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is self-blame

part of

bargaining

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it was so hard to breathe

sirens were the only music ringing on my ears

if i ever told them, would you still be here

i am picking up the fault

i knew better

i had it in my mind

i couldn't bare to see you

to hold you

or to talk to you

how was it easy for death to come

and not easy to be given another chance

to live

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and if we don't end up together?

i'll find you in every universe

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how long

of violence

pride,

and anger

will it take

to be so gentle

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her canvas

was yet again

painted with

hate

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all she ever

wanted is

to feel

a mother's love

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she finally realize

why the world

was against her

despise

and

pour anger

towards her

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how can a person

be filled with pure anger

and nothing but

anger

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catching her breathe

when she is not

even running

it feels so hot

in a cold room

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two options

on her mind

if she could have

a time machine

would she go back

or

would she just accept

her fate

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"it's just a bad day, not a bad life"

how can a bad day turned into a bad life

and counting for more

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unwashed clothes

from the day, i still had you

scared for your scent

to be removed by another

i want to keep it

until i'm ready

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no more

waiting for

update messages

at six pm

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it's okay to leave

you won't endure the pain

anymore

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know that i will always be at the waiting room

waiting for you to recover

even if it takes forever

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the kid under the blanket

seeks comfort with warmth and dark

a cold air brushed their skin

as they fell asleep hiding from the light

they have felt the comfort of their own blanket

and not from the people who raised them

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you despise your daughter

so much

she curses you until your death