I didn't feel comfortable posting my issues on my other page so here I am. Old account was @be-gooone-fat.
height: 5'2" sw: 147 lbs, CW: 126.5, ugw 95-110
Disclaimer: This page is just for me for venting. I don't in any way promote self destructive behaviors. Please get help and recover as you can. We got this.
You don’t need that slice of cake, because you don’t want to be fat right? its dry and the frosting is far two sweet anyways, it wouldn’t be worth it. have some water, or tea, or coffee instead.
there you go, just breath, the craving will pass. look at these pretty girls instead. don’t you want to look like them? pretty protruding collarbones and hips, its beautiful right? They are dainty and angelic, that is what you want if im correct?
now look at yourself, look down at those pathetic rolls you have, and they layers of fat that cover your whole body. You don’t really need that cake after dinner. You didn’t need dinner to begin with did you?
but im here, im stuck to you. together, we can make you lovely, we can make you skinny, we can make you absolutely beautiful. You wont get rid of me. Im helping you become what you know you must become.
just listen to me and you can have everything you want.
- your body is the only body you’ve got. it’s going to look like YOUR body, regardless of what size it is. working out or dieting to try to look like x picture or y model is only going to lead to disappointment. work out to look like the healthiest, best version of you, first and foremost.
- the body changes slowly. stop googling ‘how to lose x pounds in y days’ or you’ll throw yourself into a pit of obsessing over water weight that will come and go like … well … water. whether you’re trying to lose inches or grow a butt or tone up or whatever, it’s going to take time, so stop counting it and take things day by day.
- you have to eat well, most days, for the indefinite future. this means learning recipes you actually like that you’ll actually eat.
- eat when you’re hungry, until you’re not hungry anymore. this involves paying attention to your food; stop eating while you watch stuff, and start focusing on your food and how your body reacts to it. be mindful, enjoy, and control your portions naturally. finding the ‘sweet spot’ - also known as satiety - takes time and focus, but eventually you’ll figure out how to stop before you’re too full.
- the best calorie counter, step tracker and exercise calculator is your body. While it might be helpful at the beginning to keep a food diary or weigh yourself occasionally, the numbers don’t really matter. if you make the right choices over a consistent period of time, things will change for the better. even obsessive tracking will never be as accurate as your body is; let it go, trust your process, and give up the “tracking”.
- while I agree that weight loss is 75% diet, 25% exercise, I also believe that happiness comes from moving around often and intentionally. Don’t skip the workouts, the walks, the yoga sessions just because you think it’ll save you a snack or something. If you want to change the shape of your body, building muscle can help that to a degree - so you’ll want to exercise lots and fuel your muscles to help them grow. Otherwise, things as simple as long walks or high intensity interval routines a few days a week can do the body and the mind a world of good.
- self love honestly does change a lot. when you stop looking at yourself negatively, you start recognizing more and more of your own beauty. this doesn’t mean that self love means “settling” for looking a certain way - it just means that you’ll love where you are at every stage, and that’s what really counts (as cheesy as it sounds).
So, the last few days I mentally haven't been feeling that great. It's not really bad, just kinda this sad numbness and I usually don't cry but I have cried twice in the last few day but like the blank faced tears are falling and I'm not even sure why kind of crying plus a few tiny sobs and it's just a big oof. I keep going on with my day, it's not bad enough to make a big deal out of it. I just wanna curl up in a ball for a while, but life goes on so I must too.
Hiya, so this is my ED playlist. It's kinda personal in a way; these songs have stuck with me since the start of my mental spiral, even though my music taste got more varied.