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woah now, hold the phone. youre like, really cute.

-scales

Aw, gee. You're making me blush

- Larry

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i hope i can become a person you can trust, esp since hes vanished. being alone is ass.

im not gonna push you to talk about it, but if anything comes up, always feel free to vent and rant as much as you want.

-scales

Thank you, I appreciate you

- Larry

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we should make out huh? hey, im not opposed

-scales

wink wink nudge nudge

- Larry

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How can we know it's you? For all we know, you could be someone pretending to be Larry

There. Happy now?

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hey, you don't need to apologize. it seems you have A Lot to get off your chest, and you need to. sounds like you're severely traumatized and didnt have anyone you could really go to about it - without getting judged or scolded, i mean.

so dump away, i wanna know. what hopes and dreams did you use to have? what repressed memories were you suffering from? and what the hell happened with roy that he effected you so badly?

this is the kinda shit that will destroy you if you dont talk about it. and believe me, ive been through some shit too. so talk to me. dump as much as you want.

-scales

Yeeeeahhh... I love my brother, but Tony never listened to me. Never understood. And besides him, I didn't really trust anyone

I don't really wanna confront it, tho. I mean, it would be more constructive than drinking it away, but I really don't want to

Just, everything sucks

- Larry

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shrugs. hey, im not judging you. i mean, im not excusing it either, but hey. it means i got to meet you, right?

man, that... sounds really odd, actually, that it was left behind so suddenly. nothing happened to em that you know of?

-scales

Something Something silver lining huh?

Nothing happened. They just... vanished

- Larry

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lean away hun, i gotcha. hope you dont mind but ive decided to get to know you better by asking you a bunch of get to know you questions. starting wiiiiith... what are your hobbies? whatcha do for fun? getting fucked up doesnt count /lh

-scales

Thanks, I appreciate you. You get me like no outher, we should make out

Mh, let me think... I don't really have much going on, tho I like drawing and watching challenge runs

- Larry

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What were you like before the vices?

Man, I hardly remember...

I was naive, filled with hopes and dreams. I was a lot happier. For a while, I actually cared about my stupid job.

Then came the Nightmares, which apparently were repressed fucking memories that Tony knew where real, but he never told me

And when I told Roy, he got me hooked. Ruined me! I couldn't even look at my uniform because of him, let alone continue to wear it... I don't even know where I left it

... that was quite the dump huh. Sorry bout that

- Larry

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how did you find the blog? and how are you answering? is there a computer in the nothing space you mentioned, or did you find a phone with this blog pulled up, or something else?

-scales

Aight imma keep it a buck fifty

Before I left, I was snooping through their stuff. Not my proudest moment, but then again, I'm the addiction guy, so I don't have any proud moments to boast about anyway

Found a note with passwords, logged into Colin's pc and the blog was open. He didn't even...

Connected it to my phone, and then I left. Just scrolled through the entire blog and found out waaayyy too much information about their intimacy. But also found more important info

So yeah, that's that I guess

- Larry

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its a difficult thing, figuring out who you are. lucky you have plenty of time to figure that out. and hey, ill be here to help along the way. youre not alone.

-scales

Thank you, I really appreciate you

Leaning my head on your shoulder in spirit. You get me like no outher

- Larry

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maybe its not that you were never good at anything. maybe its that you werent suited to the environment that you were in, and thats okay. maybe now that youre out, you can find where you belong, find who you are and what you want in life, find out what youre good at. maybe now you can create and build a life that you wont have to escape from, maybe now you can build a life that makes you happy and fulfilled.

-scales

That might be...

Man, I don't even know where I'd start. I don't know who I am outside of this life

- Larry

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what do you want for your life now? besides a fixed relationship with your brother. if the present sucks and the past was worse, what kind of future do you want to have?

-scales

That's... a good question.

I never knew what I wanted to do with my life. I never was good at anything. I just... want a life that I don't have to fucking escape from

- Larry

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What's your relationship with Colin like?

I find him cool. He's good to Tony. Tho I don't think he likes me much, considering how much of a pain I was to my brother

- Larry

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man, is that really the only happy memory you have of your brother? thats gotta sting... im sorry, that its been so rough.

-scales

Yeah hhh

I have more memories of him scolding me in a restrained, hissed voice or of him kicking my ass

And I mean, I suck. I'm a mess. He had to clean up after me more often than not and took the heat from management for me. And I thanked him by cursing him out or being a brat

I don't blame him for losing his temper with me

- Larry

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sorry, didnt mean to come across as hurtful. just concerned for you. i get it, i really do. i just dont want you to get hurt, you feel me?

"getting a grip" is easier said than done. like, to get yourself in order you gotta deal with the shit that put you out of order. and that shits hard.

-scales

I feel you, no offense taken

Yeah... I really don't want to deal with that shit. I have the Hardest life imaginable

- Larry

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Getting beat up, never seeing his face enough to remember it, living together but never seeing each outher...

Geez, do you have Any good memories of Tony?

I- huh

Oh! I officiated his wedding! It was the happiest day, seeing them so happy and in looove. Colin is good to my brother. I was even sober enough not to be an embarrassment!

Outher than that...

- Larry

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Before all this, you lived in their basement, right? And yet you probably didn't see him much, considering the LC... it must have been really lonely

What were you doing during that time?

Yeah, that's right

Honestly, I was either getting high or sleeping. Tho Paige sometimes visited me, and we hung out. She's like a mom to me. Tho haven't seen her in ages

- Larry