 

After the school I had another best friend who later became my girlfriend. Long story short, When I have been gone to a far planet with my things, he chose the same guy that one of my besties had in school, my first best friend in the of school. It feels like he is taking away people from me xD LOL !  

But despite all of that I have realized that there were only one person who was choosing me over and over for entire my life ! ITS ME, MYSELF. May be deep down inside I truly hate each one of them ? or may be I just never meet a person who won`t choose anyone else? 

Whatever it is, the best thing I can do is absolve and forgive them, cause often when keep anger and offense for someone, its turned out to be that we are prisoners of our own at the end. 

I forgive you all for scars you left on my heart and I let you go !