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Everyday is a new day. A day to breathe A day to live A day to laugh A day to enjoy A day to be free Free from stress Free from hurt Free from bad company And free from lack of unhappiness. Everyday deserve to be wonderful, special, worthy and precious. Live your day comfortable.

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A Caribbean BoyxBoy Story!                   The Breakup                      Episode 1

Laying on my bed as I stared up at the ceiling, a sudden rushed of my horrible past which was almost a year ago flooded my mind. I was thinking about that cold, rainy night coming home from work and walking in on my boyfriend Jason and my best friend Dave having sex on the floor. In that moment I felt like I was about to drop dead. I felt my heart skipped beats like a bulb switching off and on. I wanted to kill them both and myself. I wanted to run away and never come back. I wanted to stay and pretend nothing had happened and it was all just a bad dream but the reality was so real and clear and right there that it broke my heart in so many pieces.  The pain and hurt I was enduring in that moment was so devastating. As I began to start blaming myself for what happened, the tears from my eyes suddenly stopped streaming and the pain in my heart felt numbed. And as I looked at my boyfriend and my best friend standing before me naked, I started smiling to myself almost as if i was going crazy. Jason: Kevin, I can explain. I didn't mean to do this. As you can see Dave and I had a lot drinking. Dave: None of this was meant to happened, Kevin. You know I will never do anything to hurt you or betrayed our friendship. Trust me. Kevin: Trust you? You want me to trust you after this? I should of seen the signs. Take note of everything you said concerning my relationship with Jason. I knew you had a crush on him. I knew you felt some type of way towards my man but I never once thought you would fuck him. Dave: Kevin, it's not like that. I... Kevin: Enough. Just stop trying to deny what is real here. You fucked my man. You got what you always wanted. What's next, Dave? Who will be the next man you jumped in bed with? Who will be the next best friend you betray? Whose relationship will you destroy next? Just when Jason was about to say something, Kevin started crying again. Kevin: I knew one day or some day you will cheat on me. Even though I wasn't believing it, I knew a day like this would come but never would it be with my best friend you  did it with. As much as I'm hurting, I got to admit this happened for a reason. I don't know the reason yet but I'm sure it's a good one. Jason: Kevin. You know how much I love and care about you. You know that. You know Dave mean nothing to me. You are the one I love. Only you. Dave: Wow. for someone who was enjoying every beat of me a while ago, sure wasn't saying all of that. Jason: Shut the fuck up, Dave. Kevin: Yeah, you should. Because just hearing your voice giving me hype to beat the shit out of you or probably kill you. I'm sure you don't want that do you? Dave: Why would I want that? Even if I do, you know what I'm capable of doing. Kevin: Of course, stabbing your best friend in the back. Betraying our friendship for some dick. I mean, after all that's the only thing you worth. Some dick. Nothing more. Jason: Baby.... Kevin: Don't you ever in your life call me baby. You sound stupid calling me baby after fucking my best friend. You don't get to call me baby or my name ever again. Jason: You don't mean that, Kevin. You don't. Kevin: Believe me, Jason. I have never been so serious in my life before. I meant what I said. You both deserve each other and I deserve better. Starting from today. I'm going to walk out of this relationship, this house and your life for good Jason. And I don't want to see you ever again. As my past decided to send me back to reality, I couldn't believe I was crying like a baby. My face and pillow was soaked in tears. For a short moment my heart felt a sharp pain and then it all disappeared. I promised myself that I will never cry like this again but every time I remember my past, my eyes never seems to defeat my tears from coming out. Guess my eyes is as weak as my heart. Today is finally Monday. I was happy and excited because every Monday and Fridays I get to hang out and have lunch with my friends Titi, Akim, Crissy and Chris who was one of the most handsome guys I've ever met. Jason was handsome. That I will give to him but Chris. Just saying his name can make your sex drive move from ten to a hundred. He was the better version of August Alsina. A five percent cuter. Chris had the looks, the style, the smell and most of all the many tattoos which is a very big turn on for me. Yes. I love guys with tattoos and long braided hair. blue or brown eyes and big thick pink lips. But sadly, Chris is straight and have a girlfriend who he claimed to love so much. Not that I'm jealous or anything but it's just that Chris is my ideal type of guy. At times I wish he was gay. Wish for just one day or night with him. Lord knows I'll take him to heaven and back. When I got to the restaurant where my friends were waiting, I couldn't believe they were so happy to see me. I haven't been out with them lately because I was so busy taking care of my two businesses. I got two very successful Boutiques and I couldn't ask God for anything more. Well, except to be with Chris one day or at least find someone almost just like him. Crissy: Bitch, what you took you so long to get here? And don't tell me it's the traffic. Kevin: It was the traffic. Plus I had to stop off at the stores to see how my girls were doing. Titi: More like you been getting some good dick. Look at you. Looking all good and shit. Everyone started laughing. Kevin: Bitch, I haven't had some dick since the day I get rid off Jason in my life. When he left, the dick left with him. Y'all know Jason was that good in bed,  guess that's why my best friend had to get some. We all started laughing again. Titi: Akim, aren't you going to tell Kevin the good news? Kevin: What good news? ​Akim: Well, Tina is pregnant. Kevin: Okay. Good for her. But what's that got to do with you? Crissy: It got everything to do with him. Kevin: Wait, are you the father? Akim: Yes. And before you say it's not mines, Tina and I was still messing around after we broke up. Kevin: So, what about Dontae? Does he know about this? Akim: No. I didn't tell him yet because I don't know how to tell him. I know he gone be mad as hell. Kevin: Bitch, if it were me, hell I will be too. But you got to tell him. Akim: Yeah. I will. Titi: Look, enough of all these messy drama. Let's order our food and get going. I got my man to meet up with in the next hour. Kevin: Where is Chris? Aren't he coming? Chris: No. Chris texted me an hour  ago and said he wouldn't make today. Titi: And you now saying this bitch? Crissy: Yes because I forgot. After what seemed like a whole day having lunch with my friends. I was back at one of my Boutiques getting a tone of work done.

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I will accept you just like I've accepted myself. You will get the same love and respect from me whether you are black, white, gay, straight, Asian, bisexual, tall, fat whatever it is. We are all humans, and I look at the people of the world the same way, as my brothers and sisters.